I am doing inventory. If you are a toxic person in my life I will cut you out and bury you in my past.

Had my EGD procedure. They gave me a drug that pretty much made me pass out in less that a minute. Spent the day in a daze. I now have bruises where they tried to put the IV in me. Not fun at all. I am trying so hard to get through this. It is hard to hold it together and not feel ashamed that it has come down to something so evasive. Please understand if I cry or get emotional.
Love
Poly

Been filling my blog with music. It is who I am and always will be. So let me see where are we? I didn't sleep through my last sleep study , redoing it on Tuesday. Have my EGD tomorrow. Not looking forward to it at all. I don't think anyone looks forward to something so evasive. Pretty much going to be a zombie for the rest of the day after. Right now I still have two pounds to gain. Now you say to yourself: wait you have to gain weight. Yes I do as I have to be at a certain weight for the surgery. My concern now is what if I do all this and I can't have it. Will I go on? Will I be frustrated? Will I try to be better myself? The answers are all yes. Why because I will never give up. Not on me and not on anyone else. For someone I know:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EY0_oVV29PM

Love and peace
Poly

Sexy
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j0Zb8G8rE1g

I bought pallet wrap today. It's going to be a great week.

Sooooooooooooooo tired. Someone come cuddle with me.

Fuck it. I hate everyone right now.

Like my status
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BPnP_zlYU44
Hahahahahha

Sorry it took so long for me to update. So here it goes. No update on the boy. I don't want to air my business. Things are going well as far as I can tell. Completed my sleep study on Tuesday and didn't really sleep so now I have to retake it. Had an echo cardiogram yesterday. That was fun. Gel everywhere. I do not enjoy being poked and prodded. All part of what needs to get done I guess. Having a hard time dealing with my emotions as of late . Could be school, work, possible surgery, moving and new relationships. I am a strange and confused girl. All I want right now is to be held. Trying to hold onto any bit of sanity I have left. Hugs Poly

Its Monday and you know what that means. Shenanigans.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nNGPqsJR5D8