Goddamn I REALLY been gone a long time! I am sure no one but me will even read this! LOL

HHEEEELLLLLOOOO...... (echo)

Hmmm,,, lately I find myself on SG less and less... I know a big part of it is work, but things seem to be different around here too. Lot's of cool people leaving, and it gets me thinking maybe my time here is aproaching the expiration date.

I dunno- we'll see, I guess.

Well I just got back from Sturgis, and it rocked!! I got to meet SG Mayhem and SG Taye-which was one of the coolest parts of the trip! They were waay cool and totally smokin hot! I will post a new album with a bunch of Sturgis pics really soon. For now, here are the pics of my 3 newest tattoos that I have been promising to post.

Well it's REALLY been a while for me, to be away from SG this long. Unfortunately, I don't have much to say. I have benn really busy at work- lots of over time, training classes and such. BUt after this week things should slow down. Got my newest tattoo colored in, but haven't been able to get a pic of it yet. I will post one soon tho-

later...

I haven't been on in awhile, but not much new going on. Got some more ink done. I go back in a few weeks to have the color put in. It isa cool ornamental dagger that has a snake head for a handle. It is on my Left forearm from the bend at my elbow to my wrist. Will post some pics when it is finished...

...till next time

Well it has been a week since I have even logged into SG. Thank you to everyone who left me msgs. This weeek has been really horrible. Everything is a blur, and I don't think I could fit it all in anyway, so I will attempt a very short version. It started Monday night when I got a call at about 10pm. I found out my aunt was found unconsciouswith blood every where in a Burgerking bathroom. She had complications from diberticulitous (spell??) that resulted in hole in her large intestine and massavie hemmoraging. She was admitted into the ICU unit and things didn't look good, but she seemed to pull out and stableize. At that time she was conscious and I was able to see her. It looked like she was on the upside of things so at 2AM I head home, only to get called back in at 4 AM that massive bleeding had again started and she was having emergency surgery. She pulled out of that, and basically the rest of the week was a roller coaster of ups and downs, with her in a drug induced coma and drug induced paralysis. I slept about 2 hours a day and and only went home for quick showers.
My aunt and uncle as well as my 3 cousins, have always been close to me. As a kid I even lieved with them for awhile, and with my dad having been killed when I was a baby, my uncle stepped to the plate to fill in for that role. That said, Iwas still surprised when my uncle asked me and his son to be the ones to meet with him and the doctors as we made decisions about her care and how long to let things continue before we just let her go. Though there are two daughters and one is even older than me, they were to much of a wreck to function in that capacity.
Anyways, things dragged out till friday night, and the doctor and all the nurses agreed that things were bad, but she was stable enough to hold her own for the next weeek or two, and that we would not need to make any decisions until then , giving us time to evalutate progress and the chances of no brain damage due to lack of blood to carry oxygen. So with everyone near total exhaustion we all agreed we would go home. Then once again, at 4 Am I get a call from the ICU unit, saying they couldn't get ahold of my uncle, and that her blood pressure was crashing and we better get there. So I get my uncle on the phone finally, let him know, and head to the hospital. Since I am just outside of downtown, I of course arrive before anyone else in the family, and I am told we were too late. She had passed 10 minutes before I got there. So that left me sitting in the lobby in front of the evelvator, having to tell every family member (all her kids, my grandmother, uncle, etc..) as they would arrive seperately, that she had passed, it was quick and you can go back and see her. Of course they would break down when I told them, then head to the room to see her. So there I am stuck, by myself with this responsibility of telling everybody she has died. Dont get me wrong, I in some ways was glad it was me. I seemed to hold up better than most everyine else, but the stress, lack of sleep, and everything else this type of situation brings has left me completely physically and mentally drained and worn out.
So that is it for my blog entry... wish I had something more positive to say, but I realize this is life, and its the times like this that make the good times all the sweeter.

R I P Jonni, you will be missed.

Wow! I jjust had to delete my first blog comment left by someone else. I don't know what that @#$% was thinking! That it would be okay to come onto MY blog and post some nasty comment about/towards me? Whatever, fuckin grow up!

What's up! This week has been flyin by. Nothin really going on worth writing about..

Ever try to be funny, or cute in an e-mail or say a post on here and have it backfire? I did that. I forget, people can't always sense your intentions when it is written text. Especially if you don't know them. It wasn't that bad (I think) but one of my flaws is I can't stand it if someone is angry or doesn't like me. Even when it is a total stranger...why should I care? I don't know this person...I will most likely never meet them- especiall now..either way can't help it, I think I am pretty damn likable, so I must have been misunderstood, right? Either way, I apoligized. Don't get me wrong, I have no problem offending someone, if I meant to do it. But I hate it when it is completely unintentional. When it is unintentional, I have no problem apoligizing. Other than that, what can you do?

Mondays....same ol' same... My week-end was mostly uneventful. Saw Disturbia, it was entertaining, if you liked the preview you will like the movie, it maintains it's predictablity but it was still entertaining. a 6-7 on a 10 scale. I spent the rest of the week-end building a website. It is an organization I have belonged to for the last 3 years or so. someone found out I had some moderate computer skills,and I got shanghaied into being the webmaster of the new site to reflect the name change.