I'm just want to apologize to people who have sent me messages and comments that I haven't been able to respond to. I'm rarely on here or my Myspace. However, I have acquired a recent addiction to Prolific, so I'm on fbook like 8 times a day.

That said, things have been going great. I've got a new bf who's like the whole package - he's intelligent, funny, ambitious, wealthy, handsome, and is one of the most considerate and caring people I've ever met and HAS A REALLY BIG DICK! Haha-sorry, I just feel incredibly lucky and want to brag to everyone about the amazing sex I'm having. I just want to brag about him to anyone who will listen to me!

We've been friends for years, and in the past 2 months have fallen in love. We really look out for each others' interests and well-being. Also, I can do anything with him--we interact as well as exist together really successfully. He lives in NYC, but comes to visit every other week, and since he works remotely as a commodities trader, he can stay for days. I am so incredibly happy right now.

On another note, I'm going to be traveling a good deal in the next few months, so if I happen to be hitting your city, send me a message, esp if you're an SG!

October:
Chicago, 17th-19th

November:
Chicago, 25th-29th

December:
Nor-Cal, 13th-17th
LA, 18th-23rd
Beijing, China, 24th-January 4th

January:
Chicago, 5th
NYC, 5th-11th
Pittsburgh, Back home on the 11th.

Hey Doods--

I have a new set up for Member Review while I start the new school year in Pittsburgh. I hope you guys like this--looking at this set makes me miss Joshua Tree National Park and my best friend Aileen still out there in LA.

Give me your feedback homies.

So I've got a new set up for Member Review. Steve Prue shot me in the Hard Rock Hotel Chicago like a kabillion years ago, and now it's finally up. If you like, please vote for it, so I can get money for that expensive surgery to replace my pancreas...it fell out after I ate a Krispie Kreme.

You should be able to see it under the Member Review section, 1st page, if you look up "Most Liked/Commented On or whatever" (that sounds really toolish, but is actually just true) - (that sounded even more toolish)

You can also just click on it from My Pics.

Also, I would also like to give a shout out to all the SGs (Cleo, Beau, Sioux, Church, Scoli, Godiva, Dorsal, and Boss - haha) that I was lucky enough to meet on Saturday at Wizard World. I apologize for not being to come Sunday like I had planned, but my parents pulled one of their impromptu visits (which are becoming more frequent due to my move to PA in a month.)

It was fun--I got a free T-shirt, creeped on by strangers. It was some good times.

Love,

Rei

Oh man...This is what happens when I go two months without checking my Myspace or SG page.

SO SG posted a relatively unflattering picture from the JT Inn set on their Myspace page under the photos.

While most people got 100-300 comments on their picture, mine got over 1000--because people think I have an eating disorder or a drug problem, etc, etc.

<<To get a link to the picture on Myspace--scroll to the bottom.>>

I don't blame them--it's a pretty awful picture that should not have been used as the entire REPRESENTATION of my "look" as a model on this site.

The picture got a lot of people pissed off, and I hope SG will remove it.

To clarify, I don't have an eating disorder/drug problem unless you count getting stoned on the weekends and eating 3 slices of supreme pizza, a pound of red globe grapes and a bowl of Jamocha Almond Fudge ice cream before falling asleep.

The truth is I love food...I am an obsessed foodie. I constantly cook, I only watch the Food Network (or Top Chef), and I'm throwing down half a paycheck this summer so I can dine at Alinea before I move to Pittsburgh. (omigod, I can't wait!!)

I'm just blessed with a hella good metabolism and I absolutely love eating a ton of fresh fruit and vegetables. I also work out at least twice a week with a 5 mile run and weight/abs training.

So, my point it--pictures (especially the unflattering ones) can instigate the conjecture and drama so lovingly employed by those trolling the Internet with some free time. They don't know me at all, so I can't be upset. When people deride you or your character with little knowledge of who you are, their words have little to no weight. However, if someone who knows you very well, still hates your guts--you probably are a huge asshole.

Love,

Rei

Here's the ' Link to Rei's Crappy Picture

Alright, I went totally AWOL, I'm sorry. I don't have a laptop right now, so it's kind of embarrassing to check this profile on other people's laptops and public computers.

I have some major news, I'm graduating and finishing my BFA and my BA in Economics as of next week. And...I'm moving to Pittsburgh for graduate school.

If you live in Pittsburgh...holla back, because I don't know a soul.


eep.


Love,

Rei

Hey hey,

So it looks like my new set might go up in the next week or so. I can't wait, and I really hope you guys are into it.

I love hip-hop, David LaChappelle and watching documentaries, so it's natural that I should at some point come around to watching Rize, which was the inspiration for this shoot. I highly, HIGHLY recommend this documentary. You can find more about it here:

Give me your feedback when it goes live, both positive and negative. I only want to make these better.


Love,

~Rei

Oh good lord. Today is the 7-month anniversary of waiting for my "new" set to go up. By last February I had shot two more to go up after this one (Krumpin'). I will be in a nursing home by the time I see this set live.

I used to hate my boobs.

I hated being flat-chested. When I was 16, I remember hoping that one day I'd have at least a B cup...Then looked around at the women in my family tree, then decided I'd better come up with a new plan. I've tried that bust-up gum, I've gone on birth control, and even had started saving up for the surgery. I've browsed countless surgery sites and wear padded bras, but eventually I started to really ponder what the fuck I was doing.

Fuck implants--

Godamn, I love my boobs the way they are--my big, muscular thighs too. Besides, they're not bad. They're small, but they're pretty. And when I'm an old hag, they'll stay up there, defying gravity.

Some people may say, "Hey, it's that person's right to do what they want with their body!" or "Maybe they're happier this way? Who are you to judge?" I say, yes, that's true--each person is entitled to do what they want with their image. But who determined that bigger breasts meant they were more attractive? Who looked at them and made them feel SO less than perfect that they needed to go under the knife? How the fuck is succumbing to that real happiness?

I'm just as shallow as the next person. My boyfriend can attest to the fact I sometimes will not leave the apartment, unless I have my full makeup on. Additionally, I also often wear high heels, which add fake height, and padded bras and, as several of my sets indicate, fake hair sometimes as well. But here's the thing with all of those superficial alterations--I can take them off. I can change my look from sorority girl to goth vamp. I can rock out at a metal show, then go in for an interview the next day. Bra padding on today--bra padding off tomorrow...there's nothing about my superficiality that is permanent. At any point, my deceptive nature can get stripped right off. Yet, to own implants is to accept one's PERMANENT superficiality--the bra padding that never comes off.

Moreover, the health issues that are raised are astonishing. How badly can one want to change their body to go so far as to undergo invasive surgery to have foreign, toxic chemicals implanted in their bodies? Sillicone implants pose tremendous health risks to the patient if leaked, including permanent damage to the immune system, organ failure, and in severe cases, death. Even saline implants, while marketed as a safer alternative, use sillicone as a liner. Breast tissue scarring can also occur along the implants that cause lumps or lopsidedness. Even if all goes well, breast implants need to be maintained every few years, and oftentimes, this entails another invasive surgery. Furthermore, if one eventually decides to remove the implant, the breasts can become deflated, and even smaller than they were before, since some of the original breast tissue may need to be removed along with the implant. Is all this really worth having some asshole/dumbass chauvanist prick, come talk to you at the bar or eye-grope you as you walk down the street?

I simply refuse to believe that real happiness can be attained through something so easily gained. Can one ask, "have I improved upon myself, now that I fit the mass ideal of what is considered proportionate and attractive?" or "have I improved upon myself for learning to love the little flaws which I cannot change." There's that old adage that nothing worth having is easily attained--so what's a new set worth to you?

~With Love,

Rei

EDIT: 5/30/07

So one post in particular caught my eye from member Leandra, and I just want to briefly respond to some excellent points she's made that I feel may echo sentiments from others. I DON'T WANT TO BE MISUNDERSTOOD--so I'm taking the time to clarify:

MAY 30, 2007 07:16 AM

Leandra says:

"I don't think bigger boobs are the ideal... I think when women do it, it's for them and their own personal choice. I've got bigger boobs and personally i'd prefer small boobs, it's a bitch trying to find sexy lingerie to fit a 34DD and they just bug me... But any girl who chooses to get implants, that's her choice... I'm sure majority of the girls/women who do it have done their research and are well aware of the risks, and i'm sure most of them don't do it just so guys can "eye grope" them... I think you're being a little critical and judegemental. Every women that chooses to do it has her own reasons.

I'm glad you're happy the way you are, but some girls aren't... what about women who have had children and that has affected their breasts? what if they simply aren't happy with what they've got? they're not all like you... content and happy.

What gives you the idea bigger breasts are considered more attractive? look around, look at the variety of girls on this website that have all size breasts, flat chested to pretty damn big... fake or not fake. Guys like small breasts, some guys like big breasts, some guys like short girls, some guys like tall girls.
When I go out with my friend who has small boobs (sorry girl but ya do) she gets more attention than me with my boobs popping out of my shirt. "

IN RESPONSE:

I do agree, or at least I hope, that most women who are considering breast augmentation, get all the pertinent information prior to the surgery. However, I never stated that lack of information was the issue, but instead, I was shocked by the idea that someone would want larger breasts so badly, they'd be willing to surgically place a toxic, foreign object in their body that has the potential to make them very, very sick.

As for the potential reasons for having surgery, I agree, each women has her own reason for doing so, but that's irrelevant. My comment about "eye-groping" was in response to the massive amount of testimonials I've read on sites advertising implant surgery from former patients in reference to how they feel "sexier" and how they get the attention they've always wanted, and so and so forth. I never explicitly said attention from men was the role reason women get implants. As for the comment about being judgemental, yes I AM BEING JUDGEMENTAL, but not necessarily to the women who get implants, but the DESIRE to surgically augment themselves in an attempt to "fix" something that's not wrong to begin with.

Also, my point wasn't to argue why or why not women get implants, but it was to point out that I wish that women who don't feel happy with their bodies--specifically their chests--could learn to love and accept their boobies the way they are. Sagging after childbirth is part of motherhood just like getting's crow's feet is part of getting old. I'm sick of trying to defy nature.

Furthermore, as I clearly stated in my blog, my contentment and happiness was not a spontaneous product. It came at the price of in-depth analysis and discussion as well as personal self-doubt and insecurity.

I also never explicitly stated that I personally thought bigger breasts were more attractive. I merely referred to them as the "mass ideal." Big, small, floppy or firm, I think breasts are great if they were always yours to call your own.

If you love your natural pair, then hell, I love them too.

~Love,

Rei "Show-Me-Your-Tits" Suicide

Short version: I am begging anyone to buy their extra ticket to the Gym Class Heroes show at the House of Blues Chicago March 15th...

if you want, you can read the long version below:

Let me just preface this by saying that K-os is one of my all-time favorite musicians, no joke. There are maybe five bands that could make that list out of probably upwards of several thousand.

I found out he was opening for Gym Class Heroes here at the House of Blues Chicago a few weeks ago, and have been planning to buy tickets, but because of illness, family issues that required me to be home, and the demands of work and school and the like, I was unable until today (even in my sickly state) to go buy tickets in person at HOB. Yes, I could have bought them online on Ticketmaster, but out of principle, I have never bought a concert ticket from them (the one exception being Warped Tour) for the past seven years out of principle. Paying an additional 12-17 dollars for "service" on the internet is ridiculous, and furthermore, it isn't even needed to cover the relatively nominal printing costs. In addition, the entire firm earns it's profits likethat of a near monopoly.

So what's the result? I thought buying tickets two weeks in advance would suffice, but alas, the show has been sold out, and I am shit out of luck.

So if anyone out there has an extra ticket to this show, please contact me. I can offer a significant amount of money (which I would prefer to disclose in private) or merely, my undying love and loyalty (it's tattooed on my back, in case you're in doubt). I'll design you a custom tat, I'll even do a comissioned painting.drawing. Maybe even a homemade cake from scratch...I make some awesome chocolate chip cookies.


Love,
~Rei

Hey hey,

So I just shot another set with Steve Prue this past Friday at the Hard Rock Hotel, and I have two more sets about to go online, "Krumpin'" and "Traveling Light". Steve mentioned that one of my pictures from the "Krumpin" set might also be used as a Myspace advertising banner.

I'm keepin' my fingers crossed.


~Love,

Rei