Christmas is just not the same anymore,
I can't remember if I blogged about it on here when it happened but my aunt was murdered on the 15th December last year. It totally devestated the whole family including her two boys who now live with us.
You never expect anything like that to happen to your own and this Christmas will mark the one year anniversary. I was so close to my aunt, she only lived a few houses away and we did everything together because she was like a second mum to me. She would have been 40 this December so on the 5th ( her birthdate) we are going to have a big gathering and send off 40 balloons and lanterns.
Christmas this year is now going to be especially hard, my mum now has 5 kids to look after and I have to work Christmas day which brings me onto my next moan...
..work,
When I first started my job as a carer I absolutely loved it but now it just seems to drag me down.
The job itself is so rewarding but the company I work for are so unorganised and I get paid hardly anything even though I work 12 hour days. By the time ive put petrol on my car (i work in th community so I travel around all day) I literally have just enough money to pay for food and my car finance/insurance a month.
And I'll be working all over the Christmas period which is going to be hard enough.
I've already started clearing out my closet to make extra money for gifts as I wanna give my family the best Christmas possible, I have stuff for sale over in th swap meet and will post them on here when I get onto a pc.
I just feel like you should never take anything for granted and cherish everyone around you because you don't know how long you've got left with anyone. I am so thankful to have a wonderful family, amazing friends and most of all my boyfriend who treats me like a princess.
Peace xo
I can't remember if I blogged about it on here when it happened but my aunt was murdered on the 15th December last year. It totally devestated the whole family including her two boys who now live with us.
You never expect anything like that to happen to your own and this Christmas will mark the one year anniversary. I was so close to my aunt, she only lived a few houses away and we did everything together because she was like a second mum to me. She would have been 40 this December so on the 5th ( her birthdate) we are going to have a big gathering and send off 40 balloons and lanterns.
Christmas this year is now going to be especially hard, my mum now has 5 kids to look after and I have to work Christmas day which brings me onto my next moan...
..work,
When I first started my job as a carer I absolutely loved it but now it just seems to drag me down.
The job itself is so rewarding but the company I work for are so unorganised and I get paid hardly anything even though I work 12 hour days. By the time ive put petrol on my car (i work in th community so I travel around all day) I literally have just enough money to pay for food and my car finance/insurance a month.
And I'll be working all over the Christmas period which is going to be hard enough.
I've already started clearing out my closet to make extra money for gifts as I wanna give my family the best Christmas possible, I have stuff for sale over in th swap meet and will post them on here when I get onto a pc.
I just feel like you should never take anything for granted and cherish everyone around you because you don't know how long you've got left with anyone. I am so thankful to have a wonderful family, amazing friends and most of all my boyfriend who treats me like a princess.
Peace xo
