i go to london in a fortnight
YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
clothes photo shoot next week its really quite useful having a budding photographer and a professional model among your best mates
ooohhhhhhhh and
CHECK IT OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
http://www.velvetelvisdesigns.blogspot.com/
GO TO the flickr for more photos
blog and flickr all put together by the lovely Barny
let me know what you think!!!!!
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YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!
clothes photo shoot next week its really quite useful having a budding photographer and a professional model among your best mates
ooohhhhhhhh and
CHECK IT OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
http://www.velvetelvisdesigns.blogspot.com/
GO TO the flickr for more photos
blog and flickr all put together by the lovely Barny
let me know what you think!!!!!
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1. I HAVE BUSINESS CARDS
2. i AM UTTERLY SMITTEN
3. HE IS 6 FOOT 5 AND HAS THE BODY OF A GOD
4. HE LIVES IN LONDON
5. HE SENDS ME AWESOME PRESENTS
6. HE CAME UP TO SEE ME LAST WEEKEND AND BROUGHT ME A BOTTLE OF CHAMPAGNE AND THE INDIANA JONES BOX SET
7. ....AND A CHEESE BOARD
8. IM MAD ABOUT THE BOY
9. I HAVE A FASHION SHOW IN A FORTNIGHT AND NO FINISHED GARMENTS
10. IN 2 DAYS ALL IVE HAD IS RUBICON FAGS AND CHEESE
11. I AM ON SOMEONES BUSINESS CARD
12. I SNAPPED MY GLASSES IN HALF
13. Barney TURNS UP ON HER LUNCH BREAK AND PINS THINGS, I LOVE HER
14. THERE ARE CURRENTLY 10,000 FLYERS CIRCULATING EDINBRUGH WITH MY DESIGNS ON THEM
15. WHO CAN MAKE THE SUNSHINE?
16. AND SPRINKLE IT WITH DEW?
17. THE CANDY MAN CAN
..................i may have lost the plot
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2. i AM UTTERLY SMITTEN
3. HE IS 6 FOOT 5 AND HAS THE BODY OF A GOD
4. HE LIVES IN LONDON
5. HE SENDS ME AWESOME PRESENTS
6. HE CAME UP TO SEE ME LAST WEEKEND AND BROUGHT ME A BOTTLE OF CHAMPAGNE AND THE INDIANA JONES BOX SET
7. ....AND A CHEESE BOARD
8. IM MAD ABOUT THE BOY
9. I HAVE A FASHION SHOW IN A FORTNIGHT AND NO FINISHED GARMENTS
10. IN 2 DAYS ALL IVE HAD IS RUBICON FAGS AND CHEESE
11. I AM ON SOMEONES BUSINESS CARD
12. I SNAPPED MY GLASSES IN HALF
13. Barney TURNS UP ON HER LUNCH BREAK AND PINS THINGS, I LOVE HER
14. THERE ARE CURRENTLY 10,000 FLYERS CIRCULATING EDINBRUGH WITH MY DESIGNS ON THEM
15. WHO CAN MAKE THE SUNSHINE?
16. AND SPRINKLE IT WITH DEW?
17. THE CANDY MAN CAN
..................i may have lost the plot
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has been a recluse for far too long
i've cut my flyering hours down to 2 shifts a month so im stand some chance in ressurecting a social life,
I NEED TO PARTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I performed my first burlesque with the freaky brides at ny in front of nearly 700 people
never have i been so nervous in all my life
somehow got involved with another guy who lives in another country why oh why?
...but otherwise just sewing like a maniac and trying to keep my S.A.D. negative self to myself to avoid infecting anyone with my miserable bastardness
how is everyone??
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i've cut my flyering hours down to 2 shifts a month so im stand some chance in ressurecting a social life,
I NEED TO PARTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
I performed my first burlesque with the freaky brides at ny in front of nearly 700 people
never have i been so nervous in all my life
somehow got involved with another guy who lives in another country why oh why?
...but otherwise just sewing like a maniac and trying to keep my S.A.D. negative self to myself to avoid infecting anyone with my miserable bastardness
how is everyone??
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listens to radio 2
and has given up any hope in finding any remotely nice men ever
hopelessness thy name is rudii
sorry for not updating in recent while im just trying to keep my bitter cynical man hating exhausted miserable self to myself right now
oh one bright light at the end of the tunnel, my clothing is appearing in a fashion show in february at confusion is sex
what love i have left to give goes to you lovely peeps
and has given up any hope in finding any remotely nice men ever
hopelessness thy name is rudii
sorry for not updating in recent while im just trying to keep my bitter cynical man hating exhausted miserable self to myself right now
oh one bright light at the end of the tunnel, my clothing is appearing in a fashion show in february at confusion is sex
what love i have left to give goes to you lovely peeps
my my it has been a while since i last posted a blog hasn't it, I do apologise for depriving you of my mindless half witted blethering
i feel like i havent sat down or slept properly in three months,
i've only been working like 45 hours a week ...something like that anyway.
but thats at least 7 shifts 2 of which finish at 3.30 in the morning,
also doesnt include all the free dressmaking i seem to be making these days (for example 4 dresses i agreed to make today for SUNDAY for FREE!!!),
promotional photoshoot for the freaky brides which i started doing hair and make up for at 2 in the afternoon and didnt get home till midnight,
confusion is sex last friday where me and my other head freaky bride did around 20 peoples hair and make up in under 2 and a half hours
so basically im tired......
some cool stuff has happened though and i have the pics to prove it
torture garden
...where i molested barney in the dungeon and got thoroughly merry and then pranced home practically naked
just a little bit drunk here
getting ready, she's applying gold body paint not touching me up by the way
someone taking a picture of my butt
performing the thriller routine at confusion...i was cacking myself but overjoyed that I got barnicles dragged into it, i love that girl!!!!!!!!!!
being unladylike (look at my fucking weird fingers!!)
being VERY unladylike and showing why i shouldnt drink jagerbombs after a bottle of wine and copious amounts of hairspray
a zebra punk and a hot girl attached to with handcuffs that match your outfit...my night was complete
THE NEXT NIGHT.....
i had to fucking work, halloween is fucking terrifying on the cowgate it was like a riot was gonna break out at any point, i had 3 minutes to get ready so i went as someone who owns way tooooo much leopard print...my flyering colleague couldnt be bothered getting dressed up a second night in a row but he did let me wrap his face in sellotape....he kept telling everyone he was Simon Weston (the burn victim) I love him because he managed to down a jager through all that sellotape without dribbling
i nearly murdered several people that night for being unbeliavable cunt faced ass hats
the guy who tried to push in in front of me at the 24 hour shop after id been waiting for 25 minutes was lucky to get out with his life although he did inform me that I was apparently "a dick to the world"
basically i am very much in the thick of things right now, its exciting and inspiring, and theres always something to be doing....it doesnt leave me with a lot of "me time" though
oh yeah....stiff little fingers were amazing .....AND.. they played my favourite Elvis Costello song as an encore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh yeah.... i Got my wheely chair..yet to put it together though
oh ...yeah the awkward flatmate situation has been resolved as hes moved out
oh yeah.....i move into my new bedroom (next door) this weekend....AND it has curtains!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh yeah look at the cake my best freind made for my birthday!! erm it has my name on it but i so badly want to show it to you all!!!!
i made this dress for the confusion hostess who modelled it at aphoto shoot as well you like??
........also I kind of met someone i quite like, he lives at the opposite end of the united kingdom, so lets face it, it's doomed from the start, but he calls me princess and its been soooooooo long since anyone has given me butterflies, we've only really been talking a week but I think we're both pretty smitten, its fucking terrifying because I know I'm gonna get destroyed and nothing EVER works out for me with men, but I need this so badly. Morw than anything in the world I need someone to make me feel like the most special thing in their life and be able to wrap me up in their arms and make me feel completely protected and safe...
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHH this is why I avoid men altogether!! they make me realise how gooey and girly I am, which makes it very hard to keep up the hard as nails, couldnt.....give....a....fuck persona I like to present to the world.
On the other hand I haven't been fucked over by a guy for at least 9 months (mainly cos I haven't been near any) so I guess it might be time for me to jump back in and take another emotional beating
thoughts ? opinions? general words of wisdom? dead baby jokes????
haha missed you kiddies rxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
i feel like i havent sat down or slept properly in three months,
i've only been working like 45 hours a week ...something like that anyway.
but thats at least 7 shifts 2 of which finish at 3.30 in the morning,
also doesnt include all the free dressmaking i seem to be making these days (for example 4 dresses i agreed to make today for SUNDAY for FREE!!!),
promotional photoshoot for the freaky brides which i started doing hair and make up for at 2 in the afternoon and didnt get home till midnight,
confusion is sex last friday where me and my other head freaky bride did around 20 peoples hair and make up in under 2 and a half hours
so basically im tired......
some cool stuff has happened though and i have the pics to prove it
torture garden
...where i molested barney in the dungeon and got thoroughly merry and then pranced home practically naked
just a little bit drunk here
getting ready, she's applying gold body paint not touching me up by the way
someone taking a picture of my butt
performing the thriller routine at confusion...i was cacking myself but overjoyed that I got barnicles dragged into it, i love that girl!!!!!!!!!!
being unladylike (look at my fucking weird fingers!!)
being VERY unladylike and showing why i shouldnt drink jagerbombs after a bottle of wine and copious amounts of hairspray
a zebra punk and a hot girl attached to with handcuffs that match your outfit...my night was complete
THE NEXT NIGHT.....
i had to fucking work, halloween is fucking terrifying on the cowgate it was like a riot was gonna break out at any point, i had 3 minutes to get ready so i went as someone who owns way tooooo much leopard print...my flyering colleague couldnt be bothered getting dressed up a second night in a row but he did let me wrap his face in sellotape....he kept telling everyone he was Simon Weston (the burn victim) I love him because he managed to down a jager through all that sellotape without dribbling
i nearly murdered several people that night for being unbeliavable cunt faced ass hats
the guy who tried to push in in front of me at the 24 hour shop after id been waiting for 25 minutes was lucky to get out with his life although he did inform me that I was apparently "a dick to the world"
basically i am very much in the thick of things right now, its exciting and inspiring, and theres always something to be doing....it doesnt leave me with a lot of "me time" though
oh yeah....stiff little fingers were amazing .....AND.. they played my favourite Elvis Costello song as an encore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh yeah.... i Got my wheely chair..yet to put it together though
oh ...yeah the awkward flatmate situation has been resolved as hes moved out
oh yeah.....i move into my new bedroom (next door) this weekend....AND it has curtains!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
oh yeah look at the cake my best freind made for my birthday!! erm it has my name on it but i so badly want to show it to you all!!!!
i made this dress for the confusion hostess who modelled it at aphoto shoot as well you like??
........also I kind of met someone i quite like, he lives at the opposite end of the united kingdom, so lets face it, it's doomed from the start, but he calls me princess and its been soooooooo long since anyone has given me butterflies, we've only really been talking a week but I think we're both pretty smitten, its fucking terrifying because I know I'm gonna get destroyed and nothing EVER works out for me with men, but I need this so badly. Morw than anything in the world I need someone to make me feel like the most special thing in their life and be able to wrap me up in their arms and make me feel completely protected and safe...
AAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHH this is why I avoid men altogether!! they make me realise how gooey and girly I am, which makes it very hard to keep up the hard as nails, couldnt.....give....a....fuck persona I like to present to the world.
On the other hand I haven't been fucked over by a guy for at least 9 months (mainly cos I haven't been near any) so I guess it might be time for me to jump back in and take another emotional beating
thoughts ? opinions? general words of wisdom? dead baby jokes????
haha missed you kiddies rxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I walked past a mental hospital the other day.
All the patients were shouting 13!13!13!!13!!!!
The fence was too high to see over, but i saw a little gap in the planks and peeked through to see what was going on.
Some fucker pocked me in the eye with a stick.
Then they all started shouting 14!14!14!!!!!
hahahhaha my sister told me this....I told her I had my first appointment with my new psycologist today after 2 years of waiting...she wanted me to poke her in the eye with a stick just to make the joke funnier...
Gran Turino and The Wrestler are now my 2 favourite comeback movies.
Not enough movie stars smoke anymore there's gonna be no awesome old actors with grizzled larynxes left
oh yeah look at my freaky assed chicken wing shoulder...you want fries with that?
going to torture garden next week with the freaky brides woop woop!!!!
stiff little fingers on sat double woop woop..I'll try and not lose my shoes this time
hopefully this is waht i'll be getting for my birthday...
one has back support and height adjustment, one lets me drink wine without spilling any, one gets rid of the crumbs in my bed
oops that went wrong the other is at he bottom!
my phone is currently held ogether with fragile tape..i think it lends it a certain something no?
met the awesome rhino's are dino's last week. We share the mutual language of dead baby jokes
i made this for my freind who just split up with herr boyfreind...I am sooooooooooo mature
Macauley culkin..."look mom no hands!!!!!!"
I'm gonna sweep that man right outta my hair....
me looking like the vaguely normal one for once
much love to you my little munchkins
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All the patients were shouting 13!13!13!!13!!!!
The fence was too high to see over, but i saw a little gap in the planks and peeked through to see what was going on.
Some fucker pocked me in the eye with a stick.
Then they all started shouting 14!14!14!!!!!
hahahhaha my sister told me this....I told her I had my first appointment with my new psycologist today after 2 years of waiting...she wanted me to poke her in the eye with a stick just to make the joke funnier...
Gran Turino and The Wrestler are now my 2 favourite comeback movies.
Not enough movie stars smoke anymore there's gonna be no awesome old actors with grizzled larynxes left
oh yeah look at my freaky assed chicken wing shoulder...you want fries with that?
going to torture garden next week with the freaky brides woop woop!!!!
stiff little fingers on sat double woop woop..I'll try and not lose my shoes this time
hopefully this is waht i'll be getting for my birthday...
one has back support and height adjustment, one lets me drink wine without spilling any, one gets rid of the crumbs in my bed
oops that went wrong the other is at he bottom!
my phone is currently held ogether with fragile tape..i think it lends it a certain something no?
met the awesome rhino's are dino's last week. We share the mutual language of dead baby jokes
i made this for my freind who just split up with herr boyfreind...I am sooooooooooo mature
Macauley culkin..."look mom no hands!!!!!!"
I'm gonna sweep that man right outta my hair....
me looking like the vaguely normal one for once
much love to you my little munchkins
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FOOKIN YALDI!!!!!!!!!!
a compilation of photots including hungover rudii, futuristic 60's housewife rudii, rudii choking on ginger, rudii in pants t shirt scarf turban combo, rudii the monster, vintage mecca, sailor rudii, the token pillow fight photo, rudii hugging ershins head and a bunch of other stuff
a few tidbits if you will
prawn drinking at everything in "I have never"
cake or death becoming shit or puke when secretaries hangover arrived
chris de burgh stylee " i drove my tractor through your haystack last night oooo ar oooaaaaaaaaaaar"
sam who is ace apparently, who owned a cafe... the only time "how do you like your eggs in the morning" can be used as a chat up line and actually work
phwoooaaar angela lansbury
playing bongos on secretaries butt for ten minutes without her waking up
"chhhhiiiiiiiiiiiippppsssssssss booooooooooooooooooooobbbsss i pulled a stripper!!!!"
...secratary again
realising I don't know the alphabet
the wiggle worm mating dance...see prawn's videos
oh and getting my first lap dance at the strip club........
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edited to add
a pic where im ocd ing on some wool and the other i have no fucking clue what im doing
FOOKIN YALDI!!!!!!!!!!
a compilation of photots including hungover rudii, futuristic 60's housewife rudii, rudii choking on ginger, rudii in pants t shirt scarf turban combo, rudii the monster, vintage mecca, sailor rudii, the token pillow fight photo, rudii hugging ershins head and a bunch of other stuff
a few tidbits if you will
prawn drinking at everything in "I have never"
cake or death becoming shit or puke when secretaries hangover arrived
chris de burgh stylee " i drove my tractor through your haystack last night oooo ar oooaaaaaaaaaaar"
sam who is ace apparently, who owned a cafe... the only time "how do you like your eggs in the morning" can be used as a chat up line and actually work
phwoooaaar angela lansbury
playing bongos on secretaries butt for ten minutes without her waking up
"chhhhiiiiiiiiiiiippppsssssssss booooooooooooooooooooobbbsss i pulled a stripper!!!!"
...secratary again
realising I don't know the alphabet
the wiggle worm mating dance...see prawn's videos
oh and getting my first lap dance at the strip club........
rxxx
edited to add
a pic where im ocd ing on some wool and the other i have no fucking clue what im doing
idiocy thy name is rudii
the following are 2 examples of why I don't let myself get drunk anymore......................................................................................................................................................................................................................
monday went over to my bosses house to help her film the freaky brides projection film to put up on the big screen (covering one wall of the bongo club) that gets played while the club is on. its just really overedited clips of me and the girls dancing about basically
1. I got very very drunk and agreed to dance about in my underwear................
I then said................ why don't i just go topless?........................
everyone I know, including all the people I work with will see me 20 foot tall dancing about half naked......
2. I got very very very drunk on Thursday, my flatmate, yes you know the one Barney. Who I've had a crush on since he moved in a couple months ago, well it was his birthday and as it turns out he had a crush on me too......................so being me, consequences be damned, I slept with him........................
WTF you're thinking and rightly so.....
he decided to continue celebrating his birthday by going on a 4 day bender and spent the weekend at his evil ex girlfreinds (I've never met the girl I've just heard lots and lots and lots of stories) he came home this morning still totally blooootered, and proceeded to line after joint after line after beer upon beer.
He then proceeded to spend 2 hours telling me how gorgeous she was and how much he still loved and lots of other in depth details I REAALLLLY did not need to know. Suddenly I realised how fucking stupid I'd been (well I already knew how stupid what I'd done was but extra stupid now) all the wonderful things he'd said to me were just the usual bull that all guys say and I'd let myself get sucked in by it.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
so this is why I don't get drunk anymore, christ can you imagine the stupid assed stuff I would get up to if I took drugs?
basically I am now in a deep well of shame, I seem to be so desperate for affection, that when a guy who is so smashed he would fuck a letterbox, tells me I'm gorgeous and he's fancied me for ages, I somehow abandon all sense of self respect, dignity, and self preservation, no wonder I always get fucked over....I swear to god I'm one of those people who would probably stay with their abusive violent husband rather than be alone.
Who wants to slap me for being such a farcical twat?
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the following are 2 examples of why I don't let myself get drunk anymore......................................................................................................................................................................................................................
monday went over to my bosses house to help her film the freaky brides projection film to put up on the big screen (covering one wall of the bongo club) that gets played while the club is on. its just really overedited clips of me and the girls dancing about basically
1. I got very very drunk and agreed to dance about in my underwear................
I then said................ why don't i just go topless?........................
everyone I know, including all the people I work with will see me 20 foot tall dancing about half naked......
2. I got very very very drunk on Thursday, my flatmate, yes you know the one Barney. Who I've had a crush on since he moved in a couple months ago, well it was his birthday and as it turns out he had a crush on me too......................so being me, consequences be damned, I slept with him........................
WTF you're thinking and rightly so.....
he decided to continue celebrating his birthday by going on a 4 day bender and spent the weekend at his evil ex girlfreinds (I've never met the girl I've just heard lots and lots and lots of stories) he came home this morning still totally blooootered, and proceeded to line after joint after line after beer upon beer.
He then proceeded to spend 2 hours telling me how gorgeous she was and how much he still loved and lots of other in depth details I REAALLLLY did not need to know. Suddenly I realised how fucking stupid I'd been (well I already knew how stupid what I'd done was but extra stupid now) all the wonderful things he'd said to me were just the usual bull that all guys say and I'd let myself get sucked in by it.
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
so this is why I don't get drunk anymore, christ can you imagine the stupid assed stuff I would get up to if I took drugs?
basically I am now in a deep well of shame, I seem to be so desperate for affection, that when a guy who is so smashed he would fuck a letterbox, tells me I'm gorgeous and he's fancied me for ages, I somehow abandon all sense of self respect, dignity, and self preservation, no wonder I always get fucked over....I swear to god I'm one of those people who would probably stay with their abusive violent husband rather than be alone.
Who wants to slap me for being such a farcical twat?
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"WHERE INSPIRATION COMES IN BOXES"
my favouritest radio jingle ever, more so than "mooooooooooon piiig dot coooooooooom"
haha
sorry for the previous self pitying horrible rant blog, sometimes you just need to get something out your system
on Friday a cute guy talked to me for a whole five minutes, and he wasn't even after my pal, he wanted to talk to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! made my night! been a long time since thats happened.
I think my body may be going into early hibernation, I will start hankering after honey, grow fur and live in a cave soon. I can literally sleep all day and night then sleep some more. Oh and fooood, food has become basically all I think about all day, I ate 6 brie chorizo and olive baguettes on Saturday, that can't be normal.....
.....i mean I hate olives!!!
interesting fact for the day....
The stupendous and legendary Belle and Sebastian are named after a 70's kids programme that was always repeated in the summer holidays just after Black Beauty. It was a swiss programme really badly dubbed about a little boy and his St. Bernard...kind of like lassie, but you know on a mountain with snow and stuff and more fur and a teeny tiny barrel of brandy attached to a dog collar.
Why don't tramps do that? they always seem to have dogs, mind you I'm not sure a scrawny lurcher mongrel with fleas could manage a 5 litre bottle of white lightning around its neck
Just finished reading The Gum Theif, good god I forgot how much I love Douglas Coupland, all his books always make me laugh and cry and want to annoy my co workers by reading bits out loud "....like her other most important feelings, they'd gone out for a pack of cigarettes one day and just never come back...."
I am in awe!!!!!!! I fucking love his set, never mind how much I worship Anthony E Zuiker, every shot is perfection, gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hot and freaky and creepy brilliant!!!!!!!!!!
someone made me watch this video and I ended up spending three hours watching videos of pus eruption, total car crash vision, i...couldn't....look.....away
can you tell I just figured out how to embed fideos had you guessed?
Bear with it, its worth it! Somehow I forgot how much I completely and totally adore Meatloaf, I was brought up on Beach Boys, Elton John (Goodbye Yellow Brick Road is one of all time favourite albums...bbbbbbenny and the jetssssssssssssssss) and Meatloaf...maestros of classic pop melodies if I don't say so myself
right I'm gonna go eat more things now and try and convince my flatmate to let me lance his neck cyst,.........mmmmm maybe I'll have cottage cheese on toast
ppps Dylan Moran gave me his autograph last week, I turned bright red, he laughed at a joke I made too!
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my favouritest radio jingle ever, more so than "mooooooooooon piiig dot coooooooooom"
haha
sorry for the previous self pitying horrible rant blog, sometimes you just need to get something out your system
on Friday a cute guy talked to me for a whole five minutes, and he wasn't even after my pal, he wanted to talk to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! made my night! been a long time since thats happened.
I think my body may be going into early hibernation, I will start hankering after honey, grow fur and live in a cave soon. I can literally sleep all day and night then sleep some more. Oh and fooood, food has become basically all I think about all day, I ate 6 brie chorizo and olive baguettes on Saturday, that can't be normal.....
.....i mean I hate olives!!!
interesting fact for the day....
The stupendous and legendary Belle and Sebastian are named after a 70's kids programme that was always repeated in the summer holidays just after Black Beauty. It was a swiss programme really badly dubbed about a little boy and his St. Bernard...kind of like lassie, but you know on a mountain with snow and stuff and more fur and a teeny tiny barrel of brandy attached to a dog collar.
Why don't tramps do that? they always seem to have dogs, mind you I'm not sure a scrawny lurcher mongrel with fleas could manage a 5 litre bottle of white lightning around its neck
Just finished reading The Gum Theif, good god I forgot how much I love Douglas Coupland, all his books always make me laugh and cry and want to annoy my co workers by reading bits out loud "....like her other most important feelings, they'd gone out for a pack of cigarettes one day and just never come back...."
I am in awe!!!!!!! I fucking love his set, never mind how much I worship Anthony E Zuiker, every shot is perfection, gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hot and freaky and creepy brilliant!!!!!!!!!!
someone made me watch this video and I ended up spending three hours watching videos of pus eruption, total car crash vision, i...couldn't....look.....away
can you tell I just figured out how to embed fideos had you guessed?
Bear with it, its worth it! Somehow I forgot how much I completely and totally adore Meatloaf, I was brought up on Beach Boys, Elton John (Goodbye Yellow Brick Road is one of all time favourite albums...bbbbbbenny and the jetssssssssssssssss) and Meatloaf...maestros of classic pop melodies if I don't say so myself
right I'm gonna go eat more things now and try and convince my flatmate to let me lance his neck cyst,.........mmmmm maybe I'll have cottage cheese on toast
ppps Dylan Moran gave me his autograph last week, I turned bright red, he laughed at a joke I made too!
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MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!
I'm going to liverpool for the girls only meet! beep beep toot toot!
One problem its cosplay theme dress up on the Saturday and I don't really know much about anime/manga
I mean yeah I was obsessed with Fruits and harajuko stuff as a teenager, but its not really me anymore, now I'm more into 80's trailer trash and hip hop bling, what to wear what to wear
In reference to my previous blog I now only have to flyer one night a week, ZONINO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Apparently I'm one of the most reliable members of staff they've ever had Kudo's to me!!!
EXCLAIMER...SELF PITYING BITCHY RANT TO FOLLOW (I despise subjecting innocent people to my rants but its all I can think about right now, I am not looking for sympathy, advice, your own rants and empathy would be appreciated however)
But to be quite honest nothing can bring me out of my shitty assed mood right now, I feel crap about myself, my self esteem and self confidence is running on empty.
I realised the other day I haven't had sex since March, ughhhhhhh. I'm dying a little inside every day people.
Yes I know that one's self worth shouldn't be wrapped up in your relationship (or non relationship) with your preferred sex....
But, when you've spent seven months of always trying to look your best, trying to be charming and witty ....
You end up feeling utterly shit about yourself, when all you hear is oh I like your freind, whats your freinds name she's hot blah blah blah
Its turning me into a grumpy, bitter pain in the arse
Oh and my flatmates are suffering too...apparently lack of sex turns me into an obsessive compulsive anal retentive nazi cunt
Everybody I know male and female seem to jump from one relationship to another, and I can't so much as get a guy to say hi to me when standing next to me at the bar, THE INCREDIBLE INVISIBLE RUDII!!!!!!!!!!!
According to all of my male freinds I seemed incredibly intimidating when they first met me, I have told this to female freinds and they scoffed(pissed themselves laughing actually) the phrase "drunk puppy dog" was used on several occasions.
An ex went as far as to say I might as well have had FUCK OFF tattooed on my forehead when he met me (I wish I had
)
Any ideas how someone can appear less intimidaitng? hhhhrrrrrrm
Shall I just start wearing a t shirt that says hug me or something?
Another major gripe is that I know all these guys who claim they want to go out with confident intelligent woman, who speak their mind and are funny and independent. Yet somehow they keep going after dulll as fuck girls who have no ambitions, opinions or ANY FUCKING SENSE OF INDIVIDUALITY.
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAWRRRRRRRRR
sorry people, its just am I gonna have to start buying all my clothes from Topshop, reading NME and stand around looking bored and pouty for anyone to find me attractive
I AM FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rant over, sorry if I shat on your parade people.
Confusion is sex on Friday yiPEE!!!!!!!!!!!! I can get glammed up and dance all night and be ignored by people, kidding its gonna be ace
here's a wee pic from last CiS (there were pole dancers, it were ace)
ok maybe I do look a bit freakin scary in this photo
aaaaaaaaaaaaaah FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKK IT!
oh yeah I 'd been dancing for about 4 hours solid at this point, ride the red bull baby oh yeah!!!
I'm going to liverpool for the girls only meet! beep beep toot toot!
One problem its cosplay theme dress up on the Saturday and I don't really know much about anime/manga
I mean yeah I was obsessed with Fruits and harajuko stuff as a teenager, but its not really me anymore, now I'm more into 80's trailer trash and hip hop bling, what to wear what to wear
In reference to my previous blog I now only have to flyer one night a week, ZONINO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Apparently I'm one of the most reliable members of staff they've ever had
Kudo's to me!!!EXCLAIMER...SELF PITYING BITCHY RANT TO FOLLOW (I despise subjecting innocent people to my rants but its all I can think about right now, I am not looking for sympathy, advice, your own rants and empathy would be appreciated however)
But to be quite honest nothing can bring me out of my shitty assed mood right now, I feel crap about myself, my self esteem and self confidence is running on empty.
I realised the other day I haven't had sex since March, ughhhhhhh. I'm dying a little inside every day people.
Yes I know that one's self worth shouldn't be wrapped up in your relationship (or non relationship) with your preferred sex....
But, when you've spent seven months of always trying to look your best, trying to be charming and witty ....
You end up feeling utterly shit about yourself, when all you hear is oh I like your freind, whats your freinds name she's hot blah blah blah
Its turning me into a grumpy, bitter pain in the arse
Oh and my flatmates are suffering too...apparently lack of sex turns me into an obsessive compulsive anal retentive nazi cunt
Everybody I know male and female seem to jump from one relationship to another, and I can't so much as get a guy to say hi to me when standing next to me at the bar, THE INCREDIBLE INVISIBLE RUDII!!!!!!!!!!!
According to all of my male freinds I seemed incredibly intimidating when they first met me, I have told this to female freinds and they scoffed(pissed themselves laughing actually) the phrase "drunk puppy dog" was used on several occasions.
An ex went as far as to say I might as well have had FUCK OFF tattooed on my forehead when he met me (I wish I had
)Any ideas how someone can appear less intimidaitng? hhhhrrrrrrm
Shall I just start wearing a t shirt that says hug me or something?
Another major gripe is that I know all these guys who claim they want to go out with confident intelligent woman, who speak their mind and are funny and independent. Yet somehow they keep going after dulll as fuck girls who have no ambitions, opinions or ANY FUCKING SENSE OF INDIVIDUALITY.
RAAAAAAAAAAAAAWRRRRRRRRR
sorry people, its just am I gonna have to start buying all my clothes from Topshop, reading NME and stand around looking bored and pouty for anyone to find me attractive
I AM FED UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rant over, sorry if I shat on your parade people.
Confusion is sex on Friday yiPEE!!!!!!!!!!!! I can get glammed up and dance all night and be ignored by people, kidding its gonna be ace
here's a wee pic from last CiS (there were pole dancers, it were ace)
ok maybe I do look a bit freakin scary in this photo
aaaaaaaaaaaaaah FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKK IT!
oh yeah I 'd been dancing for about 4 hours solid at this point, ride the red bull baby oh yeah!!!
