Well my happy-go-lucky attitude seems to have gone missing again,
and seeing as though all this is meant to be one massive secret I didn't know who else to tell so here I am, 11.20am posting this on Suicide Girls.
If you've read my past blogs you will know I went through abit of a rough break up over Christmas because I was left for another girl. It took my a short while to get over it and see that he was a dick but I can't shake the feeling that I'll always be second best.
There was this guy I liked for a fair while, and even though it wasn't anything serious I still let my guard down. I ended up sleeping with him which is something I usually wouldn't do out of a relationship because he said he liked me, for him to then tell me he missed his ex and turns out he's been seeing her. He told me I had to keep it a secret, and obviously I know now why, but it means I can't really talk to my friends about it because they will all be asking 'who?'.
I cannot compete with these girls, they have great personalities and looks to die for.
I am just me, and by being myself I must be doing something wrong because I've ended up feeling like shit yet again, and I've become the mardy cow that I hate.
urgh!
and seeing as though all this is meant to be one massive secret I didn't know who else to tell so here I am, 11.20am posting this on Suicide Girls.
If you've read my past blogs you will know I went through abit of a rough break up over Christmas because I was left for another girl. It took my a short while to get over it and see that he was a dick but I can't shake the feeling that I'll always be second best.
There was this guy I liked for a fair while, and even though it wasn't anything serious I still let my guard down. I ended up sleeping with him which is something I usually wouldn't do out of a relationship because he said he liked me, for him to then tell me he missed his ex and turns out he's been seeing her. He told me I had to keep it a secret, and obviously I know now why, but it means I can't really talk to my friends about it because they will all be asking 'who?'.
I cannot compete with these girls, they have great personalities and looks to die for.
I am just me, and by being myself I must be doing something wrong because I've ended up feeling like shit yet again, and I've become the mardy cow that I hate.
urgh!
FEB 06, 2011 04:19 AM
FEB 06, 2011 04:44 AM
FEB 06, 2011 04:59 AM
I broke up over Christmas too (for the second year in a row) and I know it's a shitty fucking feeling.
Never try to compete, just be yourself that's all you need to be, if that's not what people want then fuck them it's their problem.
I really hope you feel better soon. 
FEB 06, 2011 07:11 AM
FEB 06, 2011 03:30 PM
FEB 07, 2011 02:31 AM
No problem, I'm glad it helped. An yeh, waiting is the worst part, but it's totally worth it when you meet someone eventually. for instance, currently I'm like, "oh noes I'm going to die alone", but when I eventually meet the right person I'll be saying, "What was I complaining about? that was easy and now everything totally rocks" Life is weird like that.
