I think I have rattled you long enough,
But tell me are you strong and tuff?
To stand up for whats right and best,
Or are you a sheep just like the rest?
While ignorance and hatred breed,
Are you bold enough to interceed?
with your hurtful words do you provoke?
and get upset when we wont accept your joke?
Tolerence for others you need to learn,
or stop asking why your flag still burns.

!!!!WARNING!!!!
If you are deeply distrubed by abuse please don't read any futher :

this happened in the next town over .
2 Starving Children Found; Family Held
Their mother and grandmother allegedly kept them in a locked Carson City bathroom.
From Associated Press
CARSON CITY, Nev. — The mother and grandmother of two starving children, as well as the mother's boyfriend, have been arrested on charges related to child abuse.
A 16-year-old girl who weighed about 40 pounds and her 10-year-old brother, who weighed about 30 pounds, were in stable condition Saturday at Carson-Tahoe Regional Medical Center. Both were severely malnourished.
The girl told deputies they had been confined to the family's apartment bathroom since the family moved to Carson City from Los Angeles about five years ago.
Their mother, Regina Rios, 33, their grandmother Esther Rios, 56, and the mother's boyfriend, Tomas Granados, 33, are accused of locking them in at night or when adults left the home. The suspects were in jail on suspicion of child abuse or neglect and on suspicion of false imprisonment, with bail set at $100,000. They await a Feb. 3 preliminary hearing after making a court appearance Friday.
Three other children in the home, ages 9 to 17, appear to be healthy and are now in social services' custody, deputies said.
Investigators said the starving girl never attended school in Carson City; they were unsure about the starving boy. The other three children were enrolled in schools.
Authorities were led to the home after someone reported an 8-year-old girl pushing a shopping cart full of food Thursday in Carson City.
The girl with the cart turned out to be the 16-year-old.
"She indicated she had run away," Sheriff Kenneth T. Furlong said. "She pleaded with the deputy not to take her back to the house."
The suspects first denied that the children were confined to the bathroom but later admitted locking them there because "they steal food," deputies said.
"What were we supposed to do, lock the refrigerator?" the grandmother was quoted by deputies as saying.

this leaves many unanswered questions,

1. how can you love 3 kids and torture 2?

2. why didnt you get help from social services? or childrens behavorial services if the food stealing was an issue?

3.why did you punish them for 5 years?

4.didnt the nieghbors notice anything?

5. why didnt the other children speak out?


What in the hell goes through peoples heads? your children are flesh or your flesh , bone of your bone. the girl was found wieghing 41 pounds dear God! Holocast survivors wieghed more than that. and the boy only wieghed 30 pounds. yet the other children were well fed and healthy .
the fridge was found well stocked ect. these people were loners they had parties, held bbq's even had the nieghborhood children over. yet locked in the back bathroom was two children , starving and forced to live like dogs.
God help Humanity cause i really dont get it.

Yay! the toxins are leaving fast. hurrah. i was worried about working tomorrow but it looks like i'll make it. just dont know how my doctor will survive tho anyways, i got two days to make 100 dollars in sales can i do it , i think so. so please put out some really good vibes . if i make $500 bucks in sales i get $50 bucks commission i know it isnt alot but right now every cent counts.

Yay! the toxins are leaving fast. hurrah. i was worried about working tomorrow but it looks like i'll make it. just dont know how my doctor will survive tho anyways, i got two days to make 100 dollars in sales can i do it , i think so. so please put out some really good vibes . if i make $500 bucks in sales i get $50 bucks commission i know it isnt alot but right now every cent counts.

Wow! i still have people on my friends list after that last rant. i am truely amased. yesterday i had a very very bad reaction to one of my meds, Hydroclorothiazide, my face swelled up to where my lip split. and i felt extremely agitated. it may take a week to get over it. and get it out of my system. none the less i'm still here and alive. been sleeping in spirts. (aka power napping) it's about all i can manage as the meds are really disrupting my sleep paterns. i would give anything to get a good european doctor. but i have to deal with what i got for now. you'll have to excuse my bad typing i have a cat in my arms at the moment,

You know now that i think about it . you can't make every one happy can you.? even if i could i would rather not. the hell with it! Pity trip not on your life. i really dont give a rats arse what people think. i only know what i feel . and right now i am fighting many different emotions. Depressed? yes i am but then again i think most people would be if they had there doctor tell them surgery or 10 years left. yes surprise surprise thats what i am dealing with. yeah we all die someday dont we . maybe thats why i am not posting pics you think?
it isnt fun when you want to have a life , get out and do stuff ect. and you are so zombied by meds your lucky to stay awake 6 hours at time. honestly i'm pretty mad. there is only a very small handfull of people in my life who even understand what i am dealing with. to them i say thank you and I love you. just right now i really dont need to have people tell me i am lazy and good for nothing because i totally am not anywhere like that at all. and it really pisses me off that some people, including my family, think that.

Oh man i blew it again!
grr I wish just once i could stay awke long enough on my days off. i wish i wasn't so exhausted . grrr! good thing my hon is so forgiving of my disabilitys. but still, i wish i could spend the day with him . it's not like i dont get any sleep

Oh man i blew it again!
grr I wish just once i could stay awke long enough on my days off. i wish i wasn't so exhausted . grrr! good thing my hon is so forgiving of my disabilitys. but still, i wish i could spend the day with him . it's not like i dont get any sleep

ahh sweet relaxation!

sitting here chatting with my sweetie, doing a few things in poser and basically chilling out.

well another day yet another dollar , hey be proud of me i have worked two days in a row and plan to go to work today . I know to most of you that isnt a big deal but to me it is. managed to get a couple of sales in as well so that will make the boss man happy. as for my art everything is starting to come together. i plan on a few works this weekend maybe even get in some photography as well, who knows. some days just getting out of the house is a pain. i think the biggest deal is accepting the neuopathy , the shakes and the pain of it. i get embarrassed by it at times. i think the new cane is helping as it looks nice and dont look industrail and utilitarian. it's actually quite badassed honesty. being a silver dragon on a black base. (thanks mom for the wonderful gift and finally accepting my disability) also i think the new meds are helping me as well , i dont feel as overmedicated and zombied out. and finally able to sleep better. thats a big help as well. All that just being loved and accepted also helps. ( thank you Shin )