Ugh, spent all night having anxiety dreams. And I mean, I had like 20 different kinds of anxiety dreams.
1) I was at school trying to do homework but the page numbers kept changing.
2) I left school and was threatened by a biker gang.
3) The gang accepted me and I was scared to death of riding a bike.
4) The gang and I went out to this beach house and I was afraid the owner was going to shoot us.
5) We bought the beach house from the guy, but we were menaced by a malevolent spirit that was trying to kill us.
6) We got the spirit exorcised, but then a slasher type monster came after us.
BLARGH
1) I was at school trying to do homework but the page numbers kept changing.
2) I left school and was threatened by a biker gang.
3) The gang accepted me and I was scared to death of riding a bike.
4) The gang and I went out to this beach house and I was afraid the owner was going to shoot us.
5) We bought the beach house from the guy, but we were menaced by a malevolent spirit that was trying to kill us.
6) We got the spirit exorcised, but then a slasher type monster came after us.
BLARGH
Christmas is already almost upon us.
I'm not usually one for melancholy looking back posts, but I'm in my 30s now, so deal with it.
I'm not usually one for melancholy looking back posts, but I'm in my 30s now, so deal with it.
There's a long road to go. As I get closer to the holiday, I can feel the dread I felt then creeping back. Everything we used to do is just a like a flashing alarm going CANCER CANCER CANCER.
But things are better. Knock on wood, but it's hard to see how this year could be worse than last year.
But I wouldn't want you to think that just because my Christmas without any of the usual celebrations should make you feel enough pity on me to get me an Xmas present! That would be WRONG! And MANIPULATIVE! Even if it's the right thing to do. 
