SON OF A BITCH!!!!
i fucking hate the back button... just lost everything i typed...
New things:
I got my first paycheck on Monday for my first two days of work, it was 89$, ive been there 4 weeks on Saturday (im taking Friday off to study and maybe shoot). With that and what I earned off of Zivity last month I can afford the next piece to my sleeve yay!
I’ve got my house to myself for a week and im really enjoying it
I asked ben and sam if they could find a place to stay for a week and if they were okay with that because I wanted time to study and when they are here I’d rather socialize even if we don’t do anything. So they are gone. The only bad part is that they left all their mess about my house. All their dirty ass nasty dishes and trash are everywhere. I asked them to clean it up days ago and neither did. I’m not going to do this shit anymore, and I’d like to have my house back and not play homeless shelter anymore, I just don’t know how to get them out for good.
Im really sick of sam too.
Ive lived with her before when I was still living at my parents. Things were okay or so we thought.
She tried to commit suicide in my parents house.
She told me the other day that it was because of me and that whenever shes around me that’s all she thinks about. That it doesn’t seem to matter if we are laughing or not she thinks about it. She said maybe it will change later in life but I told her that she will always associate that memory with me and if she doesn’t, then I will. And I already have. I don’t like being around her because of it now. Mind you she did say that I wasn’t the only reason behind her attempt, her family had a lot to do with it too but I’m still offended by it. I lost a lot of respect for her when she attempt it in my family’s house. That’s just not acceptable to me.
I got a B on my history report. Pretty damn proud of myself for that. Midterm for that class is this Friday. Political ideology is next week.
I was in the E.R. on Sunday night.
If you have ever felt as if an air bubble was caught between your rib bones then you will know how painful it is.
The pain started as a small bubble of air feeling thing at about 4pm on Sunday. I ignored it thinking it would get better but it didn’t. at about 9pm the pain had taken over my entire back. I put tiger balm on it thinking it would warm my muscles and relax them enough so I could go to sleep. That didn’t work. I kept rolling around my bed in pain. It got worse and worse and worse! It then spread to my frontal ribs and I felt as if my organs had all collapsed in on themselves adding to all the pressure. I got down on the floor and curled up next to the heater thinking it would sooth out the pain. I was screaming and crying in pain. Ive never. Never, been in this much pain before. I took 2 vicoden thinking it would make me pass out and forget the pain since I usually do that if the pain gets to bad and it usually works but again, not this time.
45 minutes after taking the vicoden I threw up. Again, I’ve never done this. Ive never thrown up from pain before. After that happened the pain spiked and I drove myself to the E.R.
I got an xray done on my ribs and everything is fine. Ribs, lungs and heart. Theres no explanation. Im still having some pain left over in my muscles every now and then but its so minute that I rarely notice it.
Fun fact:
My birthday is in 55days.
Nick and I have 3 planned-ish shoot ideas coming up and you’ll only be able to see them on Zivity so if you want to get on the site, send me a message with your email and I’ll send you an invite in exchange for a 1 vote minimum.
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i fucking hate the back button... just lost everything i typed...
New things:
I got my first paycheck on Monday for my first two days of work, it was 89$, ive been there 4 weeks on Saturday (im taking Friday off to study and maybe shoot). With that and what I earned off of Zivity last month I can afford the next piece to my sleeve yay!
I’ve got my house to myself for a week and im really enjoying it
I asked ben and sam if they could find a place to stay for a week and if they were okay with that because I wanted time to study and when they are here I’d rather socialize even if we don’t do anything. So they are gone. The only bad part is that they left all their mess about my house. All their dirty ass nasty dishes and trash are everywhere. I asked them to clean it up days ago and neither did. I’m not going to do this shit anymore, and I’d like to have my house back and not play homeless shelter anymore, I just don’t know how to get them out for good.
Im really sick of sam too.
Ive lived with her before when I was still living at my parents. Things were okay or so we thought.
She tried to commit suicide in my parents house.
She told me the other day that it was because of me and that whenever shes around me that’s all she thinks about. That it doesn’t seem to matter if we are laughing or not she thinks about it. She said maybe it will change later in life but I told her that she will always associate that memory with me and if she doesn’t, then I will. And I already have. I don’t like being around her because of it now. Mind you she did say that I wasn’t the only reason behind her attempt, her family had a lot to do with it too but I’m still offended by it. I lost a lot of respect for her when she attempt it in my family’s house. That’s just not acceptable to me.
I got a B on my history report. Pretty damn proud of myself for that. Midterm for that class is this Friday. Political ideology is next week.
I was in the E.R. on Sunday night.
If you have ever felt as if an air bubble was caught between your rib bones then you will know how painful it is.
The pain started as a small bubble of air feeling thing at about 4pm on Sunday. I ignored it thinking it would get better but it didn’t. at about 9pm the pain had taken over my entire back. I put tiger balm on it thinking it would warm my muscles and relax them enough so I could go to sleep. That didn’t work. I kept rolling around my bed in pain. It got worse and worse and worse! It then spread to my frontal ribs and I felt as if my organs had all collapsed in on themselves adding to all the pressure. I got down on the floor and curled up next to the heater thinking it would sooth out the pain. I was screaming and crying in pain. Ive never. Never, been in this much pain before. I took 2 vicoden thinking it would make me pass out and forget the pain since I usually do that if the pain gets to bad and it usually works but again, not this time.
45 minutes after taking the vicoden I threw up. Again, I’ve never done this. Ive never thrown up from pain before. After that happened the pain spiked and I drove myself to the E.R.
I got an xray done on my ribs and everything is fine. Ribs, lungs and heart. Theres no explanation. Im still having some pain left over in my muscles every now and then but its so minute that I rarely notice it.
Fun fact:
My birthday is in 55days.
Nick and I have 3 planned-ish shoot ideas coming up and you’ll only be able to see them on Zivity so if you want to get on the site, send me a message with your email and I’ll send you an invite in exchange for a 1 vote minimum.
<3SC
