I always want to write a new blog but things really have been boring lately.
I used to love my job. Now I hate it. I need to maybe start looking for something else. (Should have done it a along time ago.)
I got used by a girl. I don't know I feel awful, like pissed and sad at the same time. And I don't really want to write about it. Let's just say some girls can be pretty mean, here I will summarize:
After all I did for her, I didn't want her to just jump in my lap and be my girlfriend now, but.. One week she tells me she just can't have anything intimate right now. Then next thing I know she is telling me that she has a new boyfriend and to leave her alone. I must have given her at least 400 dollars in the past month, doing things for her, paying her bills. And that is what I get? Leave me alone? Not even a friendship? Ugh, she knew what I wanted, and she used that, lead me on. So horrible, so pissed, so sad, so broken.
So to get over a girl I bought some new computer parts:
I doubled my ram, now I have 16GBs. And I now have a samsung 840 pro SSD drive. Going to reinstall windows on this system here in the next couple days. The only thing left for this PC is another video card, but waiting for the prices to drop.
-Raz out
I used to love my job. Now I hate it. I need to maybe start looking for something else. (Should have done it a along time ago.)
I got used by a girl. I don't know I feel awful, like pissed and sad at the same time. And I don't really want to write about it. Let's just say some girls can be pretty mean, here I will summarize:
After all I did for her, I didn't want her to just jump in my lap and be my girlfriend now, but.. One week she tells me she just can't have anything intimate right now. Then next thing I know she is telling me that she has a new boyfriend and to leave her alone. I must have given her at least 400 dollars in the past month, doing things for her, paying her bills. And that is what I get? Leave me alone? Not even a friendship? Ugh, she knew what I wanted, and she used that, lead me on. So horrible, so pissed, so sad, so broken.
So to get over a girl I bought some new computer parts:
I doubled my ram, now I have 16GBs. And I now have a samsung 840 pro SSD drive. Going to reinstall windows on this system here in the next couple days. The only thing left for this PC is another video card, but waiting for the prices to drop.
-Raz out
Dreams,
Having strange dreams at night, usually I don't dream really hard. At least they don't wake me up like these ones do, it's hard for me to recall them now, but they are really strange. Why is it you can't remember them? Ever had a dream that you swear was real because while you're dreaming the alternate reality makes sense, as if it is always been that way. I wonder if it is ever possible to control your dream, to realize that you are dreaming and that you can do anything you want.
The girl that I try to be friends with even though I have feelings for her called me and talked to me, she was in trouble. Least I know that if she is in trouble she will talk to me. It feels good that I am one of the few persons she trusts that way. Her boyfriend apparently is a drug addict and got arrested. And he had lied to her about it, maybe she will finally realize he is no good. I can only hope. I try not to be negative about him, if she comes to me someday I want it to be on her own. Not me pushing her. All I do is try to be supportive and love her from a afar.
ttfn
Having strange dreams at night, usually I don't dream really hard. At least they don't wake me up like these ones do, it's hard for me to recall them now, but they are really strange. Why is it you can't remember them? Ever had a dream that you swear was real because while you're dreaming the alternate reality makes sense, as if it is always been that way. I wonder if it is ever possible to control your dream, to realize that you are dreaming and that you can do anything you want.
The girl that I try to be friends with even though I have feelings for her called me and talked to me, she was in trouble. Least I know that if she is in trouble she will talk to me. It feels good that I am one of the few persons she trusts that way. Her boyfriend apparently is a drug addict and got arrested. And he had lied to her about it, maybe she will finally realize he is no good. I can only hope. I try not to be negative about him, if she comes to me someday I want it to be on her own. Not me pushing her. All I do is try to be supportive and love her from a afar.
ttfn
Umm I am silent right now, been silent for a long time. Have been taking some classes, taking some math and some programming.
Hmm what else has happened? Fell in love with someone but they didn't love me back. It's my fault I always fall for people I can't have. And now she hates me. Guys can't be 'just friends" with someone they have so many feelings for. Anyway... I write more soon.
-casey
Hmm what else has happened? Fell in love with someone but they didn't love me back. It's my fault I always fall for people I can't have. And now she hates me. Guys can't be 'just friends" with someone they have so many feelings for. Anyway... I write more soon.
-casey
