ah the insanity, yet another day at the wireless coral. i even got the rare pleasure of telling a supervisor in another dept. to do there job right. 
i tell ya, if you knew what kinda dumbassed stuff goes on you'd wonder how things stay in bussiness. sheesh. 
and to top it off today was one of my manic days, so i was feeling fisty. 
all i can say it's good to be home and away from that crapola. 
i tell ya, if you knew what kinda dumbassed stuff goes on you'd wonder how things stay in bussiness. sheesh. and to top it off today was one of my manic days, so i was feeling fisty. all i can say it's good to be home and away from that crapola. Yeah I know i suck so what else is new?
UGH i'm gonna be 43 soon. is that crazy or what who'd of thunk i'd survive this long? aside from the Stinking ovious all i want is a nice day whith my Shinobi and just some nice snuggles and hugs. dont know how else to explain it all . But in truth items don't do alot for me. Never really been materalistic don't get me wrong i like stuff. but it wont hurt me if you don't. just the fact you remembered and said happy birthday is what matters. worked on my website a bit today also if you want to you can View it here no nudie pics but nice pics and things about me.
maybe i am a bit boring to some of you. tuff.
i'd rather be real than fake. 
It's not easy being a living Cartoon . I hope you will understand and still love me.
after all i'm still here . 
UGH i'm gonna be 43 soon. is that crazy or what who'd of thunk i'd survive this long?
aside from the Stinking ovious all i want is a nice day whith my Shinobi and just some nice snuggles and hugs. dont know how else to explain it all . But in truth items don't do alot for me. Never really been materalistic don't get me wrong i like stuff. but it wont hurt me if you don't. just the fact you remembered and said happy birthday is what matters. worked on my website a bit today also if you want to you can View it here no nudie pics but nice pics and things about me. maybe i am a bit boring to some of you. tuff.
i'd rather be real than fake. It's not easy being a living Cartoon . I hope you will understand and still love me. after all i'm still here .
yay the weekend's here Estee Peanut butter cups are at my desk. (i love em and yeah i can eat em too) still a little down but i'll survive. i think the best way to describe this morning is livable. Getting ready to talk to ShinobiRyu we often talk or just do whatever. i really like that about him, i feel comfortable to just hang out and do whatever . It's a very good feeling to have a man that you can trust and get along with . 
I guess i'm very lucky. 
P.S. i hate it when the weathers bad in Norway.
Getting ready to talk to ShinobiRyu we often talk or just do whatever. i really like that about him, i feel comfortable to just hang out and do whatever . It's a very good feeling to have a man that you can trust and get along with . I guess i'm very lucky. P.S. i hate it when the weathers bad in Norway.
yay one more day till the weekend. yes mine starts early
I've earnrd it.
it is so sad to think of but i have to ask what did people really do before cell phones?
i mean honestly, i talk to people all day who are so lost without the stupid things it's sad very very sad.
get over it !
it's honestly your kid brothers walkie talkie repackaged.
your life don't depend on it. you can live without it , trust me.
did you know my birthday is august 22nd?
guess what i really want?
do you guys think i can get norwegian citizenship for my birthday?
hope hope hope!
I've earnrd it.
it is so sad to think of but i have to ask what did people really do before cell phones?
i mean honestly, i talk to people all day who are so lost without the stupid things it's sad very very sad.
get over it !
it's honestly your kid brothers walkie talkie repackaged.
your life don't depend on it. you can live without it , trust me.
did you know my birthday is august 22nd?
guess what i really want?
do you guys think i can get norwegian citizenship for my birthday?
hope hope hope!
Feeling better Hurrah resolved issues but how things are gonna work out remains to be seen. been dl'ing music that helps alot. moods alot better lately. but as you are figuring out bi polar mania is hard to deal with at times. but nothing that cannot be helped with meds and therapy and counseling. all of which i am getting. talked to my brother , looks like he has decided to make a clean break , he is also getting theraphy. as he is alot calmer than i last remember him. as well as definately more level headed and sober. he even asked me if i had any Christian metal so that is a real step in a good direction. all in all it shocked me and the reunion was good. but as you know i wont let down my gaurd just yet. Trust is a big thing with me and i dont give it freely. 
been kicked around far to much.
In other news i almost had to kick some redneck bitchs arse in the grocery store yesterday, (nothing like a good ol fashioned beat down to lift your spirits) she and her man had to keep following me commenting on my hair and my gothic black clothes (which was simply a black tee and black slacks really goth huh?) and how stupid and how dumb i looked and she wouldn't lay off. so i just said as i walked out after paying much to her bewilderment. you know i like my hair and i am proud of it ,unlike you i dont have to put it on the night stand before sex. oooh she was fit to be tied at that one. 
LOL!
and because of all this and a good listen to the 69 eyes and alice cooper i am just gonna let my inner freak out of the bag. fuck it i may be turning 43 but ya know who says i can't have fun on my weekends?
and i have 3 day weekends!
screw this redneck town. i feel like having fun and i am a INDIVDUAL ok i am also manic. but fuck all that.
i can't repress who and what i am . and if i am from a different state of mind then the world is gonna have to adjust for once cause i have ajusted enough. it's your turn.
Trust is a big thing with me and i dont give it freely. been kicked around far to much. In other news i almost had to kick some redneck bitchs arse in the grocery store yesterday, (nothing like a good ol fashioned beat down to lift your spirits) she and her man had to keep following me commenting on my hair and my gothic black clothes (which was simply a black tee and black slacks really goth huh?) and how stupid and how dumb i looked and she wouldn't lay off. so i just said as i walked out after paying much to her bewilderment. you know i like my hair and i am proud of it ,unlike you i dont have to put it on the night stand before sex. oooh she was fit to be tied at that one.
LOL! and because of all this and a good listen to the 69 eyes and alice cooper i am just gonna let my inner freak out of the bag. fuck it i may be turning 43 but ya know who says i can't have fun on my weekends?
and i have 3 day weekends!
screw this redneck town. i feel like having fun and i am a INDIVDUAL ok i am also manic. but fuck all that.
i can't repress who and what i am . and if i am from a different state of mind then the world is gonna have to adjust for once cause i have ajusted enough. it's your turn.
tummys upset today dont know whats up , i think it's the heat. but it could be other things. i need to eat but i cant bring myself to do so . man this sucks. i really feel so out of touch with everything. 
Yesterdays Rant brought to you By Zoloft:
yes People I got a bad batch. and to top that off my ever so informative roomie neglected to tell me i was out of iron pills. oh yippee skippy! ( that explains my passing out suddenly ) i'm ok now but good grief. Sorry I scared all of you. but honestly. I need another Roomate and well (Shinobi are you Listening?) just to get up and out of here.
Birfday is coming up. And this old Bag is gonna be 43 years Young. kinda shocked i made it this far. oh well
Edited and added:
ok new picture on my Journal page is of my Ragnarok char. not quite a knight yet but by monday i will be.
and face it i kick butt . i put the pic on here for my beloved who can get on to play so at least he can see that i can survive. lol!
if you wanna find out more go here: Ragnarok Great way to releve stress.
yes People I got a bad batch. and to top that off my ever so informative roomie neglected to tell me i was out of iron pills. oh yippee skippy! ( that explains my passing out suddenly ) i'm ok now but good grief. Sorry I scared all of you. but honestly. I need another Roomate and well (Shinobi are you Listening?) just to get up and out of here.
Birfday is coming up. And this old Bag is gonna be 43 years Young. kinda shocked i made it this far. oh well
Edited and added:
ok new picture on my Journal page is of my Ragnarok char. not quite a knight yet but by monday i will be.
and face it i kick butt .
i put the pic on here for my beloved who can get on to play so at least he can see that i can survive. lol! if you wanna find out more go here: Ragnarok Great way to releve stress.
Yesterdays Rant brought to you By Zoloft:
yes People I got a bad batch. and to top that off my ever so informative roomie neglected to tell me i was out of iron pills. oh yippee skippy! ( that explains my passing out suddenly ) i'm ok now but good grief. Sorry I scared all of you. but honestly. I need another Roomate and well (Shinobi are you Listening?) just to get up and out of here.
Birfday is coming up. And this old Bag is gonna be 43 years Young. kinda shocked i made it this far. oh well
yes People I got a bad batch. and to top that off my ever so informative roomie neglected to tell me i was out of iron pills. oh yippee skippy! ( that explains my passing out suddenly ) i'm ok now but good grief. Sorry I scared all of you. but honestly. I need another Roomate and well (Shinobi are you Listening?) just to get up and out of here.
Birfday is coming up.
And this old Bag is gonna be 43 years Young. kinda shocked i made it this far. oh wellEver feel a little left out?
ok maybe i should get a grip. just feeling a bit wierd and left out. too hot to go anywhere too broke to do anything, dont wanna hang out with my mom. Shin's off with kids and relatives and i'm not invited.
so here i sit waiting for it to rain, and it wont. it never really rains here. you plant seeds they come up only to wither in the heat. i guess i'm just like a plant sitting here desperately waiting for a little love to come raining down the skys cloud up but the rain dont fall. no i'm not mad or anything, just could use a hug right now and some warmth. new aches and pains and nerve loss, you know the usual. just really fustraiting. and it just seems like no one gives a flying fuck .not my kids not no one. there all just too damn busy. So if you been wondering why no new Scandi pics? Maybe this will explain.
it is hard to take pics when your body is involentarly moving and your face is twitching.
I'm upset i'm crying and i just want all this sickness to stop.
ok maybe i should get a grip. just feeling a bit wierd and left out. too hot to go anywhere too broke to do anything, dont wanna hang out with my mom. Shin's off with kids and relatives and i'm not invited.
so here i sit waiting for it to rain, and it wont. it never really rains here. you plant seeds they come up only to wither in the heat. i guess i'm just like a plant sitting here desperately waiting for a little love to come raining down the skys cloud up but the rain dont fall. no i'm not mad or anything, just could use a hug right now and some warmth. new aches and pains and nerve loss, you know the usual. just really fustraiting. and it just seems like no one gives a flying fuck .not my kids not no one. there all just too damn busy. So if you been wondering why no new Scandi pics? Maybe this will explain.it is hard to take pics when your body is involentarly moving and your face is twitching.
I'm upset i'm crying and i just want all this sickness to stop.
welp here i am damage done. feeling like crapola just another bad day in paradise. Ovaries! what are they good for.......absolutely nuffn........ Overies hup! good gawd ya'll, what are they good for absolutely ......nuffn! (sung to the tune of WAr what is it good for) yeah yeah i'm done with breeding i'm done with the whole reproductive bull. let someone else bring forth life OK.
i just want mine taken out.
they got cysts they had them for over 20 years. its time to take them out. I have suffered enough. I am in pain, I cant sleep. this is not elective surgery, please stop the cruel misogyny. Crawls down from soap box.
Ovaries! what are they good for.......absolutely nuffn........ Overies hup! good gawd ya'll, what are they good for absolutely ......nuffn! (sung to the tune of WAr what is it good for) yeah yeah i'm done with breeding i'm done with the whole reproductive bull. let someone else bring forth life OK.i just want mine taken out.
they got cysts they had them for over 20 years. its time to take them out. I have suffered enough. I am in pain, I cant sleep. this is not elective surgery, please stop the cruel misogyny. Crawls down from soap box.
