So... After having several bad days! I decided to...


I'm fond of it, but at the same time... it scares me.
Going from long hair that was at the middle of my back and curly because of when I slept and didn't straighten it.

So thoughts? Comments... I'll probably add some hair extensions in all sorts of fun colours and such
Just to add my own personal touch to the cut.

I like it...? Not that I can undo it but do you?

I'm so livid right now.

There are three things that severally annoy me. The first one is, getting texts while I'm trying to sleep. Sometimes it wakes me up sometimes it doesn't... but honestly no. The second thing is, when people somehow makes ways to blame me for all there problems and the mistakes they've made in their life, and in a situation with me. Third thing which I've become really desensitized about, is when people or rather one person threatens to kill himself. So imagine all three of these rolled into one night. A bunch of texts about blaming me and what he's gonna do about it.

I hate people who are weak and refuse to see that they are, or that others have a much harder life. Like honestly... Grow up. Then if that didn't just get my loathing screws turning, my friend decided last night to bid me her farewells because she was mad that I was upset with the person I spoke of earlier... So she said bye and I think its funny. She knows my anger is directed at one person. Months of mental abuse will do that to a person, and she's attacked me on more than one occasion because of said person above.

Its apparent to me that I need to get out of here. But what should I do before that... Cause I have all these wonderful ideas roaming around, but what to do. To end of peacefully or just burn that bridge, rather whats left of it completely. Ehhh...

I need to go the store, my throat is really sore, and its windy outside.

My day is off to a 'grand' start... How about yours?

I'm gonna try and cool off and make little clay robots...

Finally decided to take pictures of my chest piece. I love it so much and I haven't even add the colour to it yet.
Though I feel like a whiney bitch cause, that hurt and I'm so not ready to go through that pain again. The colours we are still deciding on. Well I am. I have like four copies of my drawing and I've been colouring them and matching them with my skin colour and all that.

Don't mind my bra. Its the only way you can see all of it without me being nude. XD

Its snowing again.


I'm sick... I've been sick for a few days. its not just a simple little cold or sore throat... I've been vomiting too.
Yah its just as wonderful as it sounds. To make matters worse, mr friends and I just went through a huge
fight... Its odd when your feeling like your friends don't care about you after years of something good, and you see that their actions prove it. My very strong love interest, had to go and be well... a guy assuming things. Sure I like you, but I'd rather see if we can be friends before jumping into a relationship. I've even told him... and he still got weird. Oh well, if he doesn't get it. Nothing more I can do.

I don't know. I'm at the end of my rope on it. I'm sick, and upset, and just miserable. It keeps snowing so every time I want to go and talk to them, the weather interferes. Sign, maybe...? I don't know.


Only thing cheering me up these days is this music, the video is equally amazing to me.

Do I look asymmetrical to you...?


So I went in to get my chest piece appt. on Wednesday... And i ended up getting it that day.
For five gloriously pain filled hours. What was really fun and uplifting despite the pain of it all,
was the other tattoo artists calling me a hardcore super trooper.
I had a good bit of giggles, from that. They were wonderful though.
Some pudgy girl came for a small tattoo and complained when she was done, how much it hurt.
They were cracking up about it.

But why... Did I pick the chest for this massive thing.
Why ever did I pick the chest...? Why?!
But I love it! We just got the outline and some shading done, sine I wanted colour eventually.
Its so amazing. I love it.
I can't stop looking at it and smiling.

I'll post pictures eventually.

Epic Adult Hijackers and My Fondness for Accidental Homicide

"Dancing at discos
Eating cheese on toast"

I dyed my hair bright light red... Love it. I decided that I want to move out of the Springs and maybe even out of this state. Everything looks the same, now and nothing is really new. So iI wanna pick up and leave.

I've been seeing my life in song.
Do you know how weird that is...? Having some random vocalist who seems to have written out your life story and sold records for it. I feel kinda special about it, but that is beside the point.

I've been working on art and crap in secret. I haven't been on in forever so I thought that Id just let you guys know... I'm alive. Tea and biscuits have been my only company during these times. I'm doing something stupid again. Letting something happen again, so soon after another... well something. Though it seems like this could be good.

I'm leaving on a jet plane... eventually. It will be good for me, and you. You just don't know it. I wanna come and nurse you back to health.. Outfit and all, but I don't think you'd let me. I want to dye my hair back to black... Get more inking, but they shall have purpose I swear to you. my ears are tender from gauging and my heart is heavy an yet as light as a cloud.

I want you, exactly like I used to...

You know that I could use somebody, someone like you. Off in the night while you live it up, I'm off to sleep. Waging wars to shake the poet and the beat...
I hope its gonna make you notice, I hope its gonna make you notice... Someone like me.

He seems to notice me, which confuses me. Does that mean there is some hope?
I don't know but I will try and find the positive in whatever happens.

I'm full of contradictions.

Love, peace, and chicken grease ~
Pixie Tom