so my friend told me to download, Corel Draw to create graphics for my website. I can tell you this, I suck at it. lol. I dont want an extremely fancy webpage. just something nice, and clean looking, with a little attitude, thats all. Why are things so hard? lol. i did the first version of the site entirely by myself with html-but i dont like the site itself- so blah, back to square 1

my bf is so sweet and so freakin awesome

he is going to spend the money to buy my cloak from the renaissance fair. the same cloak that he put the deposit on. the only stipulation is that when we go on trips, i cant ask him for anything (except food) which is ok. he explained that it makes him feel bad that he cant get me everything i want when i ask him for that. and i felt bad because i didnt realize that it was making him feel bad. so yah! i get my cloak for closing day of the renaissance fair. at least i hope i have money to buy my own stuff, and get him something nice, lol! i get to wear my garb that i made, which matches perfectly with the cloak!!! and i get to tidy up some loose ends with the garb

ive decided im going to email a friend of a friend about doing my website. he did hers, and he also does digital touch ups and whatnot on pictures, so yeah, plus i get a discount! i cant wait to put it up

it will be a completely different side of me, lol. my nasty, dominant, bitchy side comes out on that site i love it

i feel better today

i decided that i am going to redo my website. well just change a couple of things, and hopefully have some good pictures to put up

ive been making and editing my fetish videos yay. i love torturing my little subbies, it is very fun

i want a brownie!

life sucks right now, and i am not happy
i had to deal with incompetent social workers, dumb ass doctors, and retarded receptionists, today has not been a good day
as a matter of fact, these past few months have not been good

today has been a very shitty day. dealing with social services and the incompetent people at my doctors office is taking a toll on me. i mean seriously? is it that hard to call in a prescription even if i give you 1 week in advance and remind you three times, and you tell me it would be ready, but it turns out you never called it in? i am starting to hate doctors.

so tomorrow i get my prescription, ive been a week without it and thats bad, but thanks to that secret money i found i can get it. i also pick up the paper work to RE MAIL it to the liberty mutual people since they are so damn incompetent

what did i do today

1-i went to the store
2-i learned how to animate gifs woohoo
3-i worked on my website

i still wish i had somebody near enough that can take a couple of pictures for me to put on my site. but everyone i know is at least an hour a way, and the people that are close to me are not photography blessed (shaky hands, blurry pix, etc)

i stll wish i had my photoshop working, my friend is supposed to help me fix it
I NEED it to work to do my website lol. once i have my website up, I am set

anywho, how is everyone doing today?
random question of the day:

do you still think about your ex?

i just learned how to make a .gif animation yay for me, lol. im excited.

still having problems with photoshop and working on my website. i NEED help lol. i wish my bf was good with taking pictures, but his hand is soooo damn shakey and that sucks. lol

im bored. i want to take some pictures but i havent done my hair lol
today my friend wanted me to go visit her. i dont really feel like going out. but it would be nice getting out of the house, and going somewhere else. but i like to sleep, especially with the meds. and im pretty sure that my friends are tired of me taking naps at their house

ive been working hard on my fetish site (yes i do fetish work). and completed it. but....i dont like it, lol. im going to do the whole thing over. change the wording around, update the pictures, put a set theme to it. my photoshop decided it did not want to work which is BS. but my old laptop has a copy of photoshop on it. but the screen is broken. and the last time i used it i had it hooked up to one of those 1985 big ass external monitors. lol-i miss my photoshop

but..if any of you have time and would love to make the front page, and a couple of banners for me. then PM me, ill give you details, and i will love you long time! lol im proud that i learned html and was able to complete the site myself, i must admit, i am awesome, lol-but i want a new page. lol

i also need to get my room set up to record some videos and post them to my site. but i dont feel like it. im just gonna call my friend up and go hang out with her at her house watch movies, maybe get her to take some pictures for me. even though her hand is kinda shakey lol

i have the perfect pose that i want for my opening page, and a couple of other things. so yeah, pm me if you wanna help me out on this project. because i definitely dont have the money to get photoshop working. i cant even find the freaking disc!

i love shoes. im going to add more shoes to my amazon wishlist for my boys to buy ive gotten a couple of gifts. shoes and clothes, but havent been on as much as i should be because i havent been feeling well. so im going to jump back into my game lol

well for now. i am going to go. till next time folks

xoxo

ya know whats awesome. my boyfriend and i just flipped the mattress because i was feeling uncomfortable. so we flip the mattress and i find an enevlope with $160 in it, that is awesome it turned out it was an envelope that i was using to keep the money in from the first disney trip. that means that it was in there for over a year

hmm..what to do today
the weather is crappy, and when it is crappy i get lazy
its not like i dont have anything to do around the house. i need to fold and put away clothes and clean up and vacuum, i just dont want to do it lol

blah