i'm back. thanks secret santa!
you make me feel all soft and cuddly inside!!
xo
you make me feel all soft and cuddly inside!!
xo
last night we discovered a brewery and a bakery right around the corner from the apt. as we were walking home from the market. we got a tour of the brewery and drank some Sweet Action Ale right out of the cask and talked to two guys that work there and are urban gardeners opening a store called the FARMACY which will sell local veggies during the day and brews at night....sounds interesting. Their opening party is in a month and they are going to have a huge event with a whole goat and pig cooking on a spit. hmmmmmmm
i would be a liar if i said i felt better
if i said i felt ok with her
if i said i even felt ok writing this shit down
in some post adolescent "i'm having a hard time right now
and need to express it so of course its fucking
ok to write poetry...real men can write poetry!" way
honestly i feel sad. i feel lost. i feel like another chapter is closing.
yes
of course
there is a new chapter opening
but i feel lost right now.
I'm a serial monogamist or something like that.
I went from a year with Kyla to three months
with Teresa
to 5 months with Megan
to over a year with Angelica
almost no space in between
maybe i don't know how to be alone
is that wrong?
so what. so what if i can't be alone.
so what if i like
having a partner in crime
fuck you
fuck me
and my self doubt
why do i always doubt at these moments in my life
this isn't working and I doubt
the signs are clear
yet i doubt
i want to listen to my heart
but i second guess myself
i doubt
ugh
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
these are the moments when i channel
my frustration
into anger
into anger
into anger
and i exercise like a mad man
i get healthy.
spring into it man
seize the fucking day
.......................... .........................
that feels better...at least for now
if i said i felt ok with her
if i said i even felt ok writing this shit down
in some post adolescent "i'm having a hard time right now
and need to express it so of course its fucking
ok to write poetry...real men can write poetry!" way
honestly i feel sad. i feel lost. i feel like another chapter is closing.
yes
of course
there is a new chapter opening
but i feel lost right now.
I'm a serial monogamist or something like that.
I went from a year with Kyla to three months
with Teresa
to 5 months with Megan
to over a year with Angelica
almost no space in between
maybe i don't know how to be alone
is that wrong?
so what. so what if i can't be alone.
so what if i like
having a partner in crime
fuck you
fuck me
and my self doubt
why do i always doubt at these moments in my life
this isn't working and I doubt
the signs are clear
yet i doubt
i want to listen to my heart
but i second guess myself
i doubt
ugh
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
these are the moments when i channel
my frustration
into anger
into anger
into anger
and i exercise like a mad man
i get healthy.
spring into it man
seize the fucking day
.......................... .........................
that feels better...at least for now
