Someone must really like me, or has missed me, as I was given a 3 months subscription to return to SG. Thank you mystery fan.

Been a while since I've been here. A lot has changed in my life while a lot stayd the same. I'm hoping for a better 2010 and taking the actions needed for it to be such. I'm tired of this... turmoil. I need to be a positive person, dwelling in depression has been my routine for far too long.

Wish me luck?

The love of my life was put to sleep today. I've had her for 13 years with me, more than half of my life. I'll miss her so, so dearly. I cried and screamed so much today... I can't even grasp that she's no longer with me. She was my twin soul in every way possible. She was named just like me, Shelly, even before we adopted her. She too suffered violence in the past. We completed each other. She was there to comfort me so many times, and now she isn't here.



I love you, Shell. You were, and always be my baby...

I just had my hair cut and dyed. It's back to brown and my hair is no longer 90 cm long. I'll miss my long ass hair, but I'll probably grow it back, because I can't stand having my hair shorter than that. I kind of mourn it atm, I know, It's silly, But I had it for 3 years, It was part of who I am - was? I was recognized by the long, red hair I had for all this time. Kind of shocked.

I quit smoking. You got it right... I'm just tired of wasting money I don't have on packs of cigs and destroying my health, really, I'm Asthmatic and have Bronchytis, so I'm just making it worse. Yeah, I shouldn't have started in the first place but what can I do... But quit. So I did. Been a week and so far so good. If I go through a month, I think I can go through a life time. Real issue is my surrounding... My Mom and bro's smoke. I supposed if I ask them not to do it around me it'll work. Friends are already informed... Meh.

Wish me luck!

woohoo! Tomorrow is my local gay parade (to those wondering, it's in Haifa). I'm super excited because last year I couldn't participate and so tomorrow will be my first time in 4 years (I was part of the first ever Haifa Gay Parade). I plan on taking a few pictures there, I'll let you all see, especially because I plan on going super sexy tomorrow, girl gotta look good marching for a cause (and impressing the lads and lasses isn't to bed eh?).

Finally somthing to look for, Hunting for lingerie this week, next week meeting the photographer, and the week after - the SG shoot! You guys have something to look for as well... Now, we understand what your part is, right? rate, rate, rate!!!

I need new Ink so bad T_T

So I just got the release form to the documentary shoots I participated in August 2008, for the life and work of Captain Howdy, and amazing freak circus artist. I was part of the Second Suscon, was interviewd and shot by Uli Hesse, the director. I can't wait to see the result when the time comes... How exciting...