well i got some news thats not so great. my best friend and friend of the fam. is going overseas... on my birthday. it sucks, i was in a military family, so i should be used to this. but it just sucks, i dont want him to go. but, its hard, i should know how to process these stupid fucking feelings by now. after all this time, i should know how to hold it all in. but fuck. all i want to do is lay in bed, and just stay there.
