well, that's fun, I keep leaving and coming back, I feel a bit like a stranger here...

I need a piece of advice:
how do I do to get out of a job I don't like, when I have nothing else to turn to?
actually, I like the job. I take care of the teachers who want to bring their pupils to see the plays we programmed. they are really nice, I feel useful and that's quite satisfying.
but... my bosses treat me like a stupid, useless lower human being and after only 3 days back to work I feel like shit. I feel like I don't belong in that place. and I don't earn enough money to live properly. oh, and one of my collegues, one that I really like got fired. well, they didn't renew her contract. and that sucks a lot.
so, I need to find something else but I don't really know how to do that, I don't have the contacts and I don't have the diplomas required for what I want to do.

pffff.

life sucks sometimes.

how about you guys, what up?

(be warned, this is going to be highly uninteresting)

right now i want girly and superficial things.
i want to wear my skinny black jeans with incredible high heels (i wish i could find them!!).
i want to find a top i would love, something fashion and streetwear like american apparel stuff.
i want to drink a caramel macchiato from starbucks (there's no starbucks where i live, i'm so sad)
i want a new bag, a black one.
i want some new make up, basic stuff that i really need (a good khol, a brush for my foundation)
i want a new job, i want a new life.

well, i'll start with easy things, i'm gonna shop tomorrow, buy myself some makeup and maybe some clothes, even if i don't have enough money.

oh. well. i think i'm becoming crzay 'cause i didn't go out for 2 days, i'm sick.
i need to see my friends!

gaaaah

i need to update my curriculum. i suck at this.
i really need to do this because i realized my work is not satisfying, i don't earn enough money, i don't do what i like, i'm bored when i go there.... i mean, i've got great friends there, people i like a lot, but i think i won't be able to continue living like this.

soooo... any tips for me?

well.....
it seems i'm back!
thank you to the anonymous who offered me a new account

anyway, it's been a loooong time so in a nutshell what i've been up to:
i'm still living in the same city, even if i wanted to move to paris it didn't go as planned...
i'm trying to become a photographer, i've been exposed at the theater where i work, and it's exciting to see people looking at my work!
i broke up with my boyfriend a month ago. yep, the lovely boy who took my heart for valentine's day... he was adorable with me, til he moved out of the city for his studies. then he became distant, too busy, selfish... it made me unhappy, so unhappy that i became insomniac and i lost too much weight. so, well, we broke up. for my own sake.
what else...? i cut my hair really short, and i'm blonde!!!

well, that's it for now, i'm going to take a look around, it's been such a long time! i feel like i've got a lot of things to catch up !!

how are you guys?

i'm so bored tonight

but hey, life is still good, I have plans for my future life in Paris. well... kinda. I have to take care of some paperworks first but I really hope everything goes the way I want. I won't say more, I don't wanna jinx it.

the boy is still amazing, even if I can't really see him a lot for the couple of weeks ahead... I'm a frustrated girl right now, maybe it's why I'm bored

anyway, I'm gonna try and get some sleep, tomorrow's gonna be awesome... it's Saint Patrick's day !!!

are you doing anything special?

xxx

wow, it's been a long time.
I've been kinda busy, but most of all I've been lazy to post here, to be completely honest I don't come around here very often.
I'm preparing things for june, when I'll move to Paris with my best friend. I know it's gonna be hard at first, trying to find a job and a flat, but I know I can make it (I did it in London, why not Paris!?)

My job is still the same, a bit boring but still nice. I like to be surrounded by artists, it's always fun to watch.

The guy I fell for in december is still with his girlfriend, and I don't talk to him anymore. I tried to keep away from him because I didn't want to get hurt, and it worked actually. He came by at work a couple of times, it made my heart jump and I felt like a complete idiot cause I was just standing next to him smiling and giggling like a teenager (I hate that)... and I decided I didn't want to be his friend, I wanted more than that and he didn't even realize that I was hitting on him. Too bad bad for him, it's his loss.

And anyway, february brought me the nicest surprise... there is this guy at work who's part of the class of students comedians. For the last couple of months (or even longer than that I think) he used to come at my desk and stay there to chat, sometimes for hours.
And I don't know what happened exactly but one night I joined him and the other students and we got pretty close. And I started to think about him and smile, but refused the idea that anything could happen. I thought I wasn't his type... and he was too young anyway (he's 6 years younger than me)
And then, one thing leading to another, we ended up one night at my place, my hands in his hair, his face in my neck... 2 weeks later I'm a teenager, giggling and smiling at everything, thinking about him a lot, constantly surprised by him, his way of thinking, his ability to see things in people so easily. Sometimes it seems I'm younger than him, cause he's done so many things, he has so many projects... he impresses me

Anyway, we'll see where it takes me. For now, I'm happy, and that's the only thing that matters.

What up with you guys? tell me about your lives!

praisegod is gonna party like hell tonight, with her best friends.
praisegod is happy happy happy!
have fun tonight guys!
lots of love

xxxx

well.
it didn't last long

heyyy... in a nutshell:

I'm sick
I don't really care about that
I've got amazing friends
I've been hugged a lot
I feel wonderful
alive
happy
loved
lucky

Well.
Hi guys
I haven't been around a lot lately, I had a lot of work at the theatre and I partied a bit and... I've been trying to put my life in order. Actually, it worked. I feel really better about myself, I still don't know what I want to do for a living but I'm ok with it! (that's an improvement, no?)
I don't think I'm gonna go back to London to stay, I don't feel the urge to go back anymore. But I'll probably pop up for a visit next year, because there are people I really like over there, and I want to keep in touch.
I still don't like my city though, I think I'll move to Paris if I can, there's so much things to do in this city!
But I have to get organized first, cause it's gonna be a big challenge!!
In other news... I met a boy
It's complicated because he's got a girlfriend, and she's kinda playing with him.
So I'm just sticking around, trying to be as perfect as possible! We'll see what happens... (good things, I hope)
But he's just so perfect, everytime I see him it makes me swoon....

What about you guys, what's new in your lives?