IPOD
RADIO
What is going on?! I am not sure but whatever it is...i don't want it to stop. I actually feel...what's that word?...um...oh yea...sexy! That hasn't happened for a while. It's a nice feeling to have.
Tonight...Wait wait don't tell me! EEEEEEEE!
Tonight...Wait wait don't tell me! EEEEEEEE!
This month I:
Helped my friend get ready for a job interview
Gave a haircut to my sister in law
Volunteered at a homeless shelter
Joined a gym
celebrated my dad's 50th birthday with family and friends in Sacramento
Celebrating my son's, cousin's, best friend and grandma's birthdays (still to come)
This month has been crazy and honestly i'll be glad when it's over. Besides October is my favorite month of the year anyway.
That is all for now. I'm sleepy
Helped my friend get ready for a job interview
Gave a haircut to my sister in law
Volunteered at a homeless shelter
Joined a gym
celebrated my dad's 50th birthday with family and friends in Sacramento
Celebrating my son's, cousin's, best friend and grandma's birthdays (still to come)
This month has been crazy and honestly i'll be glad when it's over. Besides October is my favorite month of the year anyway.
That is all for now. I'm sleepy
First day of school. Always a wank. But pretty excited about this semester.
I have my perming 1 class, coloring 1 and haircutting 2 for the 1st 8 weeks and skin care 1, hair coloring 2 and hair styling 2 for the 2nd 8 weeks.
I have my perming 1 class, coloring 1 and haircutting 2 for the 1st 8 weeks and skin care 1, hair coloring 2 and hair styling 2 for the 2nd 8 weeks.
Update...
So tosha might or might not have killed herself. She actually overdosed. Whether that was intentional or not still remains to be seen. I found out that she got married. I have no idea to who though. Her husband had her cremated and spread her ashes in the ocean.
It's been very hard for me. I find myself crying in short bursts all throughout the day. And I have been in a seriously horrible mood. Yesterday David wasn't feeling well and I was mean to him all day. I realized the errors or my ways and apologized to him this morning.
I was awake last night pretty late and decided to get out of the house. I don't know why I did. Maybe to find something that was missing. Either way it gave me some time to think and put things into perspective. I'm never going to see her again. She represented a whole portion of my life that I will never have back. This isn't the first time I have had to deal with death. But it doesn't make it any easier.
She was someone I truly called a friend. I don't have many people in my life that I really consider true friends. This site helps us to come together and hang out but how many of us can say in all honesty that we are good friends? I have known some people on this site for years and I still wouldn't consider them my real friends. This isn't to say that there aren't amazing people on here that I wouldn't help out if they needed it. I'm just saying that for the most part, none of you know all of me. You get the fragments that I choose to show you. She knew everything about me. I could and did tell her everything. I didn't have to know her long either before we became "sown at the hip" as dave put it yesterday. She and I had a connection that you don't get to have with everyone.
I don't feel like I just lost a friend. I feel like I lost a part of me. She was a wonderful person and ANYONE would have been lucky to call her a friend. I'm glad I got the chance to know her but I'll always wish that I could have given her just one more hug and told her how much she meant to me.
So tosha might or might not have killed herself. She actually overdosed. Whether that was intentional or not still remains to be seen. I found out that she got married. I have no idea to who though. Her husband had her cremated and spread her ashes in the ocean.
It's been very hard for me. I find myself crying in short bursts all throughout the day. And I have been in a seriously horrible mood. Yesterday David wasn't feeling well and I was mean to him all day. I realized the errors or my ways and apologized to him this morning.
I was awake last night pretty late and decided to get out of the house. I don't know why I did. Maybe to find something that was missing. Either way it gave me some time to think and put things into perspective. I'm never going to see her again. She represented a whole portion of my life that I will never have back. This isn't the first time I have had to deal with death. But it doesn't make it any easier.
She was someone I truly called a friend. I don't have many people in my life that I really consider true friends. This site helps us to come together and hang out but how many of us can say in all honesty that we are good friends? I have known some people on this site for years and I still wouldn't consider them my real friends. This isn't to say that there aren't amazing people on here that I wouldn't help out if they needed it. I'm just saying that for the most part, none of you know all of me. You get the fragments that I choose to show you. She knew everything about me. I could and did tell her everything. I didn't have to know her long either before we became "sown at the hip" as dave put it yesterday. She and I had a connection that you don't get to have with everyone.
I don't feel like I just lost a friend. I feel like I lost a part of me. She was a wonderful person and ANYONE would have been lucky to call her a friend. I'm glad I got the chance to know her but I'll always wish that I could have given her just one more hug and told her how much she meant to me.
Nonsense and I have been trying to get in touch with my first girl friend again for a while now. We had a bit of a falling out when we broke up and we didn't see her very much after that. I heard from her every once in a while and I tried to get in contact with her several times after that but she was kinda flighty and hard to get a hold of most of the time. So years went on and we would hear certain things...she enlisted in the air force...the broke it off with her boyfriend..etc. Then in 2003, nonsense and I got married and I focused more on our life and while I didn't forget about her..i just didn't put out that much effort to find her. I have since then tried every now and then to do a google search or a myspace search hopeing beyond hope that she will surface somewhere.
I came home today after having a strange day at disneyland with Froggy, Moogle and aidan to my hubby. He asked me if what her old boyfriend's name was..( 'Oh my god. He found her...or at least her old boyfriend..maybe I can get in touch with her!) I told him what I remembered and he confirmed that it was him...then he said..."it's bad news." (Oh no! I won't be able to get a hold of her because something happened to her boyfriend...) No. She killed herself. From what he could gather on the internet from others is that she died sometime in 2004. I have been searching in vain for 4 years.
she was the first girl I ever had feelings for and I can't even say goodbye to her. I can't even fully remember the last time I saw her.
I don't know if she ever even tried to find me. I just keep thinking over and over again..why? why did she do it? Why didn't she come to find me? why did she think she was alone? I know i'll continue asking why forever and i'll never know the answer.
RIP Tosha Michel. I loved you.
I came home today after having a strange day at disneyland with Froggy, Moogle and aidan to my hubby. He asked me if what her old boyfriend's name was..( 'Oh my god. He found her...or at least her old boyfriend..maybe I can get in touch with her!) I told him what I remembered and he confirmed that it was him...then he said..."it's bad news." (Oh no! I won't be able to get a hold of her because something happened to her boyfriend...) No. She killed herself. From what he could gather on the internet from others is that she died sometime in 2004. I have been searching in vain for 4 years.
she was the first girl I ever had feelings for and I can't even say goodbye to her. I can't even fully remember the last time I saw her.
I don't know if she ever even tried to find me. I just keep thinking over and over again..why? why did she do it? Why didn't she come to find me? why did she think she was alone? I know i'll continue asking why forever and i'll never know the answer.
RIP Tosha Michel. I loved you.
So professor decided to surprise us with not 1 but 2 quizzes today on top of our midterm. I was pretty much feeling "WTF!" all day but after taking them and finding out that I was the only person in class that got 100% on all 3 tests...i'm feeling pretty fucking fantastic.
After the tests we got a demonstration from the Yuko japanese straightening hair people. They straightened a student's hair for free! This process is at the very least $400! We also all walked away with a TUB of really rad conditioner. I am so excited to try it out.
After the tests we got a demonstration from the Yuko japanese straightening hair people. They straightened a student's hair for free! This process is at the very least $400! We also all walked away with a TUB of really rad conditioner. I am so excited to try it out.
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