I get the distinct feeling it'll be another whiskey christmas this year.
It's cool, I'm patient.
this made me laugh.
It's cool, I'm patient.
this made me laugh.
ok, I got a new phone. So everyone call me and leave a message so I can start programming numbers BACK in.
Ugh.
Ugh.
Yea.
I had a really good time hanging out with Brandigitty-dog. She took me out and reminded me what friends are about. I felt special. And I realized a couple of other things. Definately a turning point, tonight. It hurts. A lot. But I guess (unfortunately), that's what makes me human. 'Cuz this sucks.
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Breathe in for luck
breathe in so deep
this air is blessed
you share with me
this night is wild
so calm and dull
these hearts they race
from self control
your legs
are smooth
as they graze mine
we're doing fine...
we're doing nothing at all
My hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me
so I die happy.
My heart is yours
to fill or burst
to break or bury
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed
let's not get busted,
just lay entwined here
undiscovered.
Safe in here
from all the stupid questions..
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet,
stay near,
stay close,
they can't hear...
so we can get some.
My hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours
to fill or burst
to break or bury
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
hands down!
this is best day!
I can
ever remember
always remember
the sound of the stereo
down and the soft lights
the scent of your hair
that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock
when we realized it's so late
and this love that we shared
together
the streets were wet
and the gate was locked
so I jumped down
and I let you in
and you stood at your door
with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me
like you meant it
and I knew
that you meant it
that you meant it
that you meant it
and I knew
that you meant it
that you meant it...
I had a really good time hanging out with Brandigitty-dog. She took me out and reminded me what friends are about. I felt special. And I realized a couple of other things. Definately a turning point, tonight. It hurts. A lot. But I guess (unfortunately), that's what makes me human. 'Cuz this sucks.
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Breathe in for luck
breathe in so deep
this air is blessed
you share with me
this night is wild
so calm and dull
these hearts they race
from self control
your legs
are smooth
as they graze mine
we're doing fine...
we're doing nothing at all
My hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me
so I die happy.
My heart is yours
to fill or burst
to break or bury
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
The words are hushed
let's not get busted,
just lay entwined here
undiscovered.
Safe in here
from all the stupid questions..
"hey did you get some?"
Man, that is so dumb.
Stay quiet,
stay near,
stay close,
they can't hear...
so we can get some.
My hopes are so high
that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me,
so I die happy.
My heart is yours
to fill or burst
to break or bury
or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.
hands down!
this is best day!
I can
ever remember
always remember
the sound of the stereo
down and the soft lights
the scent of your hair
that you twirled in your fingers
and the time on the clock
when we realized it's so late
and this love that we shared
together
the streets were wet
and the gate was locked
so I jumped down
and I let you in
and you stood at your door
with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me
like you meant it
and I knew
that you meant it
that you meant it
that you meant it
and I knew
that you meant it
that you meant it...
Is someone getting the best of you?
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Is it wrong that I sit here and can still be angry, unappreciated, and sad, all at the same time?
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Well my words, they may sound familiar
Like ones you may have heard before
When I tried to write you a love song
I simply could think of nothing more
I love you, I want you, and I need you
I'd love to have you by my side
Yea I love you, and I want you, and I need you
Because Your love gives my soul a place to hide
I've thought of different ways to tell you
Words however, they come up short
Of the way that I really feel about you
Of the way, you're always on my mind
How can I say it any different
The words they all mean the same
Yea, I love you, and I want you and I need you
Ain't a rose still a rose by another name
And The words of those who came before me
Might have sparkled on the page and made you high
Yeah but All I know is that the thought of life without you
Is enough to make, a pretty strong man cry
And Amy when I speak to you please listen
Smile, laugh, or cry just don't walk away
Yea I love you, I want you and I need you
Please tell me that you feel the same
And My words they may sound familiar
Like ones you may have heard before
But never were they said with such conviction
I know they will ring true, forever more
I love you, I want you, and I need you
I'd love to have you by my side
Yea I love you, and I want you, and I need you
Because Your love gives my soul a place to hide
Yea your love, is the only place that I can hide.
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Jack Ingram
Song for Amy
Acoustic Motel
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Is it wrong that I sit here and can still be angry, unappreciated, and sad, all at the same time?
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Well my words, they may sound familiar
Like ones you may have heard before
When I tried to write you a love song
I simply could think of nothing more
I love you, I want you, and I need you
I'd love to have you by my side
Yea I love you, and I want you, and I need you
Because Your love gives my soul a place to hide
I've thought of different ways to tell you
Words however, they come up short
Of the way that I really feel about you
Of the way, you're always on my mind
How can I say it any different
The words they all mean the same
Yea, I love you, and I want you and I need you
Ain't a rose still a rose by another name
And The words of those who came before me
Might have sparkled on the page and made you high
Yeah but All I know is that the thought of life without you
Is enough to make, a pretty strong man cry
And Amy when I speak to you please listen
Smile, laugh, or cry just don't walk away
Yea I love you, I want you and I need you
Please tell me that you feel the same
And My words they may sound familiar
Like ones you may have heard before
But never were they said with such conviction
I know they will ring true, forever more
I love you, I want you, and I need you
I'd love to have you by my side
Yea I love you, and I want you, and I need you
Because Your love gives my soul a place to hide
Yea your love, is the only place that I can hide.
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Jack Ingram
Song for Amy
Acoustic Motel
ENOUGH. I can't take any more shit.
NONE. FUCK OFF.
I can't even justify my full-time job. The worst part is, most of the people that want me to stay, can't justify my staying either. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCKTHIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS.
I avoided seeing one of my closest friends (other than Jenn) just because I didn't want any more shit today. That's pretty goddamn sad. And look what I get. I go back to the job that I want to make full-time, and all I get are text messages from the last person I need stress from.
I can't begin to tell the story about work. I don't have the energy anymore. I have been working eight shifts a week, and trying to cover 2-3 shifts at a bar just to pay myfucking bills. My bank account is over-drawn, and I just got my cable turned back on. And all I get is shit on at my main job.
I don't think there is enough liquor in the world to drown my sorrows right now. I can't even make rent, YET. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.
Enough already. How much more do I need/deserve? Ididn't think that my karma was that backed up...
RAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
I just want to tear shit up. I want to rebel against every lame ass bitch that lives at home and can work 3 shifts a week. I want to punch people in the nose that prevent me from making my NEXT shift, the one where I work till 3am. I want to shoot every whale that beaches itself. Every dumb fucker that gives up, while I kill myself working no less than 11 shifts a week. YOU CAN ALL GO TO HELL.
Ok, I guess I'm done.
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Sadly enough, I am not pissed enough to leave that damn entry un-edited.
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Update:
Quit Saltimboccas today. The owner completely lost it and started cussing me out in front of the staff.
I was glad other servers were there to see him blow his stack. He didn't even let me finish my sentence. Then he threw me out of the restaraunt, lol.
NONE. FUCK OFF.
I can't even justify my full-time job. The worst part is, most of the people that want me to stay, can't justify my staying either. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCKTHIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS. FUCK THIS.
I avoided seeing one of my closest friends (other than Jenn) just because I didn't want any more shit today. That's pretty goddamn sad. And look what I get. I go back to the job that I want to make full-time, and all I get are text messages from the last person I need stress from.
I can't begin to tell the story about work. I don't have the energy anymore. I have been working eight shifts a week, and trying to cover 2-3 shifts at a bar just to pay myfucking bills. My bank account is over-drawn, and I just got my cable turned back on. And all I get is shit on at my main job.
I don't think there is enough liquor in the world to drown my sorrows right now. I can't even make rent, YET. FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK.
Enough already. How much more do I need/deserve? Ididn't think that my karma was that backed up...
RAWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.
I just want to tear shit up. I want to rebel against every lame ass bitch that lives at home and can work 3 shifts a week. I want to punch people in the nose that prevent me from making my NEXT shift, the one where I work till 3am. I want to shoot every whale that beaches itself. Every dumb fucker that gives up, while I kill myself working no less than 11 shifts a week. YOU CAN ALL GO TO HELL.
Ok, I guess I'm done.
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Sadly enough, I am not pissed enough to leave that damn entry un-edited.
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Update:
Quit Saltimboccas today. The owner completely lost it and started cussing me out in front of the staff.
I was glad other servers were there to see him blow his stack. He didn't even let me finish my sentence. Then he threw me out of the restaraunt, lol.
I'm glad that I am the most dense person that you have ever met, wow... good to be me. You're right, there isn't any point in trying to talk to me whenever things are like this. Why don't you tell her all the things that you have said about her? Oh... that's right, because you see a future with her... why don't you grow up?! I tried to talk to you about everything remember??? You were the one who never wanted to talk... or did you forget that too??!! I should've known that ONCE AGAIN you would side with her... I hope that you two end up happy together... you have always chosen her over me, I should have known. Sorry that I thought you loved me... I really did love you. Damn, that sucks.
Oh shit. Hide your bunnies.
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On a more important note. I went out with the Kurtis, and had an expensive, but wonderful time. More fun than I've had in longer than I can remember.
Then, I came home with someone special. No sex, groping or, otherwise bad behavior. Just a nice evening setting things right. And I feel like we are square.
Shame on me for doing things right for once.
LOOOOOOOOOOONG before my bunny-stew email.
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Name the movie.
Oh shit. Hide your bunnies.
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On a more important note. I went out with the Kurtis, and had an expensive, but wonderful time. More fun than I've had in longer than I can remember.
Then, I came home with someone special. No sex, groping or, otherwise bad behavior. Just a nice evening setting things right. And I feel like we are square.
Shame on me for doing things right for once.
LOOOOOOOOOOONG before my bunny-stew email.
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Name the movie.
Had a good day today. Took care of some things around the house. Fixed my toilet, did laundry, blah blah blah.
Had a good night as well. Talked to an old friend, had some drinks at Bobby V's. It was nice to chill out and have a decent conversation about nothing and everything. It's a shame we couldn't talk about the "need/want" things, but that's not entirely my fault. Some blame lies with me, but I'm going to do everything I can to rectify that situation.
Also a good night, because I tied up some "loose ends". It's about time I did that. I'm just so damn tired of bullshit coming in the way of what I want. Mostly, being happy. And getting through my crap-ass work schedule without losing my gaddamn mind. I work myself to death, why do I need unnecessary drama?!?
Done deal.
Time to be selfish and do what I need to do, fuck 'em if it leaves 'em wasted and miserable on the side of the road.
It's my life.
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Update!
All loose ends tied up. Think I might have to change my phone number though, ugh. Hooray for working a double tonight!
Had a good night as well. Talked to an old friend, had some drinks at Bobby V's. It was nice to chill out and have a decent conversation about nothing and everything. It's a shame we couldn't talk about the "need/want" things, but that's not entirely my fault. Some blame lies with me, but I'm going to do everything I can to rectify that situation.
Also a good night, because I tied up some "loose ends". It's about time I did that. I'm just so damn tired of bullshit coming in the way of what I want. Mostly, being happy. And getting through my crap-ass work schedule without losing my gaddamn mind. I work myself to death, why do I need unnecessary drama?!?
Done deal.
Time to be selfish and do what I need to do, fuck 'em if it leaves 'em wasted and miserable on the side of the road.
It's my life.
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Update!
All loose ends tied up. Think I might have to change my phone number though, ugh. Hooray for working a double tonight!
