oh no you don't. You're not giving up while I'm still here.

Don't make me come there and pull your ass out of bed. I don't have cell phone service at my house which is why I haven't called. I have to go out to call you. I will go out tonight even if I have to drive down the street and park! I loves you hunny!

*big hugs*

I'd have said being out and active should help, distractions are always good. But maybe it's not working.

I also know what it is not to be able to be distracted at the same time. What hurts will hurt. Totally need to go watch a movie eat lunch and bullshit for hours.

How do I do it??? I might ask you the same.

For me, in short, I credit deep breathing exercises (I'll share more info if you're interested) at awakening and prior to sleep, and a modified version of TM I've morphed from writings of my great great uncle (or something like that - not sure of exact genealogy), Ralph Waldo Emerson.

I'm a recovering smoker, and worked with asbestos for nearly four years.

My last PFTs (Pulmonary Function Tests) - and I am certified as a respiratory tech and did the test myself while calibrating the equipment, so I can attest to the accuracy - showed I have 115 to 125% of what's expected for a healthy white male of my age & height.

This, too, I credit to the breathing exercise routine I developed. It requires 10 minutes or so in the morning and the same at hs (bedtime). Sounds silly, I know, but I had a stroke in '97 and was on several blood pressure meds for years until I perservered and now take none. Again, I credit the breathing.

When I died a couple years ago from a sudden onset bee venom allergy on Super Bowl Sunday, I was revived 9 minutes from when I realized I was going into anaphylaxis and would die - as my throat closed, I took a deep breat and held it - I 've held it for nearly 6 minutes once when I timed it - they revived my 9 minutes after I was gone. Again, I credit not myself, but the breathing exercises.

That's mostly how I do it. Plus a (not inheritied, but developed) high tolerance for pain.

Keep me abreast (hehe - I said "a breast") of developments in your Life.

im sorry u r feeling so sad, my bf always says to me, "dont be sad, be the other way" and it ends up making me smile. no matter how bad things may be, know that you have friends that care about you. even if i have never met you in person, i do care for many of the people i have come in contact with, and i hope u r ok. i know u miss the boy, but sometimes things just work out in a weird way. be happy

oh hunny believe me, you are SO on my list of things to do...I mean people to visit..lol

you WILL feel better :

((hug))