SO MY SISTER HUNG OUT WITH MY DAD AGAIN LAST NIGHT AND CAME UP WITH A SHIITTY FAMILY DAY...AGAIN! SHE TOTALLY DID THIS KNOWING I WOULDNT COME SO SHE HAS ONE MORE THING TO RAG ON ME ABOUT. SHE WANTS TO GO ICE SKATING...HOW DUMB. SHE KNOWS FLAT OUT THAT I CANT SKATE (WELL NIETHER CAN SHE) AND THAT I WOULDNT RIGHT NOW. NOT WITH MY WIEGHT THE WAY THAT IT IS. KNOWING MY LUCK IF I DID GO AND TRY ID BREAK MY ANKLE. THEN I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO WORK OR FEED MY KID. SO IF I DONT GO ILL GET RAGGED ON AND IF I DO GO BUT NOT SKATE ILL GET RAGGED ON. I SWEAR SHE DOES STUFF LIKE THIS JUST TO BITCH AT ME. EVER SINCE MOM DIED SHES MADE ME HER SHIT-ON PERSON. I UNDERSTAND THAT MY MOM AND SISTER DIDNT GET ALONG. MY MOM WAS AN ALCOHOLIC AND TOTALLY SAD BUT MY SISTER DOENST REALIZE THAT SHES MORE LIKE HER THEN SHE REALIZES. I KNOW I WAS CLOSER TO HER. WELL I SHOULDNT SAY CLOSER. I SHOULD SAY I CARE AND WORRIED MORE. I SPENT MOST OF MY CHILDHOOD SCARED AND ANGRY AT MY MOM BUT I DIDNT SHIT ON HER LIKE MY SISTER DID. MY MOMS ALCOHOLISM WAS FROM HER PARENTS. MY MOM WOULDNT EVEN ADMIT UP UNTIL THE DAY SHE DIED THAT SHE HAD A PROBLEM. SHE WAS JUST SCARED TO LIVE. MY DAD HAD (FINALLY) LEFT HER WHEN I WAS 17 AND I HAD MORE THEN A YEAR OF SEEING HER GO DOWN HILL. IT WAS SAD AND REALLY SHITTY FOR ME TO HAVE TO BE THE ADULT MOST OF THE TIME. I HAD TO HAVE A JOB IN HIGH SCHOOL BECAUSE I NEVER SAW ANY CHILD SUPPORT MONEY. I RARELY SAW MY DAD WHICH SUCKED AND WHEN I DID HE WAS WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND (HIS CURRRENT WIFE) WHICH MADE ME UNHAPPY AND UNEASY. SO I LEFT FOR THE MILITARY AND SHIT JUST GOT WORSE. MY SISTER BASICALLY STOPPED TALKING TO MY MOM. AND WHEN SHE DID TALK TO HER IT WASNT TALKING, IT WAS BASICALLY TO TELL MY MOM IN A NICE WAY THAT SHE WAS A PIECE OF SHIT. AND NOW IVE BECOME THAT PERSON TO MY SISTER. ALWAYS ON ME FOR MY WEIGHT. WHICH MIND YOU IS A MEDICAL THING NOT LAZINESS. SHES ON ME ABOUT THE FACT I LIVE IN MY PARENTS HOUSE BUT I CANT AFFORD TO MOVE OUT...BLAH BLAH...

SO MY SISTER HUNG OUT WITH MY DAD AGAIN LAST NIGHT AND CAME UP WITH A SHIITTY FAMILY DAY...AGAIN! SHE TOTALLY DID THIS KNOWING I WOULDNT COME SO SHE HAS ONE MORE THING TO RAG ON ME ABOUT. SHE WANTS TO GO ICE SKATING...HOW DUMB. SHE KNOWS FLAT OUT THAT I CANT SKATE (WELL NIETHER CAN SHE) AND THAT I WOULDNT RIGHT NOW. NOT WITH MY WIEGHT THE WAY THAT IT IS. KNOWING MY LUCK IF I DID GO AND TRY ID BREAK MY ANKLE. THEN I WOULDNT BE ABLE TO WORK OR FEED MY KID. SO IF I DONT GO ILL GET RAGGED ON AND IF I DO GO BUT NOT SKATE ILL GET RAGGED ON. I SWEAR SHE DOES STUFF LIKE THIS JUST TO BITCH AT ME. EVER SINCE MOM DIED SHES MADE ME HER SHIT-ON PERSON. I UNDERSTAND THAT MY MOM AND SISTER DIDNT GET ALONG. MY MOM WAS AN ALCOHOLIC AND TOTALLY SAD BUT MY SISTER DOENST REALIZE THAT SHES MORE LIKE HER THEN SHE REALIZES. I KNOW I WAS CLOSER TO HER. WELL I SHOULDNT SAY CLOSER. I SHOULD SAY I CARE AND WORRIED MORE. I SPENT MOST OF MY CHILDHOOD SCARED AND ANGRY AT MY MOM BUT I DIDNT SHIT ON HER LIKE MY SISTER DID. MY MOMS ALCOHOLISM WAS FROM HER PARENTS. MY MOM WOULDNT EVEN ADMIT UP UNTIL THE DAY SHE DIED THAT SHE HAD A PROBLEM. SHE WAS JUST SCARED TO LIVE. MY DAD HAD (FINALLY) LEFT HER WHEN I WAS 17 AND I HAD MORE THEN A YEAR OF SEEING HER GO DOWN HILL. IT WAS SAD AND REALLY SHITTY FOR ME TO HAVE TO BE THE ADULT MOST OF THE TIME. I HAD TO HAVE A JOB IN HIGH SCHOOL BECAUSE I NEVER SAW ANY CHILD SUPPORT MONEY. I RARELY SAW MY DAD WHICH SUCKED AND WHEN I DID HE WAS WITH HIS GIRLFRIEND (HIS CURRRENT WIFE) WHICH MADE ME UNHAPPY AND UNEASY. SO I LEFT FOR THE MILITARY AND SHIT JUST GOT WORSE. MY SISTER BASICALLY STOPPED TALKING TO MY MOM. AND WHEN SHE DID TALK TO HER IT WASNT TALKING, IT WAS BASICALLY TO TELL MY MOM IN A NICE WAY THAT SHE WAS A PIECE OF SHIT. AND NOW IVE BECOME THAT PERSON TO MY SISTER. ALWAYS ON ME FOR MY WEIGHT. WHICH MIND YOU IS A MEDICAL THING NOT LAZINESS. SHES ON ME ABOUT THE FACT I LIVE IN MY PARENTS HOUSE BUT I CANT AFFORD TO MOVE OUT...BLAH BLAH BLAH. YOU NAME IT SHES ON ME ABOUT IT. I THINK HER MAIN THOUGHT PROCESS IS THAT IF I GET A B/F MY LIFE WITH BE SOLVED. SHE HONESTLY THINK THAT IF THAT HAPPENS THAT MY LIFE WITH JUST FALL INTO PLACE. IM SORRY IF I WANT TO IMPROVE MYSELF FIRST. LIKE MYSELF FIRST. THAT WAY I WOULDNT GET IN ANOTHER RELATIONSHIP WHERE THE GUY TREATS ME LIKE SHIT. I DONT THINK GETTING A GUY WITH MAKE THINGS BETTER. AT ALL. BUT HSES BEEN ON A HIGH HORSE SINCE HER WEDDING. NOT EVERYONE CAN MEET A GUY LIKE HER HUSBAND. BUT SHE ALSO DOENST THINK ABOUT THE FACT I HAVE A KID. ITS SCARY TO THINK THAT NOT ONLY DOES THE GUY HAVE TO LIKE ME BUT HES WALKING INTO A FAMILY. I ALREADY SCREWED UP FOR MY KID WITH HIS FATHER. I DONT WANT TO DO IT AGAIN. AND MOST OF THE DATING IVE DONE MY SON WASNT AROUND. AND I CANT SEEM TO KEEP A B/F PAST A YEAR, AND THE ONE GUY I FELL FOR HARD LEFT ME FOR HIS EX. OUCH. I DONT KNOW...IM GOING OFF...IM TIRED...IM GONNA GO SLEEP ALONE IN MY BG BED LIKE I ALWAYS DO. NIGHT.