Work was fun today. I'm learning how to use Combustion, which is video and animation effects compositing software. I'm happy to work with "toys" in an environment where I get to play around.

I think it's time to bump this old entry out. I guess I should write in my journal more often.

welcome new friends, hopefully you won't be bored to tears.

I'm enjoying a wek of relative sobriety, if only because of a lack of a paycheck until Thursday. It's amazing what clarity you can achieve.

Jesus Fucking Christ Why does it hurt? I was fine for a couple of weeks until I see that she lied about not wanting a relationship with her arms around some hipster and not me. All I wanted was honesty. Sure, It would still suck eggs if she had said she wants to be with someone else, but this is so much worse. I think I'm going to explode. I was over the pacing the floor and staying away from our old haunts stage, and now I'm right back at square one. I'd love to be so damn mean to them right now, but it wouldn't do any good and I'd just feel worse. She thought she'd let me down easy, but that's not the case. Fucking WRETCHED!!!