So I wasn't going to post a blog today but...
Today's blog is brought yo you by.... : FAINTING (love you Niobs.)
So today basically was a bad day from the start. I woke up three hours later than I usually do. And guess what I feel. A wonderful cramping going on in my lower waist.... But it wasn't much.
So I went to go walk my dog. Lovely day with nice breeze. I got some music from Imogen Heap, Jem, Frou Frou and Bloc Party the night before and I was excited to get to listen to them. So the whole time its just an annoying cramping in my stomach. Walking was making it more noticeable and yet making it alright at the same time.
Then I go whole... I can barely make it into the door when I start getting the 'wonderful' slimey feeling in the back of my throat. I was going to puke. I rush in the house and to the bathroom and wait... After some un-comfy dry heaving... Nothing happened. As I got up though, my stomach literally made me double over in pain. The cramps had quadrupled in pain. THe only thing I could think to do was go get my bayer aspirin which I only use in cases of emergencies. After finally retrieving the bottle and crap... My legs feel weak, limp. I'm getting hot and I kinda can't breathe. Then my vision gets blurry. I grab a cup and as I'm putting water in it... It all goes to shit.
My legs start wobbling, the glass it out of my hand and water goes everywhere.... I fall against the counter and in my trying to pull away from it with my weak legs I just fall right to ground... I see my vision trying to go further and further up, like they are gonna roll to the back of my head. But I don't know how, but I pulled myself out of it.
Funny tid-bit.. I had two bayers sitting on my tongue...
I'm feeling a lot better though. I'm drinking some red raspberry tea which helps with female menstrual cycles and cramps and such. I love it.
Other than that. I had a talk last night with a good-good friend, about the future and such. I am gonna go back to school. I have to. When your friend tells you that you'd be great with the job you have selected for your life. Now that I know what I'm looking for and what that requires its a lot easier to find degrees for it online and such. It will take me a while to pick a school and such but... I got this.
Today's blog is brought yo you by.... : FAINTING (love you Niobs.)
So today basically was a bad day from the start. I woke up three hours later than I usually do. And guess what I feel. A wonderful cramping going on in my lower waist.... But it wasn't much.
So I went to go walk my dog. Lovely day with nice breeze. I got some music from Imogen Heap, Jem, Frou Frou and Bloc Party the night before and I was excited to get to listen to them. So the whole time its just an annoying cramping in my stomach. Walking was making it more noticeable and yet making it alright at the same time.
Then I go whole... I can barely make it into the door when I start getting the 'wonderful' slimey feeling in the back of my throat. I was going to puke. I rush in the house and to the bathroom and wait... After some un-comfy dry heaving... Nothing happened. As I got up though, my stomach literally made me double over in pain. The cramps had quadrupled in pain. THe only thing I could think to do was go get my bayer aspirin which I only use in cases of emergencies. After finally retrieving the bottle and crap... My legs feel weak, limp. I'm getting hot and I kinda can't breathe. Then my vision gets blurry. I grab a cup and as I'm putting water in it... It all goes to shit.
My legs start wobbling, the glass it out of my hand and water goes everywhere.... I fall against the counter and in my trying to pull away from it with my weak legs I just fall right to ground... I see my vision trying to go further and further up, like they are gonna roll to the back of my head. But I don't know how, but I pulled myself out of it.
Funny tid-bit.. I had two bayers sitting on my tongue...
I'm feeling a lot better though. I'm drinking some red raspberry tea which helps with female menstrual cycles and cramps and such. I love it.
Other than that. I had a talk last night with a good-good friend, about the future and such. I am gonna go back to school. I have to. When your friend tells you that you'd be great with the job you have selected for your life. Now that I know what I'm looking for and what that requires its a lot easier to find degrees for it online and such. It will take me a while to pick a school and such but... I got this.
Bleh, bleh, bleh.
I truly do hate love. Its so very irritating and a lonely road when its one-sided. What can you do when the guy you want, that should know I want him says.... "One is the loneliest number that you'll ever know..."
Maybe its not about what I think its about... but really....
I hate facebook sometimes. Anybody want to be friends. I've been so lazy on there and like not looking for people I know. So, you wanna be friends? It'll be fun and lame!
Busy, busy girl. I have been so busy with my emotions and creating a random ass character for a doll. My friends are finally into BJD's (ball jointed dolls) and we are looking at stuff and creating characters for them. My character is a 15 year old boy named Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix. I feel so unoriginal because its Phoenix's new album name... Like oh man. I'm awesome.
I'm thinking about school. Well I'm always thinking about it really. I'm not sure what my main focus is with it. I'm such a constant mover I just can't pick one certain thing.
I'm gonna try and organize all the little hobbies I want to do. To help me also figure out what is a hobby, an aspiration and goal.... Then what makes me breathe... and that in a way will get me to what I want for my school goal.
My friends love me. I've never been so taken aback by it. But some friends of mine. Ones that I've of been feeling sort at a loss about, besides being completely content. I felt like it wasn't real and that it was just a sort of lie. They baked me cookies (chocolate chip, my fave) while telling me that they were gonna bake some stuff and hot chocolate and drove over to give it to me, and it snowed.
I'm crying now thinking about it. I'm not the one thats gets appreciation often. I'm not gonna go into it but it was so very nice that little surprise.
Love, peace and chicken grease.
The Thomas
So I finally decided to pull my head out of my ass and come back to life!
It seems like I've been dead for quiet a while. I've been with friends sometimes and other than that, I've been hiding in my house like a sort of hermit... Hermit...? I don't know if that really applies. Anywho, I'm better. I was borderline depressed and things just weren't working for me. From troubles with the bank (which was resolved later) to the car accident ill not being resolved, and my relationship problems... I was just down, with a smiling facade to say otherwise.
But I'm back and smiling and with good feelings. I don't know. Without going into detail with what all was going on all I can say is that today made it better. I went to my favorite store Whole Foods this morning. I've been itching to make some soup. Everyone there was so smiley and talkative. Even the other customers. It was odd. Its not often you just feel the 'good vibrations' flowing from everyone around you. That helped. Then getting home and actually cooking was like a refresher. I love cooking and its been almost two months since I last actually cooked something. I've gotten a few pictures drawn, nothing coloured really, well a few things. I got new bed sheets. Organic cotton, feel amazing!
I'm still not with Josh. I haven't even talked to him. I keep having dreams about him though. About us and what we could be. can anybody tell me how to make that shit stop...? Well it sort of stopped and that didn't help how I was feeling at all. But... I've resolved that I'm probably not gonna get him. I wont sweat the small stuff so to speak. I'm stuck on him and so be it. But I'm not gonna end living my life cause of it.
My best friend Tommy and I are back to normal. I still love him and he loves me. I'm picking up important people and cherishing the ones I have. I'm also being vocal against those that are pissing me off. My transgendered friend was one of the people trying to steal my identity, well bits of it. So I just casually wrote him back and explained things to him. Held my tongue but got it all out. I guess I'll have to wait for a reply, if there is one.
Love, peace and tofu grease....
Yes its greasy.... and yes I'm lying.
It seems like I've been dead for quiet a while. I've been with friends sometimes and other than that, I've been hiding in my house like a sort of hermit... Hermit...? I don't know if that really applies. Anywho, I'm better. I was borderline depressed and things just weren't working for me. From troubles with the bank (which was resolved later) to the car accident ill not being resolved, and my relationship problems... I was just down, with a smiling facade to say otherwise.
But I'm back and smiling and with good feelings. I don't know. Without going into detail with what all was going on all I can say is that today made it better. I went to my favorite store Whole Foods this morning. I've been itching to make some soup. Everyone there was so smiley and talkative. Even the other customers. It was odd. Its not often you just feel the 'good vibrations' flowing from everyone around you. That helped. Then getting home and actually cooking was like a refresher. I love cooking and its been almost two months since I last actually cooked something. I've gotten a few pictures drawn, nothing coloured really, well a few things. I got new bed sheets. Organic cotton, feel amazing!
I'm still not with Josh. I haven't even talked to him. I keep having dreams about him though. About us and what we could be. can anybody tell me how to make that shit stop...? Well it sort of stopped and that didn't help how I was feeling at all. But... I've resolved that I'm probably not gonna get him. I wont sweat the small stuff so to speak. I'm stuck on him and so be it. But I'm not gonna end living my life cause of it.
My best friend Tommy and I are back to normal. I still love him and he loves me. I'm picking up important people and cherishing the ones I have. I'm also being vocal against those that are pissing me off. My transgendered friend was one of the people trying to steal my identity, well bits of it. So I just casually wrote him back and explained things to him. Held my tongue but got it all out. I guess I'll have to wait for a reply, if there is one.
Love, peace and tofu grease....
Yes its greasy.... and yes I'm lying.
October has already told me no...
Literally. I have been spending the past few days crying and such. Over what I really not say. It's the same old same old. I'm labeling myself 'undateable'. Cause its true or seems to be.
Yesterday though I had some friends come over and they just made is a lot better. We were supposed to hang out before but I vanished and they missed me. Its funny how many times I realize people do miss me. Not thinking low of myself really just, with the way I am I see myself as the person who wouldn't be the first on your mind to miss.
I'm still stuck on Josh. I just can't quit him and I want to. But obviously I really don't want to...
I need to re-dye my hair.... I might do that later today. Hopefully. Its still blond and black don't worry! Just gotta correct the evil thing that is fading.
I fucked up my tattoo. Actually its fine and nothing that a touch-up wont fix but... having this one in easy reach wasn't a good idea. I know not to scratch, but i scratch it while I sleep. Which is fun to wake up to once I realize that... Yay! But oh well. Like I said, nothing a touch up wont fix. I kinda want to add more shading to it. Its so lovely. It still hasn't completely healed for me. Still looks odd on my skin but oh wells. I love it.
My mommy is coming back home in November. Which is awesome. Bad, cause she doesn't know about this tattoo. I tell her every time, not that she can really stop me since I'm of age, but she just might be mad at me for a day or two.
Lastly... I am amazing. I don't mean that to be like conceited or anything. But as of late... I have more than 2 people, trying to become me. I mean that in hair colouring and styling, tattoo designs, clothing, and even the way I speak. WTF?! Really I'm not that cool. Tokidoki... This is labeled mine, amongst my friends. I'm covered in tokidoki stuff. I always have a bag and usually a jacket of tokidoki. I have a cute vinyl in my car, my mom just got me a fedora hat from tokidoki. I am... tokidoki. The trademark design was my first tattoo. I am Tokidoki. Someone I know, requested/demanded that I design them a sleeve tattoo with tokidoki... Before this same person said that he wanted to do their hair blonde with black and blue in it. Right after I had posted a picture of my new hair change... Then I have little bits of them trying to one up me in situations I don't care about. Thats just the one person. I was trying to be all like oh man. its all about me, but my friends got the picture, before I would admit it. At least I'm black bitch. Can't technically steal that! That's just one person though... Like really. I should be a celebrity cause then it wouldn't bother me. I'd be iconic but not.
I might post another blog later today. I just feel like I've been hiding from the world as of late.
I've been getting to know people again. Its funny cause we are a much better fit than I thought we ever would have been. So I'm glad to have people that understand me already. Cause I guess I'm complex and confusing.
Love, peace, and chicken grease.
Pixie to the Tom
Literally. I have been spending the past few days crying and such. Over what I really not say. It's the same old same old. I'm labeling myself 'undateable'. Cause its true or seems to be.
Yesterday though I had some friends come over and they just made is a lot better. We were supposed to hang out before but I vanished and they missed me. Its funny how many times I realize people do miss me. Not thinking low of myself really just, with the way I am I see myself as the person who wouldn't be the first on your mind to miss.
I'm still stuck on Josh. I just can't quit him and I want to. But obviously I really don't want to...
I need to re-dye my hair.... I might do that later today. Hopefully. Its still blond and black don't worry! Just gotta correct the evil thing that is fading.
I fucked up my tattoo. Actually its fine and nothing that a touch-up wont fix but... having this one in easy reach wasn't a good idea. I know not to scratch, but i scratch it while I sleep. Which is fun to wake up to once I realize that... Yay! But oh well. Like I said, nothing a touch up wont fix. I kinda want to add more shading to it. Its so lovely. It still hasn't completely healed for me. Still looks odd on my skin but oh wells. I love it.
My mommy is coming back home in November. Which is awesome. Bad, cause she doesn't know about this tattoo. I tell her every time, not that she can really stop me since I'm of age, but she just might be mad at me for a day or two.
Lastly... I am amazing. I don't mean that to be like conceited or anything. But as of late... I have more than 2 people, trying to become me. I mean that in hair colouring and styling, tattoo designs, clothing, and even the way I speak. WTF?! Really I'm not that cool. Tokidoki... This is labeled mine, amongst my friends. I'm covered in tokidoki stuff. I always have a bag and usually a jacket of tokidoki. I have a cute vinyl in my car, my mom just got me a fedora hat from tokidoki. I am... tokidoki. The trademark design was my first tattoo. I am Tokidoki. Someone I know, requested/demanded that I design them a sleeve tattoo with tokidoki... Before this same person said that he wanted to do their hair blonde with black and blue in it. Right after I had posted a picture of my new hair change... Then I have little bits of them trying to one up me in situations I don't care about. Thats just the one person. I was trying to be all like oh man. its all about me, but my friends got the picture, before I would admit it. At least I'm black bitch. Can't technically steal that! That's just one person though... Like really. I should be a celebrity cause then it wouldn't bother me. I'd be iconic but not.
I might post another blog later today. I just feel like I've been hiding from the world as of late.
I've been getting to know people again. Its funny cause we are a much better fit than I thought we ever would have been. So I'm glad to have people that understand me already. Cause I guess I'm complex and confusing.
Love, peace, and chicken grease.
Pixie to the Tom
So, this month is coming to a close.
I lived, laughed, moaned and cried. What a combo, but above all I lived.
But this has been an interesting month. I love it. Refinding people and getting a chance to know them better then before. Making new friends... Feeling art come back into my life and just having a grand old time. I've made mistakes, but who hasn't. I've got to learn from something. Hahaha!
My tattoo still itches like no other. I'm having the hardest time not trying to scratch it. I see that it will more than likely need a touch up... I'm not so jazzed about it. More cause that means I have to go through more of this don't scratch crap.
I got a shit ton of clothes for my birthday. And I just finally got them all up on hangers and such. I colour coded my closet... So I often don't want to put clothes up cause its a lot more tedious then usual. I'm just glad I've pulled away from the shade by shade thing I was pulling earlier.
Yah, I'm a little bit doomed. I want Josh and no one else. So its either wait, and he could find someone else or wait cause he doesn't know what he wants to do or move on... which I tried... twice this month and well it hasn't been working out. I stop myself because of him.
Sorry I've been not replying to comments and such. I try to, but my laptop died, but its alright. We revived her. Bad harddrive and motherboard. So while I was stuck using the slow ass desktop... I was procrastinating.
I'm gonna go and play some sims, drink some mojito mint tea and relax.
Au revoir.
Oh i also have to reinstall those languages onto my computer....
I lived, laughed, moaned and cried. What a combo, but above all I lived.
But this has been an interesting month. I love it. Refinding people and getting a chance to know them better then before. Making new friends... Feeling art come back into my life and just having a grand old time. I've made mistakes, but who hasn't. I've got to learn from something. Hahaha!
My tattoo still itches like no other. I'm having the hardest time not trying to scratch it. I see that it will more than likely need a touch up... I'm not so jazzed about it. More cause that means I have to go through more of this don't scratch crap.
I got a shit ton of clothes for my birthday. And I just finally got them all up on hangers and such. I colour coded my closet... So I often don't want to put clothes up cause its a lot more tedious then usual. I'm just glad I've pulled away from the shade by shade thing I was pulling earlier.
Yah, I'm a little bit doomed. I want Josh and no one else. So its either wait, and he could find someone else or wait cause he doesn't know what he wants to do or move on... which I tried... twice this month and well it hasn't been working out. I stop myself because of him.
Sorry I've been not replying to comments and such. I try to, but my laptop died, but its alright. We revived her. Bad harddrive and motherboard. So while I was stuck using the slow ass desktop... I was procrastinating.
I'm gonna go and play some sims, drink some mojito mint tea and relax.
Au revoir.
Oh i also have to reinstall those languages onto my computer....
I took some pictures and I'm sure you'll love them.
: to the new album! :
I could have just told you its my new album but this the easy no mess and get lost sort of deal I made there. Haha! Comments may make me do it again. Hahaha!
Pictures of my newest inking.
Got it on the 18th. WORD TO THE WISE!
Do not get a tattoo here. I mean it. It hurts like nothing I've ever felt before. Its not even a tattoo hurt or anything. Its a full on. HURT. I didn't cry or anything but oh man. I wanted to punch something so bad. I love it though. It will get a little touching up but man my wrist was just, like... in severe pain. Totally worth it to me. Now the healing process is totally gross and crap, but so far so good. Though this morning I found chunks of black ink that dried on my pillow. That's yummy.
Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes and such. It was a pretty damn good day. I went shopping. I save the whole year to do one massive slurge. Oh it was wonderful. Found the new jeans of my life, by EXPRESS. Some of the most comfortable fabric ever. Then the length is perfect. Cause I'm deformed
and I have longer legs than my body and I usually don't fit pants in the size I should. Little known thing. I can easily fit a size 1 but sometime my but gets in the way. (What I'm black....?) But size 5's are usually the only size with the proper length for me. Lame. But I love their jeans. Love them! Got some awesome shirts and dresses and such, and got my hair did. Which I hope you guys like, not that it matters cause I'm not changing it back.
My Mommie got me a new tokidoki bag which I'm excited about, wont be here until like a few days. I got myself some tokidoki clothes, and new gauges! Finally I'm at a 7/16. Took too long to find that in a spiral style... Like really.
Other than that, I was feeling quiet odd. Lately including a few days before my birthday. I' have been feeling like I need to say something. Get something off my chest, but I don't have anything. the words wont come to me and I don't even know to who this pertains too. Though I feel like I need to tell Josh something. I'm about to go in woe over this guy. Its not fair, but oh well. Got a lot of extra stuff on my mind. My mom asked me to get back into school and I truly want to. I just... I don't know right now. Gotta sort it out.
Thank you and love you all.
But I love Niobe more!
How are you guys?!
: to the new album! :
I could have just told you its my new album but this the easy no mess and get lost sort of deal I made there. Haha! Comments may make me do it again. Hahaha!
Pictures of my newest inking.
Got it on the 18th. WORD TO THE WISE!
Do not get a tattoo here. I mean it. It hurts like nothing I've ever felt before. Its not even a tattoo hurt or anything. Its a full on. HURT. I didn't cry or anything but oh man. I wanted to punch something so bad. I love it though. It will get a little touching up but man my wrist was just, like... in severe pain. Totally worth it to me. Now the healing process is totally gross and crap, but so far so good. Though this morning I found chunks of black ink that dried on my pillow. That's yummy.
Thank you everyone for the birthday wishes and such. It was a pretty damn good day. I went shopping. I save the whole year to do one massive slurge. Oh it was wonderful. Found the new jeans of my life, by EXPRESS. Some of the most comfortable fabric ever. Then the length is perfect. Cause I'm deformed
and I have longer legs than my body and I usually don't fit pants in the size I should. Little known thing. I can easily fit a size 1 but sometime my but gets in the way. (What I'm black....?) But size 5's are usually the only size with the proper length for me. Lame. But I love their jeans. Love them! Got some awesome shirts and dresses and such, and got my hair did. Which I hope you guys like, not that it matters cause I'm not changing it back.My Mommie got me a new tokidoki bag which I'm excited about, wont be here until like a few days. I got myself some tokidoki clothes, and new gauges! Finally I'm at a 7/16. Took too long to find that in a spiral style... Like really.
Other than that, I was feeling quiet odd. Lately including a few days before my birthday. I' have been feeling like I need to say something. Get something off my chest, but I don't have anything. the words wont come to me and I don't even know to who this pertains too. Though I feel like I need to tell Josh something. I'm about to go in woe over this guy. Its not fair, but oh well. Got a lot of extra stuff on my mind. My mom asked me to get back into school and I truly want to. I just... I don't know right now. Gotta sort it out.
Thank you and love you all.
But I love Niobe more!
How are you guys?!
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN ONE OR TWO DAYS!!!
I say one day and a wake up!
I LOVE Niobe!! Hardcore! Here I can prove it!
I love you so much! Like You are so amazing, and I'm glad that you thought about me enough to get me something let alone four things. I wish I could truly repay you. I feel like an idiot when I want to cry because I have a package in the mailbox. Just waiting for one more. I hope you like what I got you.
If you hadn't noticed. I went back to blond today!
Pictures of a sort later. I'm getting my circular tattoo tomorrow! And my favorite artist is doing it. Only thing I'm mad at is the price tag that goes up cause of it, but oh well. Its my present to myself!
I say one day and a wake up!
I LOVE Niobe!! Hardcore! Here I can prove it!
I love you so much! Like You are so amazing, and I'm glad that you thought about me enough to get me something let alone four things. I wish I could truly repay you. I feel like an idiot when I want to cry because I have a package in the mailbox. Just waiting for one more. I hope you like what I got you.
If you hadn't noticed. I went back to blond today!
Pictures of a sort later. I'm getting my circular tattoo tomorrow! And my favorite artist is doing it. Only thing I'm mad at is the price tag that goes up cause of it, but oh well. Its my present to myself!
There are 3 days and a wake up till my birthday!
I've been so stressed lately. Well actually a very relaxed stressed out. Cause I've been keeping it hidden around friends and not talking to people about it. I don't think anything is wrong with me... Just this accident is still not finished. I just want things done and the other lady is slacking her ass off which makes sense since it was her fault. Like I need help, but I don't. All I need is for things to go back to normal and for my car to come back in sit in the driveway or the garage.
Yesterday was an awesome day though. As of late me and my body are back at odds, and the war began again. I've even begun attacking my face... Which I never used to do. Sure everyone has something they don't like about their face, but I'm hating everything that I used to love. Not sure why, but it happens. So yesterday. I went out to Manitou Springs with two of my friends and we got funnel cake! That was the whole purpose for out visit; to get funnel cake! So as we are waiting for it to be made this pretty-pretty indie chick with a lovely Nikon camera keeps walking around us, and I find out why. She sweetly asks me... ME to model for her. I said yes, still in like shock of it all. She took some pictures of me talking to the lady making funnel cake and then when on her way, but not before telling me that I was "truly beautiful". I sat blushing for some time and then my friend came up to me and said " See the rest of the world see's that your still beautiful too."
Talk about making me feel better. Now I'm not looking at the problems of my body. I just feel blessed to be me. Maybe I can get back into modeling again. I know its silly or maybe just stupid, but that made my day; if not my week hearing that.
I have a lot coming up. On the 17th I'm changing my hair and getting my tattoo appointment. For sometime. Then on Saturday its my birthday. I'm not really sure what I'm gonna do if anything at all. I just kinda feel like being low key. I'd ask Josh to come over but... I'm ignoring him, and Tyler as well. Its about time that I grew up on that scale!
Hahaha
Oh yah lastly. I was watching BBC America. And they have this show called being human. I am completely hooked on it. Love it. Its about these young adults who find out about/become the paranormal things in life, like vampires and werewolves, even ghosts. So now all they want to do is try and be human. Fit in with the humans and blend so that they don't become the monsters some of them know is possible to become and what they fear. So I thought I'd show you a picture of my crush, and this only/first time I've ever crushed on a vampire.
Say hello to Mitchell
I've been so stressed lately. Well actually a very relaxed stressed out. Cause I've been keeping it hidden around friends and not talking to people about it. I don't think anything is wrong with me... Just this accident is still not finished. I just want things done and the other lady is slacking her ass off which makes sense since it was her fault. Like I need help, but I don't. All I need is for things to go back to normal and for my car to come back in sit in the driveway or the garage.
Yesterday was an awesome day though. As of late me and my body are back at odds, and the war began again. I've even begun attacking my face... Which I never used to do. Sure everyone has something they don't like about their face, but I'm hating everything that I used to love. Not sure why, but it happens. So yesterday. I went out to Manitou Springs with two of my friends and we got funnel cake! That was the whole purpose for out visit; to get funnel cake! So as we are waiting for it to be made this pretty-pretty indie chick with a lovely Nikon camera keeps walking around us, and I find out why. She sweetly asks me... ME to model for her. I said yes, still in like shock of it all. She took some pictures of me talking to the lady making funnel cake and then when on her way, but not before telling me that I was "truly beautiful". I sat blushing for some time and then my friend came up to me and said " See the rest of the world see's that your still beautiful too."
Talk about making me feel better. Now I'm not looking at the problems of my body. I just feel blessed to be me. Maybe I can get back into modeling again. I know its silly or maybe just stupid, but that made my day; if not my week hearing that.
I have a lot coming up. On the 17th I'm changing my hair and getting my tattoo appointment. For sometime. Then on Saturday its my birthday. I'm not really sure what I'm gonna do if anything at all. I just kinda feel like being low key. I'd ask Josh to come over but... I'm ignoring him, and Tyler as well. Its about time that I grew up on that scale!
Hahaha
Oh yah lastly. I was watching BBC America. And they have this show called being human. I am completely hooked on it. Love it. Its about these young adults who find out about/become the paranormal things in life, like vampires and werewolves, even ghosts. So now all they want to do is try and be human. Fit in with the humans and blend so that they don't become the monsters some of them know is possible to become and what they fear. So I thought I'd show you a picture of my crush, and this only/first time I've ever crushed on a vampire.
Say hello to Mitchell
I have arts I want to do draw!!!!
Like I wrote something but I've been itching to draw again. I have stuff I need to colour, but I want to draw again. I haven't gotten anything properly decent out in a while. So maybe later I will get to that. Though, take a look if you want to the last picture I was completely satisfied with.
It might also help you to know that I make my guys look odd. This is also one of my hardest characters to get out. Which is funny cause he's my favorite.
Next on the list of things to talk about... I drove two of my friends to this convention. Anime convention yesterday. That was so much fun. Like I know that I was just dropping them off and such but they wanted to stick around for a while so I did. Well as we were walking around looking at all the people who cosplayed and i was reverting back to my geeky-ness... We say Mark and Tiffany, the two people who tried destroying me life. So we ignored them, then we went to their hotel room cause they were blocking out main exit. Well, we aren't even in the room a good 10 minutes when Lyle comes in and he has Tiffany and Mark with him. Like it was so funny cause Lyle had this 'oh fucking shit' look plastered on his face as he looked at me. And I had a grand old time. Honestly. They were so awkward, they didn't saw a word and I was talking with Kyle who was smiling and enjoying this moment. Then the two left and they weren't so happy. Mark kept trying to look at me but my awesome girl Amber kept blocking his view. They barely closed the door behind them when kyle and I burst into laughter. I didn't see them after that. So that made me feel... excellent!
After the hour long drive back home, I went to Natural Groceries to get some body wash cause I was really low. I'm pretty sure I complained about Owen, who was trying to get involved with me but he was married. Well I meet his brother... some time ago. Every time I go I see him and he's working. And I seem to be going to see him. Its just awkward to me. Like he was worried about me when he saw my splint and I told him about the car accident. He's easy to talk to, and his dark hazel eyes with green blended in, just trap me. I was giving him a bad rep cause of his brother, but... I kinda fear that I may like this guy.
Second to last thing. I haven't spoken to Josh in a long while. I haven't texted him... I miss him. And then he made a status update on facebook and I replied, just trying to lift his spirits a little. Then his friend replied on the same thing with "man this girl be all into you..." So now I just feel like hiding under a rock.
Lastly, I was meaning to take pictures and return to the ranks of camera whore, but I just got out the shower and my hair was too wet. So I'll do it later, or tomorrow.
Love, peace and chicken grease.
Like I wrote something but I've been itching to draw again. I have stuff I need to colour, but I want to draw again. I haven't gotten anything properly decent out in a while. So maybe later I will get to that. Though, take a look if you want to the last picture I was completely satisfied with.
It might also help you to know that I make my guys look odd. This is also one of my hardest characters to get out. Which is funny cause he's my favorite.
Next on the list of things to talk about... I drove two of my friends to this convention. Anime convention yesterday. That was so much fun. Like I know that I was just dropping them off and such but they wanted to stick around for a while so I did. Well as we were walking around looking at all the people who cosplayed and i was reverting back to my geeky-ness... We say Mark and Tiffany, the two people who tried destroying me life. So we ignored them, then we went to their hotel room cause they were blocking out main exit. Well, we aren't even in the room a good 10 minutes when Lyle comes in and he has Tiffany and Mark with him. Like it was so funny cause Lyle had this 'oh fucking shit' look plastered on his face as he looked at me. And I had a grand old time. Honestly. They were so awkward, they didn't saw a word and I was talking with Kyle who was smiling and enjoying this moment. Then the two left and they weren't so happy. Mark kept trying to look at me but my awesome girl Amber kept blocking his view. They barely closed the door behind them when kyle and I burst into laughter. I didn't see them after that.
So that made me feel... excellent!After the hour long drive back home, I went to Natural Groceries to get some body wash cause I was really low. I'm pretty sure I complained about Owen, who was trying to get involved with me but he was married. Well I meet his brother... some time ago. Every time I go I see him and he's working. And I seem to be going to see him. Its just awkward to me. Like he was worried about me when he saw my splint and I told him about the car accident. He's easy to talk to, and his dark hazel eyes with green blended in, just trap me. I was giving him a bad rep cause of his brother, but... I kinda fear that I may like this guy.
Second to last thing. I haven't spoken to Josh in a long while. I haven't texted him... I miss him. And then he made a status update on facebook and I replied, just trying to lift his spirits a little. Then his friend replied on the same thing with "man this girl be all into you..." So now I just feel like hiding under a rock.
Lastly, I was meaning to take pictures and return to the ranks of camera whore, but I just got out the shower and my hair was too wet. So I'll do it later, or tomorrow.
Love, peace and chicken grease.
Just to copy Niobe in a small way
Today's blog is brought to you by: Starbucks-Grande Chai with 2 pumps of Pumpkin Spice and Their Shortbread Cookies.
I expect this to be a long drabble sort blog. So to keep your interest here is James in my favorite picture ever. This pictures makes me horny, sad/tearful all at the same time. I want her body.... But in my skin tone and my tattoos please!
Right now... I'm thinking of what I want to do for my birthday. 21. Finally. Last year made me feel like I had lived about 5 years in one, so its nice to know that time is actually moving. And I'm stuck in all that. But I'm not anymore. So, now I can finally breathe and live and I'm at the age were I can; well will be at the age. It almost seems unreal. Like its just gonna be another day, but its not. I'm trying to think of plans to make and such, but I don't really want to do anything. I'd prefer to just cuddle someone the whole day. Screw leaving the house. Will you come cuddle with me?
In other news. I'm getting obsessed with beauty again. Well as much as I, since I hate make up and the only stuff I like to use is eco and usually vegan. I'm addicted to Burt's Bees again. I love the stuff and it smells so earthy. I need to start taking better care of my whole body and not just the bits with tattoos or my favorite body parts. Which in case you want to know. My legs are my favorite body part. I've always have longer legs than I should seemingly have. My boobs are a very close second. I lurve my little heresy kiss nipples. Yes, that's what I call them.
I'm tired and crap. I feel like something big is gonna happen and really it seems like everything is the exact same each day. So its like is anything gonna happen or is it just me hoping that something comes in and spices things up for the better... Bleh who knows.
Oh yah. The accident. Sorry for the delay on this. I was just tired of talking about the same thing so many times.
Today's blog is brought to you by: Starbucks-Grande Chai with 2 pumps of Pumpkin Spice and Their Shortbread Cookies.
I expect this to be a long drabble sort blog. So to keep your interest here is James in my favorite picture ever. This pictures makes me horny, sad/tearful all at the same time. I want her body.... But in my skin tone and my tattoos please!
Right now... I'm thinking of what I want to do for my birthday. 21. Finally. Last year made me feel like I had lived about 5 years in one, so its nice to know that time is actually moving. And I'm stuck in all that. But I'm not anymore. So, now I can finally breathe and live and I'm at the age were I can; well will be at the age. It almost seems unreal. Like its just gonna be another day, but its not. I'm trying to think of plans to make and such, but I don't really want to do anything. I'd prefer to just cuddle someone the whole day. Screw leaving the house. Will you come cuddle with me?
In other news. I'm getting obsessed with beauty again. Well as much as I, since I hate make up and the only stuff I like to use is eco and usually vegan. I'm addicted to Burt's Bees again. I love the stuff and it smells so earthy. I need to start taking better care of my whole body and not just the bits with tattoos or my favorite body parts. Which in case you want to know. My legs are my favorite body part. I've always have longer legs than I should seemingly have. My boobs are a very close second. I lurve my little heresy kiss nipples. Yes, that's what I call them.
I'm tired and crap. I feel like something big is gonna happen and really it seems like everything is the exact same each day. So its like is anything gonna happen or is it just me hoping that something comes in and spices things up for the better... Bleh who knows.
Oh yah. The accident. Sorry for the delay on this. I was just tired of talking about the same thing so many times.
So now, most of my friends, and those I had the falling out with are going to this anime convention. Its in Denver. My friends that were in the car accident want me to drive them down there. Cause they don't trust the person that actually gonna be driving. Said person hasn't been in an accident. How funny is that...?
I need to go ice my arm again and just relax. Love you guys and thank you for being worried about me. I hate it when people like worry and such but at the same time it makes me smile.
Love you hob-goblins.
