wow, for starting a misery diet, i'm feeling funking groovy...
i did 2hrs of aerobics yesterday, pilates & 1hr yoga class... had only planned on the 2hrs aerobics, but i had so much energy and feeling sooooo good that i just had to go do more to be able to sleep last night. as it was, i hopped on SG Chat & was up til midnight.
and woke up this morning early feeling wide awake & ready to go. holy guacamole.
now i just wish husband would get out of the bathroom so i can get dressed & around... all my clean clothes for my 9am weight class are in the dryer....
heard from a friend i haven't talked to in months yesterday due to her sending me a bit of spam-riddle thing... was happy to get it & wrote back a letter and she responded. cool.
i'm getting antsy to get my next piercing done, but i'm not sure if i should wait a bit for my collarbones to be a little better defined (i have a bit of bodywork i want done & the first i'm going to get is either a horiz or vert madison)....
yoga class was awkwardly funny last night... it's a small group, around 2-6 people usually, about 3 last night... and i got stares & comments from the other beginners and a "wow, you're doing as god as me in some things" from the teacher. i have angleworms in my ancestry and am limited by my pudge being in the way.. otherwise they would've seen some weird stuff. the women in my family all have hyper-extended joints as well as just good muscular flexibility naturally... practicing does a lot of change fast, but even without it we can all put our legs behind our heads & such. when i was (a little too) thin during my early period in the army, i'd every so often have to do a demonstration for the new guys who had just seen me stretch at pt for the first time. freakshow Rumpus. *sigh* so silly.
bathroom is free, gtg
i did 2hrs of aerobics yesterday, pilates & 1hr yoga class... had only planned on the 2hrs aerobics, but i had so much energy and feeling sooooo good that i just had to go do more to be able to sleep last night. as it was, i hopped on SG Chat & was up til midnight.
and woke up this morning early feeling wide awake & ready to go. holy guacamole.
now i just wish husband would get out of the bathroom so i can get dressed & around... all my clean clothes for my 9am weight class are in the dryer....
heard from a friend i haven't talked to in months yesterday due to her sending me a bit of spam-riddle thing... was happy to get it & wrote back a letter and she responded. cool.
i'm getting antsy to get my next piercing done, but i'm not sure if i should wait a bit for my collarbones to be a little better defined (i have a bit of bodywork i want done & the first i'm going to get is either a horiz or vert madison)....
yoga class was awkwardly funny last night... it's a small group, around 2-6 people usually, about 3 last night... and i got stares & comments from the other beginners and a "wow, you're doing as god as me in some things" from the teacher. i have angleworms in my ancestry and am limited by my pudge being in the way.. otherwise they would've seen some weird stuff. the women in my family all have hyper-extended joints as well as just good muscular flexibility naturally... practicing does a lot of change fast, but even without it we can all put our legs behind our heads & such. when i was (a little too) thin during my early period in the army, i'd every so often have to do a demonstration for the new guys who had just seen me stretch at pt for the first time. freakshow Rumpus. *sigh* so silly.
bathroom is free, gtg
ok. this is it. tomorrow i officially begin my helldiet. i've done this before & it worked wonderfully, it was just miserable, that's all.
i weighed the options like this: i can keep losing weight slowly and feel all impatient about how long it's taking & such... or i can go for about 2mths & lose almost all of it and be miserable.... 6+mths of VEERRRYYY slow loss making me anxious, or getting it over in 2-3mths of misery?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
2mths. then we'll see what adjustments i need from there.
i feel pretty now, i'm not feeling "fat & ugly" or anything weird like that... i just want my old body back... i don't want to see a reminder of my military time everytime i look in the mirror.
and thank GOD i'm not one of those women that loses their curves when they lose weight... mine just get more accentuated...
like our some of our other gifted gals here, i'm one of those chicks that at no matter what size have plenty of hips, butt & boobs.
so here i go. i did it before & lost about 20lbs in a month just by eating very, very specifically & exercising a LOT (but always in my comfort zone... but not something most people can handle, i have a very adaptive body). didn't gain it back, just haven't done it again since then because it takes such dedication.
one thing i'm lucky about regarding my weight & losing it: i don't have to worry about regaining due to restarting bad habits. i didn't gain the weight through poor diet or exercise, but by unusual circumstances... so when normal, i stay exactly at whereever i am -whether before or after losing some. it's just the damn losing that's hard, specially cuz of meds.
writing all this down to put me in the beginning frame of mind & to have it out for the world to see -pride & all that to push me to stick to it lol.
after step aerobics tomorrow i gotta go to the commissary & get me supplies so i have no excuse to stray
WOOOHOOOOOOOOO HERE WE GO!
< - fighting face.
i weighed the options like this: i can keep losing weight slowly and feel all impatient about how long it's taking & such... or i can go for about 2mths & lose almost all of it and be miserable.... 6+mths of VEERRRYYY slow loss making me anxious, or getting it over in 2-3mths of misery?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.
2mths. then we'll see what adjustments i need from there.
i feel pretty now, i'm not feeling "fat & ugly" or anything weird like that... i just want my old body back... i don't want to see a reminder of my military time everytime i look in the mirror.
and thank GOD i'm not one of those women that loses their curves when they lose weight... mine just get more accentuated...
like our some of our other gifted gals here, i'm one of those chicks that at no matter what size have plenty of hips, butt & boobs.
so here i go. i did it before & lost about 20lbs in a month just by eating very, very specifically & exercising a LOT (but always in my comfort zone... but not something most people can handle, i have a very adaptive body). didn't gain it back, just haven't done it again since then because it takes such dedication.
one thing i'm lucky about regarding my weight & losing it: i don't have to worry about regaining due to restarting bad habits. i didn't gain the weight through poor diet or exercise, but by unusual circumstances... so when normal, i stay exactly at whereever i am -whether before or after losing some. it's just the damn losing that's hard, specially cuz of meds.
writing all this down to put me in the beginning frame of mind & to have it out for the world to see -pride & all that to push me to stick to it lol.
after step aerobics tomorrow i gotta go to the commissary & get me supplies so i have no excuse to stray
WOOOHOOOOOOOOO HERE WE GO!
< - fighting face.my comment from yesterday was wrong, i meant to say it was my buddies birthday & that her baby is turning 1 soon. i knew what i meant, but the cold medicine & such got all my thoughts blurry. blah. i re-read it with a clear head this morning & went "what?" lol.
Tavist-D is the devil.
lord. my brain.
anyhoo, it was a good party. food, alcohol, games. slept til 1pm roughly... been bumming around since. had drunk sex after we'd gotten home last night (walked from friends' house as we're only about a mile or so away).. couch, livingroom floor, husband's bed. i wasn't smashed, but i was drunk enough that it wasn't really sexually exciting so much as it was a lot of fun.
i gotta drink water so i won't be seriously dehydrated for aerobics tomorrow... but man, i hate drinking water.
getting by, getting by.
Tavist-D is the devil.
lord. my brain.
anyhoo, it was a good party. food, alcohol, games. slept til 1pm roughly... been bumming around since. had drunk sex after we'd gotten home last night (walked from friends' house as we're only about a mile or so away).. couch, livingroom floor, husband's bed. i wasn't smashed, but i was drunk enough that it wasn't really sexually exciting so much as it was a lot of fun.
i gotta drink water so i won't be seriously dehydrated for aerobics tomorrow... but man, i hate drinking water.
getting by, getting by.
feeling better this morning, in large part to the sweetness of friends 
oh well... as i said, always the future.. and i'll keep being naked for fun cuz that's my nature lol..
going to our friends 1yrs old birthday bbq today at six... then drunken silliness after the kiddo is put to bed. she's an adorable kid, one of those babies that are fun to hold and play with... i can almost forgive her the fact that she always turns towards me when she pukes...
i'm re-reading "number of the beast" by heinlein. it's been a while, & i just read most of Burroughs "Mars books", so i'm enjoying it again. it's definitely a book that gets better after a reading or two. i love how Heinlein's stuff gets technical at times, rather than just running into bizarre fantasy... i'm not huge on average science-fiction because they tend to be more of fantasy w/a robot or such, not really sci-theory/math based. besides, i've fallen in love w/Heinlein's characters... husband introduced me to his work because he was a big fan (he likes sci-fi in general), and i got hooked.
what with the wonderful writing & my not-too-balanced-already self, i feel very much like the Longs are alive out there somewhere... that so many of these characters of friends of mine, people, that i've just never gotten to meet... but may hopefully someday.
my father gave me my first introduction to multi-dimensional & multiverse theory & such when i was about 7 or 8yrs old... i shouldn't say introduced, perhaps confirmed would be better... it's one of those things we all know as kids, but time/teachings tend to tell us it isn't possible -until we get a lot older & they tell us or we find out again that it may be real... but i consider myself lucky that while i was still young enough to believe what i felt and saw that my father confirmed it & i didn't have to go through the back and forth adjustment of popular opinion.
did make for some scary times though... given some of the stuff that i've dealt w/in my life + the fact that i'm a little wacked, believing in these things only added to the fear at times.
which leads me to wonder something... why is it that people that people who believe so hard (like aggressive atheists) in these scientific theory are so fast to say firmly that ghosts/spirits don't exist? seems to me, that it would be more likely that -from a purely scientific standpoint- so far such unexplained phenomena could be attributed exactly *to* these theories.. not a "ghost" or "poltergeist" but rather the intermittent interaction (purposeful or not) of two or more universes or some such..?
of course, i'm sure this is being considered by some scientists, true ones, out there. i need to remember that science & atheism can be just as much obsessive religions as any that admit a god(s).
god this got long & dull.
anyhoo, point is: i like Heinlein writing.
oh well... as i said, always the future.. and i'll keep being naked for fun cuz that's my nature lol..
going to our friends 1yrs old birthday bbq today at six... then drunken silliness after the kiddo is put to bed. she's an adorable kid, one of those babies that are fun to hold and play with... i can almost forgive her the fact that she always turns towards me when she pukes...
i'm re-reading "number of the beast" by heinlein. it's been a while, & i just read most of Burroughs "Mars books", so i'm enjoying it again. it's definitely a book that gets better after a reading or two. i love how Heinlein's stuff gets technical at times, rather than just running into bizarre fantasy... i'm not huge on average science-fiction because they tend to be more of fantasy w/a robot or such, not really sci-theory/math based. besides, i've fallen in love w/Heinlein's characters... husband introduced me to his work because he was a big fan (he likes sci-fi in general), and i got hooked.
what with the wonderful writing & my not-too-balanced-already self, i feel very much like the Longs are alive out there somewhere... that so many of these characters of friends of mine, people, that i've just never gotten to meet... but may hopefully someday.
my father gave me my first introduction to multi-dimensional & multiverse theory & such when i was about 7 or 8yrs old... i shouldn't say introduced, perhaps confirmed would be better... it's one of those things we all know as kids, but time/teachings tend to tell us it isn't possible -until we get a lot older & they tell us or we find out again that it may be real... but i consider myself lucky that while i was still young enough to believe what i felt and saw that my father confirmed it & i didn't have to go through the back and forth adjustment of popular opinion.
did make for some scary times though... given some of the stuff that i've dealt w/in my life + the fact that i'm a little wacked, believing in these things only added to the fear at times.
which leads me to wonder something... why is it that people that people who believe so hard (like aggressive atheists) in these scientific theory are so fast to say firmly that ghosts/spirits don't exist? seems to me, that it would be more likely that -from a purely scientific standpoint- so far such unexplained phenomena could be attributed exactly *to* these theories.. not a "ghost" or "poltergeist" but rather the intermittent interaction (purposeful or not) of two or more universes or some such..?
of course, i'm sure this is being considered by some scientists, true ones, out there. i need to remember that science & atheism can be just as much obsessive religions as any that admit a god(s).
god this got long & dull.
anyhoo, point is: i like Heinlein writing.
oh well, got a nice no thankyou on my SG application. rumpus tried. feeling understandably bummed at the moment.i'll get over it & maybe someday in the future....
how does it feel
to treat me like you do
when you've laid your hands upon me
and told me who you are
and i thought i was mistaken
and i thought i heard your words
tell me how do i feel
tell me now how do i feel
to treat me like you do
when you've laid your hands upon me
and told me who you are
and i thought i was mistaken
and i thought i heard your words
tell me how do i feel
tell me now how do i feel
ok, sent in 3 pictures of me to see if they'd like to see a set from me... cross your fingers for me guys..
i'd really love to get on SG... it's one of the key reasons i'm a member of the community... because when i popped in here to start w/i looked around, saw the gorgeous chicks of all different types & amounts of nudity and just plain happy variety.... then found the community to be so friendly & interesting group of people.... and then i said YES. i've wanted so long to find a nice site to get naked for, THIS IS IT. as i wrote in my app as part of my answer to the "why sg" question: this is a site that if they put a set of me up, i'd be proud to tell my mom & friends i was on here.
i mean, what's cooler & hotter than an SG? come onnnn.
lol. anyway, like i said, cross your fingers & send me good vibes.
i'd really love to get on SG... it's one of the key reasons i'm a member of the community... because when i popped in here to start w/i looked around, saw the gorgeous chicks of all different types & amounts of nudity and just plain happy variety.... then found the community to be so friendly & interesting group of people.... and then i said YES. i've wanted so long to find a nice site to get naked for, THIS IS IT. as i wrote in my app as part of my answer to the "why sg" question: this is a site that if they put a set of me up, i'd be proud to tell my mom & friends i was on here.
i mean, what's cooler & hotter than an SG? come onnnn.
lol. anyway, like i said, cross your fingers & send me good vibes.
holy crap. i just got the two skirts i ordered in the mail today. the website pictures didn't prepare me for this. they are awesome. both are very floomfy & well made, the colored one is very boldly colored.
WOW. just WOW.
that woman is gonna make so much money off me....
the long black one has a foomfy princessy feeling when you put it on, the short plaid one makes me feel like Alice in Wonderland when i scrunch up the sides. it has a lot of floomf to it too, much more than i expected. again, the colors are so wow.
i gotta buy me some white tights for the short one & find tops that match both skirts (& am SO crossing my fingers that my corset coming will look right with the long skirt, if so it'll be an amazing set).
droooooolllllll.
she's at here: blackrayne.com
(if you look, i got the long black tulle skirt & the short plaid blue & pink one that you can raise the sides of.
holy cow, i love it when stuff i order is worth the money!
WOW. just WOW.
that woman is gonna make so much money off me....
the long black one has a foomfy princessy feeling when you put it on, the short plaid one makes me feel like Alice in Wonderland when i scrunch up the sides. it has a lot of floomf to it too, much more than i expected. again, the colors are so wow.
i gotta buy me some white tights for the short one & find tops that match both skirts (& am SO crossing my fingers that my corset coming will look right with the long skirt, if so it'll be an amazing set).
droooooolllllll.
she's at here: blackrayne.com
(if you look, i got the long black tulle skirt & the short plaid blue & pink one that you can raise the sides of.
holy cow, i love it when stuff i order is worth the money!
ahhh, had people over last night, played some Risk, watched a movie, ate my husbands Manacotti (sp?).
that boy just loves to cook. and i have to admit it was darn good.
am supposed to dye one of my friends hair today (she's going strawberry blond), she asked me to last night... which surprised me, as she usually comments that she likes my hair & stuff but she gave me kind of an odd look when she walked in the door last night (i'd changed from my blue, fuschia & purple to red w/black tips around the face and top)... so i didn't feel she was feeling too keen on my looks/taste...
but she asked, so i was happy to say sure... and she hasn't called yet. not a biggy, i'd call her, but i don't know her phone number... their home number is on my husband's cellphone that is currently well-misplaced.... so i hope she calls me & doesn't think that i'm *not* calling her about when to come over.
oh, the soap opera that is my life </sarcasm>
yeah, nothing but thrills & chills around this place.
dyed Pixel an odd light blue when i did my hair red & black.... Jonesy has reddish-pink racing stripes, too.
that boy just loves to cook. and i have to admit it was darn good.
am supposed to dye one of my friends hair today (she's going strawberry blond), she asked me to last night... which surprised me, as she usually comments that she likes my hair & stuff but she gave me kind of an odd look when she walked in the door last night (i'd changed from my blue, fuschia & purple to red w/black tips around the face and top)... so i didn't feel she was feeling too keen on my looks/taste...
but she asked, so i was happy to say sure... and she hasn't called yet. not a biggy, i'd call her, but i don't know her phone number... their home number is on my husband's cellphone that is currently well-misplaced.... so i hope she calls me & doesn't think that i'm *not* calling her about when to come over.
oh, the soap opera that is my life </sarcasm>
yeah, nothing but thrills & chills around this place.
dyed Pixel an odd light blue when i did my hair red & black.... Jonesy has reddish-pink racing stripes, too.
*to the tune of "a-hunting we will go"*:
a corset is a-coming, a corset is a-coming. hi ho the dario, a corset is a-coming!
i ordered this beautiful looking corset yesterday... mmmmmm. should take about 6-8weeks they told me.
i'm so excited. i've always wanted a high quality real one rather than low quality pretty-but-cheap ones.
i'm so excited. i just hope it's as gorge in real life as it looks like it'll be.
pictures of it here: corset
a corset is a-coming, a corset is a-coming. hi ho the dario, a corset is a-coming!
i ordered this beautiful looking corset yesterday... mmmmmm. should take about 6-8weeks they told me.
i'm so excited. i've always wanted a high quality real one rather than low quality pretty-but-cheap ones.
i'm so excited. i just hope it's as gorge in real life as it looks like it'll be.
pictures of it here: corset
