This is what I do with my time. I need a life xD

Anyway...

So I'm already sick of women... again. I swear to god, they play far too many games. I'm like are you serious? Is it really THAT difficult to just be honest?

I just don't understand it.

And I'm also getting sick of work. The economy fucking blows for tip jobs right now, and I'm making shit for money. It sucks, cause I pay all my bills and do all the things I need to do... and then have no money for myself. I need new clothes so bad but I cant seem to fit them into my budget -stabs-

Yeah, done.

JULY IS HARRY POTTER MONTH, FOOLZ.

Order of the Phoenix comes out tommorow.. normally I'd jump to go watch it then but my younger brothers coming into town on the 18th and I promised him we'd see it together.

Suck.

But oh well.

I WANT THE SEVENTH BOOK OUT NOW! I'm so IMPATIENT to wait another 11 days! I'm just like UGGHHH WHAT HAPPENS NOW??!!

I'm a bit hyper right now.

Made a video about HP and whatnot a couple hours ago... I'm really quite retarded sometimes..



I wish i had a cooler broom....

RIGHT ANYWAY.

Still haven't found a photographer. Fail. But it's okay, I suppose I can stop being all I NEED EVERYTHING DONE RIGHT NOW! And take a moment to chill the fuck out...

Yeah I need to toke up and go to BED. I actually gotta work tommorow. I hate that. But I'm poor... Kinda.

Later.

xx Sapphire Smoke

Question: Do you think 4 out of 217 is a lot?
Answer: Thats 0.018%. To me, that's not a lot.

I look at my set today, and one of the tags was "repeatedly comments her own set". And I was like, I don't think I commented THAT many times... So I look, and count. Four. How is four a lot? Expecially out of 200+?

Okay, I'm new to this website. I didn't know commenting what so ever in your own set thread is frowned upon apperently. Wasn't like I was spamming it or anything. But I'm used to forums in in forums you reply under the topic. Am I supposed to go to thier journal or send them a pm or something?

Man, I hate defending myself.

Nevermind.

I'm cooler than you are. End topic.

MOVING ON.

I don't like meth, it makes me hostile when I'm coming down. Man I went to work yesterday and was a complete cunt cause I hadn't eaten or slept and guys loved it.

I don't get that.

My sleeps been all fucked up today. I'm not up for more than 4 hours at a time. Don't know how thats gonna effect work tommorow.

MAN. Some guy knocked on my door when I was half asleep and made me buy 4 magazines.

Like, after I woke up I remembered what happened and I'm like how the hell did I let him talk me into that? Thats like almost $200 right there. I need to mail in something to cancel them, I'm gonna cancel two of them, the other two were for charity and I don't wanna get struck down my lightning if I cancel them lmao. I don't read magazines anyway, I think theyre a waste of time.

I'm such a sucker.

Anyway hopefully good news...

Meagan commented and told me photorico is a photographer in Dallas and shoots for SG, so I messaged him and I'm just waiting for him to get back. Hopefully he'll wanna colaborate. Cause I'm all IDEASIDEADSIDEAS in my head. So skizy, I know.

I'm not interesting today.



Video blog of today. I'm so lame, I know.

Fuck dude, I'm so bored.

xx Sapphire Smoke

Well I'm learning a new thing everyday! And I know that sound SO LAME but ... hey.... stop looking at me with your JUDGING EYES!!...

Right... moving on....

So apparently the hopefuls set is chosen like weeks ago. I looked at the current hopefuls set today, by a new SG named Rosaleigh who's like hella hot by the way... but she said in her blog that she put the set up like a month ago, and then she was contacted two weeks ago about becoming pink but she needed to keep it a secret. So basically what that means is... my set still has a fighting chance. So if you haven't commented, I not so descreetly ask you to do so. But please don't spam it! I'd rather have only 100 people like it with 100 comments then 10 people like it with 100 comments.. you know?

Right so.

Sapphire Suicide (hopefully lmao) - "Survivor"

MOVING ON!

I did my webcam chat yesterday, that was so much fun lmao. Honestly it was. And instead of lasting two hours it almost lasted five haha.... so I was gonna have my next one next week on Sunday again, but they were all NOOO thats too far away so I decided Thursday from 9pm-11pm central time. So if your curious and wanna chat with me on webcam, go to MY WEBSITE On Thursday at those times and talk to me.

I took some pictures today... boredom overtook me.

I have no makeup on, sorry

Okay, do you wanna know what my BIGGEST pet peeve is?



People that t@lk lyke thiz n thk itz kool lolz omg

Drives me INSANE!

I'm like FUCK, how HARD is it to type a word right? Like HONESTLY?!

And yes in some of my videos I dress like a man. I'm just THAT COOL.

Right so, I'm in an odd mood right now, kind of hyper. I emailed my photographer about my ideas for my next set, so hopefully that will be done in a couple of weeks.

BLAH BLAH I'm boring myself.

LATER.

EDIT: ERG I just heard from my photographer. He's like "well I heard that SG is seriously limiting the amount of sets they accept (well duh) and that they aren't as accepting as they used to be about women with more weight on them (-.-) Its not that I don't wanna work with you anymore, but I don't really see a future working for SG and since the contract is pretty strict..." yada yada yada.

UGH FUCK.

Now I have to go through the whole process of finding another photographer and trusting him and GAH. This blows. You know, if I was skinny, this probably would not have been an issue. -refrains from eating the entire day... or maybe for like an hour lol-

Anyone know any good photographers in the Dallas area?

xx Sapphire

To be honest I wasn't even sure if I wanted to put up my set in the hopefuls section. I'm always so pessimistic and I was like "Well I might like it, but other people might hate it", you know? I'm glad I did though.

So far it's gotten 104 comments, its the third most commented on this week after Kimmy and PrettyDino. So I have to admit I am getting a tad bit excited.

So everyweek they choose one SG and hopeful... see part of me doesn't want to get excited about that cause honestly I think PrettyDino's set is gonna be the hopeful one thats accepted. But then again I never think its me, lmao. I like to be in that space where I don't expect anything, cause then I never get let down, but I really can't help but feel nervous and excited now, so I hope I don't get let down. But hey, if I do, what can you do?

So if you haven't seen my set, go check it out! And leave a more meaningful comment then just the standard I love it, lol. I like reading interesting comments.

SAPPHIRE - "SURVIVOR" ( Give It A Second Chance!! )

On a side note, I'm about to murder the nats in my house. I hate this season. No matter how much you obsessily clean they're always invading your house. I'd tell the story about the maggots, but I don't want to gross you out lmao.

In other news, my forum is going over quite nicely. I made it what? two days ago? And I have 18 members and over 200 posts so far lmao. I can't wait until Sunday to do the live webcam chat with my "fans". God its so weird to call them fans, man. But they call themselves my fan so I'm like ummm ok then. I don't know, I don't understand why anyone would be a fan of me lol. Honestly. I'm not all that great.

My last video, "Late Night Passion" is selling okay. Not as good as I wish it was, but that's okay. Still a new part of my website. Here I'll let you guys see the preview pic:



I started stripping in that outfit, lol. Made some good money.

Man I haven't been to work in liek 5 days. I was gonna go today but I got real high last night, so I didn't sleep. Then when I was supposed to go to work I crashed cause I ran out of dope. I hate drugs dude. For real. My manager better not bitch if I come in tommorow about not being there the rest of the week. But I suppose I can just make up some bullshit excuse about being sick or whatnot.

This is really long. AAAANNNDDD STOPPING!!

** comment on my set pleeeeaaassseee kthx bye lol *

Edit :
I randomly now want to share this.



Aaaaand bye.

xx Sapphire Smoke

Well I finally heard back about my set, and it got rejected.

I'm not really upset about it, I figured it would be. I put myself in a very pessimistic outlook of things, that way I never get disapointed lmao.

I still liked it though, and I put it up in the hopeful's section so hopefully I get get reviews on it and do better for my next set.

I didn't get an email telling me to wait 3 months though, so yay! I'll try to get a new one in by August. I got a free year though, so w00t for that. But I can't use it until my membership runs out.

Anyway if you would all like to see it, it can be found here:



So opinions people! Don't be afraid to share them!

In other news, I've found I've gotten a fan-base lol. On youtube and on The Smoke Girls. So to keep them happy, cause well I'm just thoughtful like that lmao, I made a forum. It's actually become pretty active too, I'm surprised. I made it yesterday and already have like 15 members or something and theyre all posting like mad haha.

MY FORUM CAUSE I'M AWESOME LIKE THAT LOL

I also am gonna do a live webcam chat like every Sunday or something for them. Cause I get people IMing me all the time who wanna talk to me on webcam and I'm like ahhh I'll just do it for you all at once! lol. Much easier. Plus whenever I'm online I'm always busy, so this way I have a set time I can put aside to talk to them. My next "show" is gonna be on Sunday from 9pm-11pm CST.

Live Webcam

All these people are gonna make my head big lol. They're all I love you your my hero yada yada and I'm like look I'm like celebrity status hahaha, or not. But it's still cool, you know? I think anyone who has people that actually call themselves fans get a little ego bloated at some point lol.

Anyway I'm done, just wanted to check in. Love you guys

xx Sapphire Smoke

Well I did my SG shoot yesterday!

I don't know how well it turned out though, I was MISERABLE . We drove out to butt fuck no where, TX to find a secuded outside spot to shoot. By the time we got there it was humid and nasty and I was half naked in like the fucking forest or something being eaten alive by mosquitos. I know we got some really hot shots, but I'm not sure its enough to make a really good set out of.

I was supposed to have all the pictures by now, but when I got the CD like 100+ were missing. It went right from me starting to get undressed to jumping to me completely naked.

SO.

Gonna have to wait a bit till I can get them all, then I gotta go edit the mosquito bites out and everything should be good to go haha.

I took video of it, not the shoot itself but the drive there, getting ready, and some other modeling I did after. The video is here:



Right so anyway... I'm very itchy this morning. And I have work in 3 hours. I think I'm gonna go in late lol.

xx Sapphire

I figured I should get one of these. I had one awhile back, I got a free membership for a year when my first set was rejected, but then it ran out but instead of reactivating it I got a new one because I wanted a new usename haha.

I'm so fucking lame.

About me... about me...

Fuck, I don't know.

My real names Mary. I'm a lesbian. I'm a stripper. I do porn sometimes for fun. I want to be a Suicide Girl. Though if they won't let me do my porn anymore then I might not, since that pays the bills. Is smoking fetish porn really concidered an "SG Competitor"? Because it's like hardly a blip on the radar in the first place. If it was, I'd be getting paid a whole lot more, I know that haha.

I got my lip peirced yesterday. I was kind of bored and was like well why not.

I also redyed my hair three different colors. Red, Blonde, and Black. I'm so proud of myself that I actually did it and didn't fuck it up real bad haha.

Right, anyway.

I spend most of my time on youtube.
www.youtube.com/sapphiire

I have FANS. It makes me laugh, and makes my head a bit big.

But yes, I'm done. Going to go look around now.

xx Sapphire Smoke