Tis been awhile.
At times i don't care to take this site seriously. It takes too much time to intigrate into new online communities.
But - i guess if by chance anyone would come by to read this - i do have a question. Just how could it be, the one true love of my life - the one i have sacrificed so much for ~ in the end could be the one to hurt me the most. The scar of our love i wear now across my life with friends, with family. It never ends. My fate concealed and my heart empty now until what seems to be forever.
thankfully i have absorbed my love to my art and now to a woman. Otherwise i would have not made it this far. But - this question. Why and how could it be that someone who was so right - can turn out to be so wrong. Where have i gone wrong. Where, i think is more of the question, where does love go wrong.
alright ~D
At times i don't care to take this site seriously. It takes too much time to intigrate into new online communities.
But - i guess if by chance anyone would come by to read this - i do have a question. Just how could it be, the one true love of my life - the one i have sacrificed so much for ~ in the end could be the one to hurt me the most. The scar of our love i wear now across my life with friends, with family. It never ends. My fate concealed and my heart empty now until what seems to be forever.
thankfully i have absorbed my love to my art and now to a woman. Otherwise i would have not made it this far. But - this question. Why and how could it be that someone who was so right - can turn out to be so wrong. Where have i gone wrong. Where, i think is more of the question, where does love go wrong.
alright ~D
Captains Log, 23 October, 92 Anno XC
Rotta tells me the Princess of disks has transmuted under a different star, off in a universe subscribed to all the pleasures of the world different to the reality a young fool once bleed for his Queen.
Yesterday I went to the movies and saw Marie Antoinette. I had no clue up until this moment that the movie was being sold through sexy adds of Kirsten Dunst, I didn't think they needed to sink to that level of consumer appeal. I went to see it because I really enjoyed Sophia Coppolas (the director) last movie (Lost in Translation) I won't spoil anything just yet though until it's out of theatres, but I loved it. That and V for Vendetta has been the only movies of 2006 that I really cared for in the theatres.
I've updated and added a lot to my suicide girls page, I can't recommend joining enough.
As of lately I can't seem to stop playing my Pink Floyd Albums. I don't know why, well I sort of do. It sort of wraps me in a womb of comfort. I feel more at home and alive swimming through the ambience and muse of The Floyd which includes Roger Waters // Post-Syd Barret. I'm sure I'll listen to it all until I grow sick of it again, as I do with a lot of my music.
Life, Work, Living; its kinda of all picking up after a stress/mental break-down I had a few days ago, where life seemed to be a mutating into a cancer I would quickly wish to alleviate myself of. I talked with a few people though, it humbled me and dragged me out of my perception that I was the only one to endure such hellish depths. I guess I'm pretty sensitive and dramatic inside : works great for making art, not so great for dealing with stress and major life shifts - and yet I have endured so far amongst what I do think is a lot.
Well, I had a lot to say, I think that covers it for now. I'm moving to a temporary new place at the end of this month. Temporary because I really don't think I want to stay here in Reno much longer... maybe my mind will be changed, I shall give it a little time. Otherwise the hunt and breakdown of various options are swimming about my mind, and I will keep you posted if I'm moving to a neighborhood near you ^_^
~Magus D Ru
Rotta tells me the Princess of disks has transmuted under a different star, off in a universe subscribed to all the pleasures of the world different to the reality a young fool once bleed for his Queen.
Yesterday I went to the movies and saw Marie Antoinette. I had no clue up until this moment that the movie was being sold through sexy adds of Kirsten Dunst, I didn't think they needed to sink to that level of consumer appeal. I went to see it because I really enjoyed Sophia Coppolas (the director) last movie (Lost in Translation) I won't spoil anything just yet though until it's out of theatres, but I loved it. That and V for Vendetta has been the only movies of 2006 that I really cared for in the theatres.
I've updated and added a lot to my suicide girls page, I can't recommend joining enough.
As of lately I can't seem to stop playing my Pink Floyd Albums. I don't know why, well I sort of do. It sort of wraps me in a womb of comfort. I feel more at home and alive swimming through the ambience and muse of The Floyd which includes Roger Waters // Post-Syd Barret. I'm sure I'll listen to it all until I grow sick of it again, as I do with a lot of my music.
Life, Work, Living; its kinda of all picking up after a stress/mental break-down I had a few days ago, where life seemed to be a mutating into a cancer I would quickly wish to alleviate myself of. I talked with a few people though, it humbled me and dragged me out of my perception that I was the only one to endure such hellish depths. I guess I'm pretty sensitive and dramatic inside : works great for making art, not so great for dealing with stress and major life shifts - and yet I have endured so far amongst what I do think is a lot.
Well, I had a lot to say, I think that covers it for now. I'm moving to a temporary new place at the end of this month. Temporary because I really don't think I want to stay here in Reno much longer... maybe my mind will be changed, I shall give it a little time. Otherwise the hunt and breakdown of various options are swimming about my mind, and I will keep you posted if I'm moving to a neighborhood near you ^_^
~Magus D Ru
Captains Log – 23 October, 102 Anno XC
Rotta tells me the Princess of disks has transmuted under a different star – off in a universe subscribed to all the pleasures of the world different to the reality a young fool once bleed for his Queen.
Yesterday I went to the movies and saw Marie Antoinette. I had no clue up until this moment that the movie was being sold through sexy adds of Kirsten Dunst, I didn’t think they needed to sink to that level of consumer appeal. I went to see it because I really enjoyed Sophia Coppolas (the director) last movie (Lost in Translation) I won’t spoil anything just yet though until it’s out of theatres – but I loved it. That and V for Vendetta has been the only movies of 2006 that I really cared for in the theatres.
I’ve updated and added a lot to my suicide girls page, I can’t recommend joining enough. ^_^
As of lately I can’t seem to stop playing my Pink Floyd Albums. I don’t know why – well I sort of do. It sort of wraps me in a womb of comfort. I feel more at home and alive swimming through the ambience and muse of The Floyd which includes Roger Waters // Post-Syd Barret. I’m sure I’ll listen to it all until I grow sick of it again – as I do with a lot of my music.
Life, Work, Living – its kinda of all picking up after a stress/mental break-down I had a few days ago – where life seemed to be a mutating into a cancer I would quickly wish to alleviate myself of. I talked with a few people though – it humbled me and dragged me out of my perception that I was the only one to endure such hellish depths. I guess I’m pretty sensitive and dramatic inside – works great for making art – not so great for dealing with stress and major life shifts – and yet I have endured so far amongst what I do think is a lot.
Well – I had a lot to say – I think that covers it for now. I’m moving to a temporary new place at the end of this month. Temporary because I really don’t think I want to stay here in Reno much longer – maybe my mind will be changed – I shall give it a little time. Otherwise the hunt and breakdown of various options are swimming about my mind – and I will keep you posted if I’m moving to a neighborhood near you ^_^
~Magus D Ru
Rotta tells me the Princess of disks has transmuted under a different star – off in a universe subscribed to all the pleasures of the world different to the reality a young fool once bleed for his Queen.
Yesterday I went to the movies and saw Marie Antoinette. I had no clue up until this moment that the movie was being sold through sexy adds of Kirsten Dunst, I didn’t think they needed to sink to that level of consumer appeal. I went to see it because I really enjoyed Sophia Coppolas (the director) last movie (Lost in Translation) I won’t spoil anything just yet though until it’s out of theatres – but I loved it. That and V for Vendetta has been the only movies of 2006 that I really cared for in the theatres.
I’ve updated and added a lot to my suicide girls page, I can’t recommend joining enough. ^_^
As of lately I can’t seem to stop playing my Pink Floyd Albums. I don’t know why – well I sort of do. It sort of wraps me in a womb of comfort. I feel more at home and alive swimming through the ambience and muse of The Floyd which includes Roger Waters // Post-Syd Barret. I’m sure I’ll listen to it all until I grow sick of it again – as I do with a lot of my music.
Life, Work, Living – its kinda of all picking up after a stress/mental break-down I had a few days ago – where life seemed to be a mutating into a cancer I would quickly wish to alleviate myself of. I talked with a few people though – it humbled me and dragged me out of my perception that I was the only one to endure such hellish depths. I guess I’m pretty sensitive and dramatic inside – works great for making art – not so great for dealing with stress and major life shifts – and yet I have endured so far amongst what I do think is a lot.
Well – I had a lot to say – I think that covers it for now. I’m moving to a temporary new place at the end of this month. Temporary because I really don’t think I want to stay here in Reno much longer – maybe my mind will be changed – I shall give it a little time. Otherwise the hunt and breakdown of various options are swimming about my mind – and I will keep you posted if I’m moving to a neighborhood near you ^_^
~Magus D Ru
First off, I dunno why i've neglected to say so, BUT - My phone has been dead for the last month, and still is. So, if any of have been calling at all, i had no clue, So don't think i was being some jerk ignoring u all =p lo
So anyways, today is looking like "all u can eat crab" day. lol, It's been like a month (i love crab) i usually pile up like 10 crabs worth of meat, then gorge down on the yummy pile covered in butter and lemon...oooo Then stop to have a smoke, wait till food settles, then its round 2 time. ;D
Yesterday me and mindy Re-built the 2 ferret cages. It's like a madhouse now, with tunnels and toys on elastic string, a purple castle, giant hammocks, crinkle bags....ahh they're so bloody spoiled.
New book came in the mail '"the sacred place - the ancient origin of Holy and Mystical Sites" That and i'm loving every page of "Little Boy" and "The Japanese Experience" the art scene going on over there is so wonderful.
alright, peace be with thee, and i here shall state i forgive Lucas, but only because i liked Ep.3 sooo much!
~DSD!
So anyways, today is looking like "all u can eat crab" day. lol, It's been like a month (i love crab) i usually pile up like 10 crabs worth of meat, then gorge down on the yummy pile covered in butter and lemon...oooo Then stop to have a smoke, wait till food settles, then its round 2 time. ;D
Yesterday me and mindy Re-built the 2 ferret cages. It's like a madhouse now, with tunnels and toys on elastic string, a purple castle, giant hammocks, crinkle bags....ahh they're so bloody spoiled.
New book came in the mail '"the sacred place - the ancient origin of Holy and Mystical Sites" That and i'm loving every page of "Little Boy" and "The Japanese Experience" the art scene going on over there is so wonderful.
alright, peace be with thee, and i here shall state i forgive Lucas, but only because i liked Ep.3 sooo much!
~DSD!
Routine, blarg!
waking up earlier than u wish to is annoying. So school has started back up for me. I'm so psyched up about one of the classes. Materials and Techniques of the Masters - the teacher seems to have a like mind to where i'm coming from, that is, of course she's further along then i am with her Phd. =p
so in the class we'll be able to choose any master of arts or even style period to spend our time in this class carefully studying, that is under her guidance into sources of information we may be ignorant of.
by the way. i don't think ignorant as a derogatory term. Hell, i'm totally ignorant of some things, for no one really knows all information that is to be know. So, if u see me use this term, i don't mean it in a negative way. I've been in conversations where ppl take this word negatively. I'm using it in the sense of "ignoring of" or "unknowing"
so onto todays TOP 10...
reasons i am who i am (no real order)
10 - The Dr. that delivered me at birth was twisted and thought it interesting to exchange babies among the multi-birthing parents...
09 - Television, or even/ mass media. (i've searched for parenting or guidance more in chosen role models than my own parents at times)
08 - I'm actually a body snatcher who, because he retains the bodies memories, believes he is in fact that child or even body snatcher that previously inhabited that body.
07 - I'm just a needed program or computation needed in the whole equilibrium of nature.
06 - i am what i eat/consume.... alot of sugar, clove smokes, and a few random goodies here and there...
05 - i am one of many reincarnations of Jesus, here to save u all from all the reincarnations of Satan...
04 - I am one of many reincarnations of Satan, here to save u all from the disciples of your false deity "God"
03 - My parents did an ok job here and there on raising me, aided by the help of other social venues such as school...
02 - My parents had way too much fun one night and oops. So the young teenagers attempt to deal with having a kid, while they themselves are only but kids. A society over ran by chaos as well does a good job over on how all this comes to form...
01!!! I am part of a minority which exists within the human species or maybe even on a more spiritual plain. I've struggled to hold the existence of that which i am in order to escape the boundaries of conformity and slavery. Later, with the ability i have, i've been going through a process now of changing that what i am and as well, trying harder to understand just that of which i am, to, achieve my goal, which is ultimately to be happy and enlightened with as many other people possible, whilst in the process i can co-achieve such like minded goals......
~DSD~
If u read this, u MUST respond and write up your top 10, other wise Satan, Jesus, Santa, or my Pooka will hunt you down and curse you with unlikableness!
waking up earlier than u wish to is annoying. So school has started back up for me. I'm so psyched up about one of the classes. Materials and Techniques of the Masters - the teacher seems to have a like mind to where i'm coming from, that is, of course she's further along then i am with her Phd. =p
so in the class we'll be able to choose any master of arts or even style period to spend our time in this class carefully studying, that is under her guidance into sources of information we may be ignorant of.
by the way. i don't think ignorant as a derogatory term. Hell, i'm totally ignorant of some things, for no one really knows all information that is to be know. So, if u see me use this term, i don't mean it in a negative way. I've been in conversations where ppl take this word negatively. I'm using it in the sense of "ignoring of" or "unknowing"
so onto todays TOP 10...
reasons i am who i am (no real order)
10 - The Dr. that delivered me at birth was twisted and thought it interesting to exchange babies among the multi-birthing parents...
09 - Television, or even/ mass media. (i've searched for parenting or guidance more in chosen role models than my own parents at times)
08 - I'm actually a body snatcher who, because he retains the bodies memories, believes he is in fact that child or even body snatcher that previously inhabited that body.
07 - I'm just a needed program or computation needed in the whole equilibrium of nature.
06 - i am what i eat/consume.... alot of sugar, clove smokes, and a few random goodies here and there...
05 - i am one of many reincarnations of Jesus, here to save u all from all the reincarnations of Satan...
04 - I am one of many reincarnations of Satan, here to save u all from the disciples of your false deity "God"
03 - My parents did an ok job here and there on raising me, aided by the help of other social venues such as school...
02 - My parents had way too much fun one night and oops. So the young teenagers attempt to deal with having a kid, while they themselves are only but kids. A society over ran by chaos as well does a good job over on how all this comes to form...
01!!! I am part of a minority which exists within the human species or maybe even on a more spiritual plain. I've struggled to hold the existence of that which i am in order to escape the boundaries of conformity and slavery. Later, with the ability i have, i've been going through a process now of changing that what i am and as well, trying harder to understand just that of which i am, to, achieve my goal, which is ultimately to be happy and enlightened with as many other people possible, whilst in the process i can co-achieve such like minded goals......
~DSD~
If u read this, u MUST respond and write up your top 10, other wise Satan, Jesus, Santa, or my Pooka will hunt you down and curse you with unlikableness!
Lust in such an out spoken way. I cherish the pleasure which these beautiful angels (devils?) leave for our eyes to glaze over on...
The sunflower of life, droops a little more in the shade of night. Left only to words fluttering in the plants mind ( assuming plants can think, for we all know what a enigmatic feature this is in humans)
The selected single and image for the white stripes (Blue Orchid)- i love it... the actual whole album, damn well disappointing. I feel a rush of innovation and creativity in the first song, so where the hell did it go with the other songs? i cry, because they've made me happy in the past. Damn u white Stripes!
If you don't already, you should - get ahold of a tracked down family tree. I can't believe i never bothered to track it all down. It's mysterious to a point of my origin, lol, well biologically at least.
Todays top 10....
Dave's favorite movies upon this point in life (oh, the subjects will improve after i get this one done)
10. Baraka
09. End of Evangelion
08. Lost in Translation
07. Visitor Q
06. i(heart)Huckabees
05. Last life in the Universe
04. Fight Club
03. Holy Mountain
02. Wizard of Oz
01! The Dark Crystal
runner up: The Crow Most hated: all the following Crows (though Iggy Pop was a good character for a scummy Detroit like town)
post a response with your top 10 *points at YOU*
i hope this new system of a down cd repairs the damage from the new white stripes....more reviews next time. ~DSD (just think, you once were a little sperm...)
The sunflower of life, droops a little more in the shade of night. Left only to words fluttering in the plants mind ( assuming plants can think, for we all know what a enigmatic feature this is in humans)
The selected single and image for the white stripes (Blue Orchid)- i love it... the actual whole album, damn well disappointing. I feel a rush of innovation and creativity in the first song, so where the hell did it go with the other songs? i cry, because they've made me happy in the past. Damn u white Stripes!
If you don't already, you should - get ahold of a tracked down family tree. I can't believe i never bothered to track it all down. It's mysterious to a point of my origin, lol, well biologically at least.
Todays top 10....
Dave's favorite movies upon this point in life (oh, the subjects will improve after i get this one done)
10. Baraka
09. End of Evangelion
08. Lost in Translation
07. Visitor Q
06. i(heart)Huckabees
05. Last life in the Universe
04. Fight Club
03. Holy Mountain
02. Wizard of Oz
01! The Dark Crystal
runner up: The Crow Most hated: all the following Crows (though Iggy Pop was a good character for a scummy Detroit like town)
post a response with your top 10 *points at YOU*
i hope this new system of a down cd repairs the damage from the new white stripes....more reviews next time. ~DSD (just think, you once were a little sperm...)
The New Morning Star
And off Heavens bridges
we jumped. And through Hell
we caused such a disturbance.
But no afterworld could satisfy
my angel and I.
So that night, we built
a new future.
Across her pale skin I caressed
Our bodies danced to the trumpets of Gabriel.
Under silken sheets threaded by the ancients
Into the abyss of her eyes I fell
The nectar of every kiss I was drunk upon
The brightest flames burned.
our souls in the fury. Melting every
mortal fragment that kept us apart.
Soft lips bitten, nails clawing into flesh
sweat stung wounds, mind healed
In fallen tears pleasure cries
Now all the gods hide
from our love which now shines
And off Heavens bridges
we jumped. And through Hell
we caused such a disturbance.
But no afterworld could satisfy
my angel and I.
So that night, we built
a new future.
Across her pale skin I caressed
Our bodies danced to the trumpets of Gabriel.
Under silken sheets threaded by the ancients
Into the abyss of her eyes I fell
The nectar of every kiss I was drunk upon
The brightest flames burned.
our souls in the fury. Melting every
mortal fragment that kept us apart.
Soft lips bitten, nails clawing into flesh
sweat stung wounds, mind healed
In fallen tears pleasure cries
Now all the gods hide
from our love which now shines
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