Ok here's the details on my b-day shenanigans!
Date: Wednesday, Feb. 1st 2006
Location: Lucky's Billiards (behind IHOP @ Little rd. and 20)
Time: uhhhh 9pm. Yea I'll be drinking there LONG before...
Entertainment: Nick and Dan, and me once I get wasted
What to bring: A good attitude, no drama, and money to spend on BOOZE BOOZE BOOZE!!!! (contributions to pay the band will be warmly welcomed, I'm footing the bill for them this year)
There will be drink specials and shot specials, blah blah blah.
Let's have some fun just like we do every year!
Date: Wednesday, Feb. 1st 2006
Location: Lucky's Billiards (behind IHOP @ Little rd. and 20)
Time: uhhhh 9pm. Yea I'll be drinking there LONG before...
Entertainment: Nick and Dan, and me once I get wasted
What to bring: A good attitude, no drama, and money to spend on BOOZE BOOZE BOOZE!!!! (contributions to pay the band will be warmly welcomed, I'm footing the bill for them this year)
There will be drink specials and shot specials, blah blah blah.
Let's have some fun just like we do every year!
Shooter Jennings.
He had a dad. His name was Waylon.
I'm out. I can't afford this for now.
You all know how to get ahold of me.
Scarredangel@comcast.net
You can also find me on myspace under the same username: scarredangel.
He had a dad. His name was Waylon.
I'm out. I can't afford this for now.
You all know how to get ahold of me.
Scarredangel@comcast.net
You can also find me on myspace under the same username: scarredangel.
Short and Sweet:
Jack Ingram was incredible tuesday night! Went by myself, Colin ditched out at the last minute, but it was still awesome!
Jack Ingram was incredible tuesday night! Went by myself, Colin ditched out at the last minute, but it was still awesome!
New Year's Resolution
Current mood: contemplative
So I'm sitting around at work last night, and my buddy Colin is talking about how his sister fucked him over again. And we got to talking about how Colin is one of the nicest people you've ever met until you fuck him over. Then he doesn't get angry, he doesn't become stand-offish. He steals your fucking soul. I've seen Colin and his sister go at it, it's not very pretty. And it made me think about some things.
I used to be like that. I used to tell people when I met them, "hey, just so you know ahead of time. I can be the best friend you'll ever have, but don't fuck me over, cuz I'm the WORST enemy you'll ever want." What happened to that? Yea, it's maybe not the greatest way to go about things, but hell. It was just a part of the person I was. Now I'm this doormat shaped thing that people have felt obliged to wipe their feet (and other parts) all over. What the fuck.
So I've been doing some "soul searching" after some of the events of the last two years. I've already decided that I'm not jumping into anymore relationships, emotionally AND physically (much to the chagrin of the girl I'm dating). I'm striving to be truly independant, and to make things right in my life. Not that there is that much wrong (unlike some people I know), I jsut want to get my finances in check, and make some minor adjustments to my lifestyle (exercise, cutting back drinking, etc.).
So having thought about this last night, I think the two pretty much go hand in hand. And just for shits and tickles, I'm going to make the attitude change retroactive. If you don't know what that means, just watch and see.
Having gotten in touch with an old friend/ex also helped this along. I couldn't figure out why I was friends with every other ex (besides Tiff), and that's when it dawned on me. I never let it get bitter. I stood up for myself, and if it needed to end, I ended it. There was a similar situation in my last relationship, that happened about 5 years ago in another. The way I handled the two is so contrasting, it's ridiculous.
So thanks Colin and Jess, you've shown me the way back to the person I was. And I guess I should thank myself, for having the smarts to see what's right in front of me.
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Going to eat Sushi with Colin, Jes, and Eli today. Then Colin and I are headed to the White Elephant to see Jack Ingram do an acoustic show!!!! I'm so fucking excited. Yee-Haw!
Current mood: contemplative
So I'm sitting around at work last night, and my buddy Colin is talking about how his sister fucked him over again. And we got to talking about how Colin is one of the nicest people you've ever met until you fuck him over. Then he doesn't get angry, he doesn't become stand-offish. He steals your fucking soul. I've seen Colin and his sister go at it, it's not very pretty. And it made me think about some things.
I used to be like that. I used to tell people when I met them, "hey, just so you know ahead of time. I can be the best friend you'll ever have, but don't fuck me over, cuz I'm the WORST enemy you'll ever want." What happened to that? Yea, it's maybe not the greatest way to go about things, but hell. It was just a part of the person I was. Now I'm this doormat shaped thing that people have felt obliged to wipe their feet (and other parts) all over. What the fuck.
So I've been doing some "soul searching" after some of the events of the last two years. I've already decided that I'm not jumping into anymore relationships, emotionally AND physically (much to the chagrin of the girl I'm dating). I'm striving to be truly independant, and to make things right in my life. Not that there is that much wrong (unlike some people I know), I jsut want to get my finances in check, and make some minor adjustments to my lifestyle (exercise, cutting back drinking, etc.).
So having thought about this last night, I think the two pretty much go hand in hand. And just for shits and tickles, I'm going to make the attitude change retroactive. If you don't know what that means, just watch and see.
Having gotten in touch with an old friend/ex also helped this along. I couldn't figure out why I was friends with every other ex (besides Tiff), and that's when it dawned on me. I never let it get bitter. I stood up for myself, and if it needed to end, I ended it. There was a similar situation in my last relationship, that happened about 5 years ago in another. The way I handled the two is so contrasting, it's ridiculous.
So thanks Colin and Jess, you've shown me the way back to the person I was. And I guess I should thank myself, for having the smarts to see what's right in front of me.
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Going to eat Sushi with Colin, Jes, and Eli today. Then Colin and I are headed to the White Elephant to see Jack Ingram do an acoustic show!!!! I'm so fucking excited. Yee-Haw!
Christ I slept for almost 12 hours. And then I woke up and felt like shit. Think I'm sick, and I have to be at work in about an hour, ugh. 
Yea, and I can't sleep.
MM says:
"I'm a worthless turd."
"I get fucked because she can. I get fucked to fuck me over. I get fucked out of boredom."
MM says:
"I'm a worthless turd."
"I get fucked because she can. I get fucked to fuck me over. I get fucked out of boredom."
I worked 13 hours straight at the bar tonight. I am such a pussy. My knees hurt, my shins of all things hurt, and my back hurts. I used to work a shift like this every friday when I worked at No Frills. Oh well, I had a great day shift, made bank. The night shift was a little on the slow side, but it's all good. Over all I made about half of my rent in one day, so I can't complain. Not too much anyway.
I'm hoping that I'm not really a pussy, and that the fact that I've only slept three hours (at most) for the last 3 nights has something to do with it. And closing last night, and knowing I have to open tomorrow, isn't helping much right now either. Haven't drank in 3 days. Weird. Don't know what I'm gonna do when I get off tomorrow night. I won't have to work again until monday night. I think I'm supposed to go spin records with a buddy, maybe I'll refrain from getting drunk, but I doubt it. I think I earned it this week.
Fuck me, I'm not even sleepy. Oh well, atleast I love my new job.
I'm hoping that I'm not really a pussy, and that the fact that I've only slept three hours (at most) for the last 3 nights has something to do with it. And closing last night, and knowing I have to open tomorrow, isn't helping much right now either. Haven't drank in 3 days. Weird. Don't know what I'm gonna do when I get off tomorrow night. I won't have to work again until monday night. I think I'm supposed to go spin records with a buddy, maybe I'll refrain from getting drunk, but I doubt it. I think I earned it this week.
Fuck me, I'm not even sleepy. Oh well, atleast I love my new job.
