I've never been good at expressing my emotions. At times I bottle them up just waiting for that time when the pressure gets too much and I leak out from the top. When I am feeling especially vulnerable I push people away. Even if you ask me what is wrong I will probably tell you nothing. We both know this is bullshit. My Sir has always been able to see this about me. Others not so lucky. I am not asking for you to feel sorry for me. I do not want your pity. What I am asking for is simple. If you see me withdrawing please reel me back in. Lend out your hand or wrap your arms around me. I am a fragile being and I break easily but sometimes all I need is that little bit of water to grow again. Today is one of those days where all I can do is cry. Every time I try to stop it comes back again. What the fuck is wrong with me? Nothing a good bottle of scotch won't fix and that would be self medicating. I've done that before and that is not an option. Please allow me to heal.
NOV 21, 2012 12:49 PM
NOV 21, 2012 04:38 PM
We are a lot alike in this. I hate pity parties and need someone to coax me out from under my blankets when I start to withdraw from everything because I hate asking for help.
razziel's idea is wonderful. Your face just lights up the whole room when you're dancing.
Also --- remember kisses on the stairs and the naked pool party? 
Love you. 
NOV 23, 2012 05:42 AM
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NOV 29, 2012 08:44 PM
is only in you, strength and love
