I have to say that I actually enjoy that I pretty much only see my roommate once or twice a week. Not that I have any issues with her, but it's lovely to pretty much be the only person living here. I would have preferred it to be just Ezra and me anyway so this works great.
This is my first Saturday off in three weeks! SOO nice! My bosses hired a relief tech for a bit, and my injured co -worker is now able to come to work and hobble around a bit which is a huge relief to me!
this afternoon puppy and I are going to the dog park with our friends, and then we're having a nice dinner (dogs excluded of course).
Oh, up until now it seems Ezra has only been capable of helping me meet married men and their dogs... but earlier this week we met a handsome guy and his dog, Boss at the mail boxes (how ridiculous is that?). Then yesterday Ezra and I were in the dog park here by ourselves after a mass exodus of all the other owners and dogs who had been their before us and lo and behold this guy comes strolling up with his dog. Ezra and Boss got along great, so I hope there will be more play dates between the two.. and maybe I can get around to some dating myself?
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This is my first Saturday off in three weeks! SOO nice! My bosses hired a relief tech for a bit, and my injured co -worker is now able to come to work and hobble around a bit which is a huge relief to me!
this afternoon puppy and I are going to the dog park with our friends, and then we're having a nice dinner (dogs excluded of course).
Oh, up until now it seems Ezra has only been capable of helping me meet married men and their dogs... but earlier this week we met a handsome guy and his dog, Boss at the mail boxes (how ridiculous is that?). Then yesterday Ezra and I were in the dog park here by ourselves after a mass exodus of all the other owners and dogs who had been their before us and lo and behold this guy comes strolling up with his dog. Ezra and Boss got along great, so I hope there will be more play dates between the two.. and maybe I can get around to some dating myself?
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Ezra ( my dog) and I were at the dog park playing with his buddies this evening when a little old lady (I kid you not) came up to the fence very distraught and told us that a bird was trapped in one of her bird feeders. So, even though birds make me a little nervous, I left Ezzy with the other puppy parents to see if I could help. The little thing was hanging upside down from the feeder. I very carefully put my hand on him and took the feeder down (it was on the lady's balcony). The birds toe was stuck in between the perch and the main part of the feeder. I was able to slip his toe out, but I think it may be broken. 
However when I released him, he flew right away!! I hope his poor little toe heals and doesn't hinder him too much! I'm so glad I got to help a poor little creature in need, and the lady whose balcony he was stuck on was very happy too! She told me how much joy seeing the birds at her feeders brought her, so I'm glad that there wasn't any damage and the bird was fine.
The morning and afternoon of my day was not nearly as gratifying. I'm obviously been having a rough time of things at work which is starting to wear on me :/ My other tech, the injured one, was able to stop by today and visit for a little bit. There was so much going on from different fronts that I literally burst into tears this morning. Things calmed down a bit, but I was still pretty much on the verge of crying all day. My boss has hired a "relief" tech, an LVT/RVT who will be helping me out for a little bit and I will finally get some seriously needed rest.
Other stuff: I drilled holes for my old desk drawers all by myself! I'm such a big kid
. My doctor loaned me his drill and I did it last night. I did have to have him fix one drawer though, I wanted a handle instead of a knob on it, and I had put the two holes a smidge too close together. He also let me borrow some min-wax and now the drawers glide smoothly instead of snagging. Hurray home improvements!
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However when I released him, he flew right away!! I hope his poor little toe heals and doesn't hinder him too much! I'm so glad I got to help a poor little creature in need, and the lady whose balcony he was stuck on was very happy too! She told me how much joy seeing the birds at her feeders brought her, so I'm glad that there wasn't any damage and the bird was fine.The morning and afternoon of my day was not nearly as gratifying. I'm obviously been having a rough time of things at work which is starting to wear on me :/ My other tech, the injured one, was able to stop by today and visit for a little bit. There was so much going on from different fronts that I literally burst into tears this morning. Things calmed down a bit, but I was still pretty much on the verge of crying all day. My boss has hired a "relief" tech, an LVT/RVT who will be helping me out for a little bit and I will finally get some seriously needed rest.
Other stuff: I drilled holes for my old desk drawers all by myself! I'm such a big kid
. My doctor loaned me his drill and I did it last night. I did have to have him fix one drawer though, I wanted a handle instead of a knob on it, and I had put the two holes a smidge too close together. He also let me borrow some min-wax and now the drawers glide smoothly instead of snagging. Hurray home improvements!<3 P
I just had to share this...
I was just masturbating, and the first roll of thunder from an on coming storm rumbled right as I came...that's right, I orgasm thunder and lightening bitches.
I was just masturbating, and the first roll of thunder from an on coming storm rumbled right as I came...that's right, I orgasm thunder and lightening bitches.
so I'm super super fond of this girls voice.. but I kinda like it... It's interesting and now I think I will sit and listen to more of her music on you tube so I can fully form an opinion.
SO im am so exhausted from all this overtime. I have had enough physically and emotionally i feel reamed. My dog is acting out because I'm not spending enough time with him. im on the verge of tears nearly every day at least once because i'm so tired.
and today out of left field i got a birthday present from my ex fiance. then i called him, i havent heard his voice in months. we talked and chatted and laughed. and i am so confused.
and today out of left field i got a birthday present from my ex fiance. then i called him, i havent heard his voice in months. we talked and chatted and laughed. and i am so confused.
Bum ba bum dum dum dum
during the first week of living in my new apartment:
locked myself out and had to have a 50 something yr old man show me how to break in my apartment with a credit card.
Car battery kicked the bucket and had to have my boss drive me to work for two days.
and today? Today I locked myself out on the balcony and had to break in though a window. lucky me the screens are easy to remove and the window wasn't latched. I think I will leave it that way...
As for the rest of it? My roomy is pretty cool, we get along well and she isn't home much which suites me to have the place to myself the majority of the time.
Dogs I've met (with Owners who are (insert dogs name) parents:
Daly (who is owner by Mary)
Chica
Asher
Cash (owner by Th...th..thor? thad? ummm....)
Suzette
Bananas
Charlie
Olive
Shasta whose name is Shasta but "Sh" something I can't remember why I call her Shasta...
Quimby
and Pumpkin
the senior and only other tech at work was in a horrible car accident last week and had to have knee surgery. which means I've been working 10 hours days and six days a week (except saturday is only till 3)
So I am exhausted, but boy will have some great paychecks heading my way. I really truly wish my co worker wasnt hurt though... I hate not having her at work. shes been my mentor there and helped me out and now I'm on my own! What a thing to happen right after graduation!!
Which by the way, since I think I ahvent posted in a while, I graduted with honors so kick ass
I'm still not fully registered, not until I pass my state boards.
um.. other than that I'm doing pretty damn good. A little lonely but that is my own short coming.
so thats all I can manage tonight, very badly written short blog with a million technical errors but I am beyond caring how bad my writing is...
night
P
during the first week of living in my new apartment:
locked myself out and had to have a 50 something yr old man show me how to break in my apartment with a credit card.
Car battery kicked the bucket and had to have my boss drive me to work for two days.
and today? Today I locked myself out on the balcony and had to break in though a window. lucky me the screens are easy to remove and the window wasn't latched. I think I will leave it that way...
As for the rest of it? My roomy is pretty cool, we get along well and she isn't home much which suites me to have the place to myself the majority of the time.
Dogs I've met (with Owners who are (insert dogs name) parents:
Daly (who is owner by Mary)
Chica
Asher
Cash (owner by Th...th..thor? thad? ummm....)
Suzette
Bananas
Charlie
Olive
Shasta whose name is Shasta but "Sh" something I can't remember why I call her Shasta...
Quimby
and Pumpkin
the senior and only other tech at work was in a horrible car accident last week and had to have knee surgery. which means I've been working 10 hours days and six days a week (except saturday is only till 3)
So I am exhausted, but boy will have some great paychecks heading my way. I really truly wish my co worker wasnt hurt though... I hate not having her at work. shes been my mentor there and helped me out and now I'm on my own! What a thing to happen right after graduation!!
Which by the way, since I think I ahvent posted in a while, I graduted with honors so kick ass
I'm still not fully registered, not until I pass my state boards.um.. other than that I'm doing pretty damn good. A little lonely but that is my own short coming.
so thats all I can manage tonight, very badly written short blog with a million technical errors but I am beyond caring how bad my writing is...
night
P
Ack! I have lost my phone! pfft, in my own house no less, after Fridays stated beer drinking. At least, I'm fairly sure I didn't take it out of the house, and I hope my dog didn't eat it..he did after all chew up my eye glasses. THAT little episode put me out $400 so I'm praying my phone is hiding around here somewhere and will just miraculously appear...
In the meantime after work Sat. I had an AMAZING heart and soul lifting ride that left me feeling how much my body is wanting! I NEED to start working out properly in the evenings, it's just so easy to say "not tonight!". Riding again tomorrow, how lovely to have Monday off!! I am looking forward to getting this week over with, next week is graduation and I move in with my new roomy into a new apartment!
All in all a culmination of events that I can't be sorry for.
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In the meantime after work Sat. I had an AMAZING heart and soul lifting ride that left me feeling how much my body is wanting! I NEED to start working out properly in the evenings, it's just so easy to say "not tonight!". Riding again tomorrow, how lovely to have Monday off!! I am looking forward to getting this week over with, next week is graduation and I move in with my new roomy into a new apartment!
All in all a culmination of events that I can't be sorry for.
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P
Holy cow I am UNFIT, LAZY and a lightwieght!
I'm a little buzzed after 3 beers, not much but enough that I keep hitting the wrong keys and having to backspace to correct my atrocious typing. The last two days at work have been hectic, I worked 13 hours yesterday. Two PTS's and an emergancy that we held onto for a few hours before sending it to an overnight clinic, where the dog died, either there or in transit. HEAT STOKE in animals is REAL! If you truly care about your pets, please understand that thier bodies are EXACTLY like ours and they deserve the SAME CARE as a human!!!!! for gods sake GET THEM OUT OF THE HEAT!!! This poor mastiff would have lived a long happy life if it weren't for negligent naive owners who left her outdoors during record summer heat and humidity.
Sometimes I can barely belive I was ever any younger than I am now (and I am hardly old). Its so strange how life changes and distorts you, how it corrects and forms you. I miss huge portions of my past, I miss being a "couple" incredibly. The pain is real and there. I even called a hopeline a few weeks ago, for some desperate reason. I miss the love and generosity of what I used to have, what I had been given. But at the same time, it was a selfish and unhealthy relationship. You must know and love youself before you can ever fully and happily know and love another. I am doing. And I am doing well. I am forming a carreer and vision of myself that I'm not really sure I ever really believed in, but am making come true. I always saw myself as dependant, I never truly believed I could be out there on my own, as much as I was desperate for it. And while I am not "out on my own" still as yet, I am alone. And I am doing very well for myself, learning to take matters, particularily financial ones into my own hands. This is a great learning oppurtunity for myself.
As much as we always said, "maybe in a couple of years" I doubt it will or would ever happen. I am too stubborn to let go of the life I am forging for myself, and I am sure he is too stubborn to the do the same, and there is no meeting in the middle in situations like these. Live and let live. I wish I could know more about his life, but at the same time that would simply be backsliding.
SO I move on, and I go to work tomorrow, then I take my dog to the barn and I ride my current horse, who isn't mine, and I drink the last three beers in this six pack. Then on Sunday I go see a friend and her dog, walk, eat and drink some more before work tomorrow. The key is to stay too busy, too exhausted, and too dehydrated to cry. Then eventually, like all the times in the past, I meet someone else, fall in love, and let it start all over again. And in the meantime, I survive on my wild fantasies, they're dirty and impossible, but at least they're fun!
Life is pretty cyclic to be something so straightforward.
so goodnight
<3 P
I'm a little buzzed after 3 beers, not much but enough that I keep hitting the wrong keys and having to backspace to correct my atrocious typing. The last two days at work have been hectic, I worked 13 hours yesterday. Two PTS's and an emergancy that we held onto for a few hours before sending it to an overnight clinic, where the dog died, either there or in transit. HEAT STOKE in animals is REAL! If you truly care about your pets, please understand that thier bodies are EXACTLY like ours and they deserve the SAME CARE as a human!!!!! for gods sake GET THEM OUT OF THE HEAT!!! This poor mastiff would have lived a long happy life if it weren't for negligent naive owners who left her outdoors during record summer heat and humidity.
Sometimes I can barely belive I was ever any younger than I am now (and I am hardly old). Its so strange how life changes and distorts you, how it corrects and forms you. I miss huge portions of my past, I miss being a "couple" incredibly. The pain is real and there. I even called a hopeline a few weeks ago, for some desperate reason. I miss the love and generosity of what I used to have, what I had been given. But at the same time, it was a selfish and unhealthy relationship. You must know and love youself before you can ever fully and happily know and love another. I am doing. And I am doing well. I am forming a carreer and vision of myself that I'm not really sure I ever really believed in, but am making come true. I always saw myself as dependant, I never truly believed I could be out there on my own, as much as I was desperate for it. And while I am not "out on my own" still as yet, I am alone. And I am doing very well for myself, learning to take matters, particularily financial ones into my own hands. This is a great learning oppurtunity for myself.
As much as we always said, "maybe in a couple of years" I doubt it will or would ever happen. I am too stubborn to let go of the life I am forging for myself, and I am sure he is too stubborn to the do the same, and there is no meeting in the middle in situations like these. Live and let live. I wish I could know more about his life, but at the same time that would simply be backsliding.
SO I move on, and I go to work tomorrow, then I take my dog to the barn and I ride my current horse, who isn't mine, and I drink the last three beers in this six pack. Then on Sunday I go see a friend and her dog, walk, eat and drink some more before work tomorrow. The key is to stay too busy, too exhausted, and too dehydrated to cry. Then eventually, like all the times in the past, I meet someone else, fall in love, and let it start all over again. And in the meantime, I survive on my wild fantasies, they're dirty and impossible, but at least they're fun!
Life is pretty cyclic to be something so straightforward.
so goodnight
<3 P
AAAAaaahhhhhhwwwhhooooooOOOOO!!!! Guess who just passed her Veterinary National Technitian Examination!!!
ME bitches!!!!
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ME bitches!!!!
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Ok Since March..
Well still single, Still dealing with that whole broken heart thing. But outside of recent nightmares about the ex, and the occasional random breakdown into tears, I'm doing pretty well for myself.
In March I was still hunting out an externship fro school, and now my externship is nearly over! But the job isn't I got hired on at a brand spanking new small animal hospital, as in my first day working was opening day. It is an amazing place, with incredible co-workers, fantastic vets, just amazing, I truly could not ask for a better situation to start my carreer in. We integrate tradional "western" medicine with holistic care such as acupuntcure and reiki. I work full time now and so don;t have much time for much else!!
Remember that doggy I kept obsessing about at school? He is ALL MINE now!! I adopted Ezra at the end of last semester, right at the end of finals. He is just as amazing a pet as I thought he'd be! We're deep in the thrall sof puppy love and having a blast. He has is issues as most adopted adult dogs do, and we're working with an amazing trainer to gain confidence!
Still horse back riding of course and now jumping a lot and running cross country a little bit. Still just small shows for now, but I'm planing for my first recognized event in the early spring.
My name change is now officially as official as it can be, I got my liscence renewed and now it's in my proper legal name!
Tuesday I take my VTNE, that is the Veterinary Technitian National Exam. I am nervous and stoked!! I wil get an initial pass/fail on site but not my official score. I had better pass since the damn test cost $300 alone just to apply for it!!
I am also about to move soon!!
In a couple of weeks I will be moving in with a roommate which will put me much closer to wotk FINALLY! As of now I drive 45 minutes both ways, it's rediculous!Not my own place that I really wanted, but I'm still also very excited about it!
So I'm still just as busy busy as I was before and getting busier! I'm keeping strong to myself and my belief in change for my life and keeping to path that I have chosen for myself, my morals, my ethics, my dreams. So far things are working just damn well fine!!
<3
P
PS: as soon as I get the chance I will update with lots of photos!
Well still single, Still dealing with that whole broken heart thing. But outside of recent nightmares about the ex, and the occasional random breakdown into tears, I'm doing pretty well for myself.
In March I was still hunting out an externship fro school, and now my externship is nearly over! But the job isn't
I got hired on at a brand spanking new small animal hospital, as in my first day working was opening day. It is an amazing place, with incredible co-workers, fantastic vets, just amazing, I truly could not ask for a better situation to start my carreer in. We integrate tradional "western" medicine with holistic care such as acupuntcure and reiki. I work full time now and so don;t have much time for much else!!Remember that doggy I kept obsessing about at school? He is ALL MINE now!! I adopted Ezra at the end of last semester, right at the end of finals. He is just as amazing a pet as I thought he'd be! We're deep in the thrall sof puppy love and having a blast. He has is issues as most adopted adult dogs do, and we're working with an amazing trainer to gain confidence!
Still horse back riding of course and now jumping a lot and running cross country a little bit. Still just small shows for now, but I'm planing for my first recognized event in the early spring.
My name change is now officially as official as it can be, I got my liscence renewed and now it's in my proper legal name!
Tuesday I take my VTNE, that is the Veterinary Technitian National Exam. I am nervous and stoked!! I wil get an initial pass/fail on site but not my official score. I had better pass since the damn test cost $300 alone just to apply for it!!
I am also about to move soon!!
In a couple of weeks I will be moving in with a roommate which will put me much closer to wotk FINALLY! As of now I drive 45 minutes both ways, it's rediculous!Not my own place that I really wanted, but I'm still also very excited about it!
So I'm still just as busy busy as I was before and getting busier! I'm keeping strong to myself and my belief in change for my life and keeping to path that I have chosen for myself, my morals, my ethics, my dreams. So far things are working just damn well fine!!
<3
P
PS: as soon as I get the chance I will update with lots of photos!
