oh yea i totally lied about the zombie walk. it is today... and a girl i know called me and said that people were throwing water baloons at people. now. i am sorry. but nice weather or not. its fucking fall. You assholes.

We have hundreds of people, HUNDREDS that get all fucking exited about getting dressed up, buying the makeup, tearing clothes, going ALL OUT in every fucking aspect. these people littlerally turn into zombies.

now the parade started at 4 and goes until seven. it may be a warm day for fall. but its still fucking cold out. and for people to be throwing water baloons at people who have to stand outside with their costumes melting for 4 hours is a really asshole thing to do.

people don't think. and it drives me crazy. on top of that. the girl that talked to me said she was videotaping it.
wow.

i can't comprehend the douche bagery of some people.


aside from that and my horrendous new magnetic pull attracting jerks, I am very happy.


Life is getting better. My mind is getting Stronger.

yes so there is this dude or a group or something who put together a parade type dealy called the zombie walk.

its in october, and everyone dresses up as zombified as they can. makeup, torn clothes, blood etc.etc....

and every year the number of zombies gets bigger. and when everyone gets together on the day of the zombie walk, we all meet downtown and parade around groaning and clawing at stuff. lol

people get really into it. climb tree's, scream randomly and flail.

and there are those who go overboard like the two last year who brought ketchup bottles of fake blood with them and starrted squirting in on buisnesses windows and stores and sidewalks... making a huge mess..
and then there are people who will try and "attack" people in their cars... so.. physical touching.... someone is just asking to get the crap beaten out of them.

but other than that its all just good fun.

and i am exited as a mother fucker to be a zombie again. except i need a new pair of pants.... last year mine had a hole in the crotch so i saftey pinned it...yea good idea....

it jammed itself into my leg various different times, i bled from it in a few spots... good stuff. new pants!

i am happy now..

My life isn't where it should be right now......... i wanted things to change so i could better my life. and now i have lost the best friend i ever had and then some.........

but if i go back so will the way my life was headed.

I hate being the cause of his misery..... but there is no other way.





What do you do when the things you need kill the people you love?

I've been taking Karate with some of my friends or "homies" as most of them prefer

It's fucking awesome, i feel beefy. and before i felt like a dainty little bitch you could breath on and she'd fall over.

haha, i have muscles! i am no longer skin and bones which i was more recently.. even in my set i looked a little beefier. i feel better though. its nice to have something to do twice a week with my friends, especialy cuz they are paying for it. muwahahaha they HAVE to come with me but they love it too so its all good. plus i love having a routine to work out to. it's much easier in a group environment.

they have sort of a big class but they have at least two sensi 's (sp?)
there teaching the class, and because most of us came around the same time all our friends get pulled aside to work with one of them, its awesome we have our own little karate posse and our personal teacher haha.

Yay. so i have only been to about 4 classes, and i don't ever want to stop. i want my black belt damnit! even if i have to do it by myself (which would really suck balls) i will still go. most of the people there started karate and never stopped. but that is to be expected. because you need to keep practicing to stay on top of your game at all times...

Anyways. Thanks to those who read this and i hope everyone has a wonderful day!

Yay! Condoms

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XHOc716NRXQ&feature=user

LAUGH BITCHES

this guy is funny. watch the other videos too if you like these

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVcyNANK5cY <---rapist glasses

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8MMc3f588yc <--- breathing commercial

Ventity vent........

Blar...

So this job i have now..... i sell cutlery and shit and i get paid per appointment. But.

if those people buy something i get 15% of what the price is. now, at the end of the week they total everything.
If you did 5 appointments a week (which when taking the bus costs you $20) and no one bought. you would get $95 for them. -20 for the bus

but if you then do one appointment and it makes you 100 dollars. you only get the 100 dollars. and the $75 becomes void.

now. i have done 13 appointments so far. and 3 people bought. and becuase of the way they do things......

my paycheck will only be 114 dollars. (without being taxed!)

and then to top it all off i asked when i could at least look forward to getting my sad bundle of cash and the manager told me friday.

so iam exited about finally being able to buy simple things like body wash and fucking laundry detergent and i go to the store to take money out from the cash machines.....

......INSUFFICIENT FUNDS..............

WHAT THE FUCK?

so i call the bitch today and she says "no, no, Friday niiiiiiight."

oh.

friday night?

at....

.....midnight...

now...

last time i checked...

thats SATURDAY YOU BITCH!

no one gets paid at night. its midnight. MIDNIGHT.

you fucking retard.

hooray for having that bitch responsible for paying people...........

so now i have to wait until tomorrow. when i had plans for today.... and tomorrow doesn't work.....
I quit.

I have spent more money and invested more time in this company than its worth.

They should just tell you right off the bat. don't work here if you don't have a car.
i told them i rode the bus and they said oh yea thats fine!

"have you ever actually tried to ride the bus everywhere?" kinda time consuming and not to mention a good way to get jacked for all my knives and shit... which i paid a deposit for and didn't get back.

i can't wait to get a job that promises me money everyday. i thought this job would be my way out......



I can get more money from taking my clothes off for a camera than i can working for them for a month.

I woke up from this really screwy dream. it seems the only ones i have that i can remember the next day are those about the zombies.

normally me and the group i am with in my dream are running from the zombies but none of them are close enough to do anything. so its not uber scary haha.

we had to climb through a fence to get to this feildy type place, and we found a car in the parking lot near by.
the parts of my dream are now seperated by my reality's intrusion.at one point i was finding pointy objects on the ground and i actually stabbed a few of the zombies. i found one of those handheld dirt scoops gardeners use, and it had been cut into the side and then twisted, so it was devilishly sharp and jagged and pointy. i remember hanging on to that one, and then i stabbed a zombie like 10 times in the chestle region, i probably should have cut off his head but i stabbed him around the heart area til i hit it. and i could see that i had hit it and he died. i can't remember a lot more cuz i had a shower before writing it down (i should have written it down before i even left the bedroom)

but whatever. i am always having Zombie dreams. Honestly i see a catastrophy on its way to earth and i would not be in the least surprized if it turned out to be some kind of diseased human race (not that the human race itself isn't a disease) that ended up killing everyone and everything.

I found out that a long time ago (not sure how long) in africa i think, there was this outbreak or something, (ah the details i provide) and the dead where being burried and then days later they all started rising again. but they weren't alive the whole time like you might think, they were corpses but they were up and moving around and shit. i almost imploded when i herd that.

even before i heard that i believed it was 100% possible for zombies to exsist. and maybe its all the zombie movies coming out in the past few years thats got the idea in my head. but it only supplied the idea. and i kept the thought going.

haha.

what am i in for tomorrow night?

Holy fuck.
Okay so i just recently found out that my ABSOLOUTE favorite book is coming out as a fucking movie. i could seriously explode i am so exited. and i have to wait until december. but its going to be amazing!

I have read the first three books as well as the other story by the same author and i am on the fourth right now. they are just amazing books

i am speaking of course about Twilight. AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and the host is the other book)

STEPHANIE MEYER is a goddess . i want to molest her brain meats.

I am to the point of cunvulsing when i think about it. *twitch* i can't contian my exitement.