I keep blowing off my friends. I'm too afraid that I have nothing to say to anyone that I don't even wanna be around them. I don't wanna be the guy sitting off to the side doing nothing, saying nothing as everyone else mingles.... so I just don't go anymore. In the past few weeks I have gone to bed at like 7-8 just so when they call to find out where I am I'm sleeping and I don't have to explain to them that I don't feel comfortable anywhere, and that it's not there fault it really has nothing to do with them. The worst was yesterday a friend who has moved to Arizona was back for a day and going bowling with friends and family and I didn't know some of the people so I freaked out and didn't visit my friend the one day they were in the area.
Anyways, same shit different day, I'm not doing anything to fix it so I shouldn't be complaining, but thats just the type of guy I am.
Anyways, same shit different day, I'm not doing anything to fix it so I shouldn't be complaining, but thats just the type of guy I am.
wow, it's been about 2 months since this was updated..
until now...
Please don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed...
This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue, and my eye through the scope down the barrel of a gun...
until now...
Please don't play with me, my paper heart will bleed...
This is me with the words on the tip of my tongue, and my eye through the scope down the barrel of a gun...
In the eye of the beholder
I saw a glimmer
A slight shimmer
Looking down the barrel of the gun
I saw a glimmer
A slight shimmer
Looking down the barrel of the gun
So I broke my foot the other day.... and you may ask how? I broke it by spraining it so bad that it cracked bones in my foot. Sounds fun right? Well after I did this I walked around on it for another 2 hours or so just because I didn't feel like going home. So I get home and put ice on it and it balloons up and half my foot is now purple. The worst part is I've had to walk on it at work for 10 hours a day for the past 2 days, so I'm afraid it's not going to heal properly. And yes I have to be at work otherwise I wouldn't be, and the reasons have nothing to do with money. 
just a bunch of random things, none worthy of noting by anyone other then myself:
The other day I discovered some 'Styling Wax for hair' at my house, it's been here for probably 2 years but I've never used it, it wasn't origionally mine but I guess I've inherited it. So I used it to see what it did. That stuff is great for my mohawk(yeah if I was really hardcore I would have known this already)(and no I'm not trying to be hardcore). So that stuff never really comes out...lol... Today I'm gonna attempt some liberty spikes, I'm sure that will be a disaster. I really kinda like when I used to do other peoples hair, dying and such, I probably did a bad job but no one ever admitted it to me. I should go learn how to actually do it professionally and do some side work for when hot girls just have to have a purple mohawy or something.
I went and saw 'The Stepford Wives' over the weekend, save your money people...lol It was bad. Ferris Bueler(Sp?) was in it along with 4-5 other notable actors so you would think it should be ok? Nope, on top of that every movie 'Ferris' has been in since he did "Inspector Gadget" I expect to see his head pop open and a helicopter come out.
Softball game tonight, we are 9-1 or somewhere around that. I just have a feeling that we are going to lose tonight. Thats not good karma...haha...no I don't believe in karma. We have a couple people gone on vacation so we will have to use girls and people who have never played with us, it just gives me a bad outlook.
I bought a sketch pad and some pencils yesterday. I'm a horrible artist but I thought maybe that might give me something to do while I'm sitting in my room all day. It didn't work yesterday I just tried and remembered how bad i am and gave up after 5 minutes. I need more inspiration and creativity. I used to have tons of creativity when I was little, it's all gone now.
To wrap this up, I still need to buy a house but I'm too shy to talk to a realtor, I turned the AFLAC duck into a punk rock duck, and I own a Blink-182 wristband(w/ new album logo on it).
The other day I discovered some 'Styling Wax for hair' at my house, it's been here for probably 2 years but I've never used it, it wasn't origionally mine but I guess I've inherited it. So I used it to see what it did. That stuff is great for my mohawk(yeah if I was really hardcore I would have known this already)(and no I'm not trying to be hardcore). So that stuff never really comes out...lol... Today I'm gonna attempt some liberty spikes, I'm sure that will be a disaster. I really kinda like when I used to do other peoples hair, dying and such, I probably did a bad job but no one ever admitted it to me. I should go learn how to actually do it professionally and do some side work for when hot girls just have to have a purple mohawy or something.
I went and saw 'The Stepford Wives' over the weekend, save your money people...lol It was bad. Ferris Bueler(Sp?) was in it along with 4-5 other notable actors so you would think it should be ok? Nope, on top of that every movie 'Ferris' has been in since he did "Inspector Gadget" I expect to see his head pop open and a helicopter come out.
Softball game tonight, we are 9-1 or somewhere around that. I just have a feeling that we are going to lose tonight. Thats not good karma...haha...no I don't believe in karma. We have a couple people gone on vacation so we will have to use girls and people who have never played with us, it just gives me a bad outlook.
I bought a sketch pad and some pencils yesterday. I'm a horrible artist but I thought maybe that might give me something to do while I'm sitting in my room all day. It didn't work yesterday I just tried and remembered how bad i am and gave up after 5 minutes. I need more inspiration and creativity. I used to have tons of creativity when I was little, it's all gone now.
To wrap this up, I still need to buy a house but I'm too shy to talk to a realtor, I turned the AFLAC duck into a punk rock duck, and I own a Blink-182 wristband(w/ new album logo on it).
Yeah so I got bored and found a pretty good offer in my e-mail today so I decided to take it and actually pay for access to the site.
