IPOD
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They can wake up in the morning and make a pact with themselves to be happy, make someone smile, and yet they STILL will have bad things happen. They have that continual "rain cloud" hanging over their head.
Sometimes it doesnt matter how positive someone can be, it still continues to figuratively rain on them.
I was sent a beautiful message this morning that came at a very necessary time in my life. Here is a small part from that message that came with a friend request:
"When I realized the magnitude of your own personal struggles, I was touched all the more.
You've really made my day (which has been a particularly painful one) with the attitude, energy, and empowerment you exude. I wanted to thank you for that... "
This person had no way of knowing that this message came at a time when I was about to actually give up. I didnt FEEL strong. I didnt FEEL like i have a positive attitude. I didnt FEEL any positive energy. Now thanks to my new friend NeoPop and spooky520 I feel almost recharged and ready to take on what is going to be the most difficult time I have had in many many years. So thanks you to them both. They both suffer and yes sometimes its not always easy to be "nice" and "diplomatic" but they realize this and come back all the more wiser for it!
What brought all this on? This.
So unless a laptop falls out of the sky I will probably not be on hardly at all once i have surgery. My mom doesnt have a computer and I am gonna have to move in with her. I am a genius on crutches (I even went to a concert on crutches! LOL) and she is NOT! Arthritis in her hands arms and back make crutches almost impossible. I can FLY up and down stairs almost like they are a part of me! ahahahahaha
My computer is a desktop and with all my money going out for my shoot and things that others needed this week (no Heroine NOT you doll! 
) money is preventing me from buying a laptop. That plus bad credit!
So...if I dont get back to you right away please please please be patient. I will hopefully be able to borrow Jakeanuggets laptop once in awhile but not having a way to reach the outside world is going to make my healing slower. I know thats weird but smiling helps the healing process and this place makes me smile.
Sorry this is so long.....I had a lot to say.
I love you all so much. if you have my number, txt me BEFORE 9 my time. I will have my cell phone always!
Pisces
I got this from a friend of mine the other day...she makes me smile!
You made me happy too love!! 
JUL 12, 2008 06:37 AM
Well, it would hardly be so long... if so much of it wasn't directed at making me blush, and go, "Aawwww".
I just got a fortune cookie that reads, "No tap dancing for a little while". I think it was really meant for you.
Oh! listen to this; a pic I had found in someone's pix folder... somewhere, was perfect inspiration for a distressed painted deck design. It's going to a local good guy, Mike, of Blac-n-Blu Skateboards (great jewelery & boutique fare), who went bat-shit crazy from the photo I had emailed him of the painted deck. I still have a few touches to complete it. ...OK, so for some reason, after bumping into him around some people in common, I'm writing to The Boss, and he gets back to me that it's Beau, who he lives with him; in that photo. Shit, I know I'm distracted, but I don't know how I ever missed seeing that Coma White set of hers. Now, I'm told that she has it on her myspace page, which isn't exactly a bad thing. She credited me, and put a link to my website there (sorely in need of updating), which was sweet. Now I must get my ass in gear on that chore. The payoff is... (which is always good to hear where I'm from, because that means I'm wrapping it up soon) Mike is putting me together with Spencer, of Swollen Skateboards, very sweet.
You too. {Shit, I really almost typo'd that: "You tool", which would NOT have been funny... until we sorted that. Hah... Thanks for the karma infusion. Invigorating! -'' /-'
Have a peek at a large drawing/painting on board, only partly done. It's Hopeful, ValGal, shot by her friend, Amilie (and vice versa) They are lots of fun!
