☆ My life sucks letely..

☆ Today 2 friends died one of them was more close to me.. in x-mas many friends, my boyfriend and I were in his brother's bar.. And I felt very fine.. 'cuz I was talking with him (Jezzer the one who was more close to me) and he invited me a bit of his british beer and food.. hehe and he said .. Hey you pigs! The ladies first .. I liked him very much he was really nice.. I can't belive it.. He was only 16 years old.. fuckin' alcohol i hate it.. they were drunk in the highway.. You can imagine what happened... I can't belive that i was with him Sunday's evening .. we were having fun.. and now.. his gone.. ='( ☆


☆ This 3 december have sucked: 3 years ago.. My dog that I love more that my friends.. She was my sister
dies .. Last december one of my best friends almost dies and she was in coma.. and one girlfriend call me to tell me that one girlfriend of hers died and the fuckers animals of shit raped and mutileted her.. and now Jezzer.. aaargh what days ☆

☆ My x-mas sucked I've been crying 'cuz my familia (my grandpa's etc) they always are criticizing me but i didn't cry for that it was other detail.. but I fuckin' hate that it's ALWAYS i'm so sick of it.. ☆

☆ Then my boyfriend change a lot with me.. he says he don't but i feel it.. It is not paranoia ¬¬ I luv him very very much.. in x-mas afternoon i cried a fuckin' lot.. i Wrote a letter for him.. ☆

☆ My father doesn't want that I come out with my boyfriend and friends i was discussing with him the other day for that.. It's stupid for many reasons that i'll go with them to PLaya in new year's eve to stay there in new year's day.. ☆

☆ I'm so sad.. I hope that all this pass away fast.. And I could be happy .. 'cuz so long ago that i'm not.. I hate being in the emo - doom state..

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