well i am leaving the site, it has been fun and i will miss ya all you can contact me at no_id_21@yahoo.com if you would like BYE BYE

had surgery, painful, must strain pee and boys suck ass big time!any good ones out there say hi to me ok, lol

i have to go through surgery again, they didnt get all of the stone out of my kdiney, now i have a stone in my kidney and two in my bladder that wont pass. very painful, have meds, lots of rest. if this surgery doesnt work then i go under the knife, i hope not, well got to go . much love

just got back from surgery, in pain, things suck, but i am fine, still more surgery tocome, well gotts to go now much love

well, my best friend of four years came over lasst night and we masde out for the first time, it was so exicting, and he kissed me so slow and gently, it was great, so i had a great night, tomorrow we go to the bar for his 21st bday to celebrate. that should be fun, sorry my typing so bad, computer probs. well anyways, i cannot wait to kiss him again, he wants to be friends with benefits, i thinkk that would be nice since we both know each other and there could be more later. well gotta go, sti ll so very happy DAY! *sighs* much love

ok my doc still hasnt filled out the paperwork for my work, can you say terminated? fucking shit mother fucking cunt ass piece of monkey shit mother fucker. ok had to get that out, hehe haha, ok i am now losing my mind, lol i have forgotten to take my meds for like two days now, so now i am being all like crazy and shit, poor me, lol nahhhhhhh. maybe that is why everyone is ignoring me, too bad, noone can take my sillyness and pschyoness, muahahahaha , too funny.

die that is how i feel right now, haha , now do you guys see why i am on meds, i get all weird and shit, saw house of a 1.000 corpses, it was ok. didnt scare me at all, saw final destination 2, that was a kick ass movie, saw the hot chic, now that was some funny shit, saw head of state, that was good too, but not too funny haha, but i love chris rock! i would love to see his stand up sometime.

so single life is kind of good, dont have to focus all of your energy on making someone else happy, lol haha . my friend doesnt seem to interested in me at the moment ,he has a lot going on, but that is ok , no i like this one better ,

:Question people, Question:
A.) What is your favorite thing about being single and the worst thing.

Me, lets see best thing i mentioned above, the worst thing is no sex or cuddling, but that is ok, i will live i swear it!

ok so i go to my doctors today, had an appointment, and my doctor ends up yelling at me and telling me he cannot fill out paperwork i need filled out for the state and my work , i cried in my doctors office for an hour! , he was such a dick to me and made me feel so bad about myself, i couldnt believe...so i havent had the best day or worst day, but god i hate my doctor, i am switching!fuck that asshole mother fucker! he can kiss my fat white ass for all i care!

anyways, i am off work now until oct.13th! i am sick of being at home all of the time, it is killing me, i mean i dont really like my job, but to be home and not have anything to do but clean all the time is really getting to me, i need to meet some people to hang out with, its too bad all you cool people out there dont live closer, we could have some good times together, some of you out there are just awesome.
well much love to ya all

ok i am totally bored, watched DareDevil today, that was pretty cool. called my doctors office today and asked to know if i have been referred yet to a urologist, nooooo!!!!!, they didnt tell me they couldnt find the doctor i requested for two weeks, so now i have to wait even longer i have only 6 weeks of medical leave and two of them are already gone, well more than that. i think i should just blow them up yeah right, that is gonna happen... but they are really pissing me off!!

i wont be going to meet the girl in sanfransisco, not until i can afford it and now my friends bday bar party is now pushed up to the day before he turns 21 which i dont see how that is going to happen! but whatever, gonna go, too bored, much love

went out with the "friend" tonight, he was so sweet he treated me to an icee and bought me a new cd, Thrice, they are really good!!! listening to them right now. so yeah hung out with the crush today, might go over to his place again on Sunday, that should be fun, gonna wathch a movie together...

not much going on in my life, it is pretty boring right now , but what the hell, i have been getting out of the house so that is good.

played on my webcam last night and gave a little flasher show, everyone loved it, some people even surprised! oh the things we people do.

what is the worst thing you have done on webcam?
or craziest thing?
much love to all

ok so my days are boring and disability sucks, well i am not on it yet but i am off work for a long time errrrrrr. i hate work, but i didnt know how boring staying at home was either!

nothing has gone farther between me and my best friend i have feelings for. i need a plan of action, anyone got any ideas? i have already been given the dress sexy and jump his bones idea, but i need more, come on now, i have not ever dated anyone before, it has alwasys just happened.

ok what is your favorite part of a womans or mans body?

mine would be for woman her legs and thighs , oh yeah, would love to caress thems. and man, his hands and chest , oh yeah, rub the chest and lay the head on it, oh i miss cuddling , isnt cuddling just satisfying sometimes?

well much love