i need yer HELP!!!



my whole life i have always had short hair....
for the past two years i have let it grow past my shoulders. i love it long and my son seems to love it more then i do! he is constanlty pulling handfulls out of my head! it hurts like hell!! unfortunately My long locks have become more of a problem than a joy for me! who would have thought...
now i need ur help to find a style that will compliment my face. i dont want the stupid soccer mom cut...as much as i would like to think that i rock...i cannot rock that! i found one style that i really like but i dunno if i can pull it off...what do u think?!
if u have any ideas post em here!!! im open for anything!!

im living at my parents while they r away on business. my two younger sisters need to be watched for the weekend so here i am!! i cant help but to image that i am a single mother of three trying to make ends meet...seeing as im doing this myself for the next few days. im such a dork!! my head has been in movie mode ever since steph finished her screenplay. i cant wait to see whats in store for us! we have been wrinting so many movies and tv shows over the past 7 years. they r finally going to be made!

jewelry bizz going alright. i have made a few more items. my etsy site listings have expired....i guess i should renew them <<,lazy<<


how was everyones week? whatd i miss?? any neat plans for the weekend?

ello ello!
i have to admit, it is becoming a pain in the rear not having my own computer! it is so hard to keep up with my emails and website. i would love to be able to post my day to day activities like the good old days lol. there are so many gaps in the past few posts that it is almost hysterical!


so many things have happened in the past few months. dave and i got an apartment, logan is crawling (and pulling himself up on tables,chairs, and people), i started my own jewelry business and have been working around the clock making and selling at all different venues. its been an exciting year so far.


today i am getting Logan's 8 month pictures. hopefully he will sit still long enough to get a few good shots. i will post them when i am finished.


later

BIG boy logan!!! hi world!!!

I'M A MOM!
He is my world! I love him more than anything. I cannot believe he is mine!




he is one month tomorrow!

i have found that being horny on a normal basis sucks when you cant get a relase.



now being horny when you are pregnant...that sucks even worse.
i need help

im depressed today.



i feel like the walls are caving in



im so emotional im about to explode


i dont have anyone to talk to



this is the worst day ever

So0o0o...I'm not very happy about this one bit. How could someone be so physically attracted to someone else that it completely takes over your mind, body, and soul if you can't have them? Im talking about true fucking lust.
I have the most incredible sexual attraction to my husband. This should be a good thing...right?
I feel like it is more of a curse! I want it every night...but hardly get it once a week! Especially now that I am pregnant i want it more than ever but can never seem to get it! No matter how hard I try! I know he doesn't do it on purpose...He is tired and wants to sleep. But at the same time it makes me SO MAD when he comes home and the only time we actually spend together is when I make him dinner and we eat in the same room. Tho the TV is on whatever he wants to watch and after that show is over he is on the computer til he goes to bed. When he finally comes in and is about to pass out I'll try to get some action but he says he is too tired. I feel more and more like if he just didn't go on the god dammed computer for so long or if the TV wasn't the main focus of his "winding down" time....or even if he could find 10 freaking minutes to give to me a day....or maybe if I wasn't the one chasing tail all the time and he was interested in me...ah! I'm just so upset. I'm emotionally disconnected from him and something physical would really help right about now.
There are nights where I just want to wake him up by slapping him across the face! It makes me so mad...I just want a little attention. I'm not really sure how to get it anymore... I'm about ready to give up. Seriously...As pathetic as it sounds. I'm about to give up on sex. I can't pleasure myself...and there is obviously no time for me from my husband... what else is there but to admit defeat?!
Ya know, after this baby is born my "friend" comes back for quite some time and after that I'm pretty sure there Will be even LESS of a chance to be intimate (if any at all). I know what you all must be thinking....what a bitch, right? There is something you have to understand about me before you roll your eyes in disgust...
I am a very emotion person, my only release from my emotions and stress is through being intimate. It's just how I have been since my husband and I have been together. Before him, I had no release and I was always fucked up, picking fights just to get attention, etc. So you see, now that this baby is coming EXTREMELY SOON and everything in my world is upside down...I just need a little intimate attention to get me through. I have tried talking to him, writing him about it, even texting him. Nothing works. I am so supportive with everything I do with him and I try my hardest to do whatever I can to make sure his stress is under control.
But at this point...who is there to help me?
I'm sad










gotta put something funny

http://www.hotjuicyburger.com/Punk_Sauce



dudes and dudettes......


you should help me win.

why?

i dont know...


it's just fun to win stuff and i never do lol.


just do it.

please



thanks



love,
-me

whelp. im married now and soon to be a mommy. baby logan is due to arrive december 31st! can you believe it? me?! FACE! a mom....it still amazes me. i cannot wait til i can hold him in my arms and rock him to sleep. i cannot wait til he keeps me up for weeks at a time (didnt think id know all about that eh?!?)
this is my calling...this is what i was put here to be. my whole life i struggled trying to find my place and wondering why i dont fit in. i know now...im not meant to be a superstar or the president of a company. my soul purpose is to be a wife and mother. and it is the most fullfiling feeling i have ever experienced.
dave and i have gond through some pretty hard times since i joined this site. there were a few close calls...but somehow we are making it. its unfortunate how quickly the new wears off and you are hit with reality. im still head over feet for my hubby, and i remind him everyday. sometimes i think i need to back off a little, he doesnt seem to be the same. anyway....marriage is good, baby is gettin big, my birthday was ok, (still waitin for dave to come visit or me visit him), work is good....thats about it.

p.s. i missed youes guys