I've been busy. My computer has been broke. That is all for now.

Haven't felt sick from the weather in a while but today I do. It's not as bad as it can be though so thank goodness for that.

University of Ulster has sent me some information that leads me to believe they are seriously considering me as an applicant. Also Queen's university in Belfast has shown some interest (fingers crossed) and that is my first choice so that would be amazing!!! They have childcare and living accommodation that would suit us very well so that's even more of a plus for them, I do really hope that they accept me, but they are all very good options no matter what so I'll be happy to get in to any of them.

Found out that Suicide Girls doesn't accept trans* women. That's awful. I would consider myself and ally and I think that's quite wrong that they wouldn't be considered "women" by a sex positive site such as this. I hope that this policy has already changed or will change because I find that extremely problematic.

Almost done with this semester! Holy shit did I get busy this last couple of months. I haven't had many spare moments.

Still don't. I have to study for my last final for this semester. Today's was not nice, but it's over. Now for my biology.

I would like to post some more pictures but I've been so busy! I feel like I'm not really using this site to it's potential.

This pressure sickness bullshit is getting pretty old. I wonder if this will always happen if I live by the sea. I wonder if I'd get really sick in tornado areas too because it's the barometric pressure changing that makes me sick. Or dropping I should say.

I want to go to a nerdcon next year. But which one?!

My brain is having such a hard time focusing. I think maybe I should look up some brain exercises. Sheesh.

Stupid internal debate

I have these little sample sizes of Burt's Bees face cream with royal jelly in them. Being a vegan I'm like, well "that's not really vegan of me to use them". However, in my non-vegan head, and more my unlabelled head, I'm thinking "well it would be even worse to let it go to waste". But would it be? Am I making excuses just so I can use it? Or maybe I'm using it because I honestly don't want to waste something that came from an animal. Or maybe this is my brain torturing me because it hasn't had enough meditation lately. The stupid cyclical thoughts that haunt me, day in, day out, while I try to live my life but fail ever so slightly because I can't stop thinking about trivial bullshit like whether I should use some fucking face cream I didn't even buy.



Anyhow. There's my stupid internal debate. Back to studying and hopefully tomorrow I'll get a chance to meditate.

I believe that my test anxiety has just caused me to fail my algebra class. I was shaking and feeling sick and stressed and unable to get my thoughts clear. It's so shitty to know something and then blank out at the most important time! I fucking hate having test anxiety! Where the fuck does it even come from?

So basically I'm freaking out today. I can do perfect on the quiz's and the homework all I want, but when it comes down to the mid-term, it's worth so many points, failing it will cause my grade to be seriously damaged.