Chapter 03
Current mood: blank
Once again I'm overwhelmed;
these feelings I don't understand.
I'm helpless and I sill Hurt;
you apparently have the upper hand.
Why did you make such choices?
How could my life have been?
I'm jealous and consumed wih anger;
could these feelings be a sin?
As I follow in your footsteps;
I sit and wonder why???
Addiction has now become my problem;
to think that this is what made me cry!
As I take a much needed sober look;
at the life I'd like to live;
Since I'd prefer sucess to addiction...
An honest effort I will Give.
Frustrating as Hell to start over;
at twENTy FivE YEARS Of agE.
aLTHOUGH i KNOW tHAT i SHALL SUCEED...
IT's stILl HArD To turn the Page!
~~~~~~Jason"Pigrease"Pegues03~~~~~~
Current mood: blank
Once again I'm overwhelmed;
these feelings I don't understand.
I'm helpless and I sill Hurt;
you apparently have the upper hand.
Why did you make such choices?
How could my life have been?
I'm jealous and consumed wih anger;
could these feelings be a sin?
As I follow in your footsteps;
I sit and wonder why???
Addiction has now become my problem;
to think that this is what made me cry!
As I take a much needed sober look;
at the life I'd like to live;
Since I'd prefer sucess to addiction...
An honest effort I will Give.
Frustrating as Hell to start over;
at twENTy FivE YEARS Of agE.
aLTHOUGH i KNOW tHAT i SHALL SUCEED...
IT's stILl HArD To turn the Page!
~~~~~~Jason"Pigrease"Pegues03~~~~~~
Guardian Angel
Current mood: annoyed
Last night I saw an Angel:
she had a tale to tell.
Her eyes were Sunken and Drawn:
she looked a little Pale.
Her body was Bruised and Battered:
her wings were Ripped and Torn.
She hardly had the strength to walk:
She looked so Tired and Worn.
Angel I asked how could this be?
she turned and smiled and said to me.
"These Bruises are from shielding;
in times both Dire and Ill.
The drinking and the drugs you've used...
I've often paid the bill.
You see what this has done to me;
my Wings are Ripped and Torn.
How many times I've saved you;
from the evil that you've scorned.
These Cuts and Scars are all that's left...
of Broken Dreams Destroyed.
So many times you've made me;
wish that I was Un-Employed.
I hope that you will wake up;
and break out of your shell.
Stop living your life so Corrupt;
and realize that you have a Tale to Tell!"
Current mood: annoyed
Last night I saw an Angel:
she had a tale to tell.
Her eyes were Sunken and Drawn:
she looked a little Pale.
Her body was Bruised and Battered:
her wings were Ripped and Torn.
She hardly had the strength to walk:
She looked so Tired and Worn.
Angel I asked how could this be?
she turned and smiled and said to me.
"These Bruises are from shielding;
in times both Dire and Ill.
The drinking and the drugs you've used...
I've often paid the bill.
You see what this has done to me;
my Wings are Ripped and Torn.
How many times I've saved you;
from the evil that you've scorned.
These Cuts and Scars are all that's left...
of Broken Dreams Destroyed.
So many times you've made me;
wish that I was Un-Employed.
I hope that you will wake up;
and break out of your shell.
Stop living your life so Corrupt;
and realize that you have a Tale to Tell!"
~~Your First Dozen Roses~~
Current mood: mischievous
Close your eyes for a minute;
let me drive your Imagination Wild.
As I presesnt you with the Roses....
you deserve for your smile.
As you follow me to the bathroom;
you are Overwhelmed by a Scent.
It's the Aroma of Roses;
so Sweet and so Pure.
A Warm Bath Engulfed by Rose Peddals;
for your Heart I'm the Cure.
By the light of Candles;
I watch you slowly Undress.
As you slide into your Temple;
I start massaging away your stress.
Rubbing on your shoulders;
I must taste your neck...
I make my way South;
Now stopping at your Breasts.
As my tongue Circles your Nipples;
you too are becoming Aroused.
I can't stop from Kissing and Nibbling;
until you Command me to "Keep Heading Down".
I enjoy the softness of your Stomach;
while searching for your Hidden Treasure.
My Tongue is Darting and Exploring;
as your moans Verify Pleasure.
You start Grinding your Hips;
screaming out "Please Don't Stop".
Your Body Tenses then you Shudder;
we bring such Ecstasy to Each Other!!!
Current mood: mischievous
Close your eyes for a minute;
let me drive your Imagination Wild.
As I presesnt you with the Roses....
you deserve for your smile.
As you follow me to the bathroom;
you are Overwhelmed by a Scent.
It's the Aroma of Roses;
so Sweet and so Pure.
A Warm Bath Engulfed by Rose Peddals;
for your Heart I'm the Cure.
By the light of Candles;
I watch you slowly Undress.
As you slide into your Temple;
I start massaging away your stress.
Rubbing on your shoulders;
I must taste your neck...
I make my way South;
Now stopping at your Breasts.
As my tongue Circles your Nipples;
you too are becoming Aroused.
I can't stop from Kissing and Nibbling;
until you Command me to "Keep Heading Down".
I enjoy the softness of your Stomach;
while searching for your Hidden Treasure.
My Tongue is Darting and Exploring;
as your moans Verify Pleasure.
You start Grinding your Hips;
screaming out "Please Don't Stop".
Your Body Tenses then you Shudder;
we bring such Ecstasy to Each Other!!!
~ Reflections 04 ~
I can hardly count the ways;
that I miss you in my life.
Just how much would it take;
to make everything allright?
Far too long it has taken;
to reminisce upon you.
I never lost love...
just drifted my own way.
Did I sacrifice too much?
what exactly did I gain?
Was it worth all the suffering?
am I willing to change?
A future only I can influence;
by taking 0ne step at a time.
Choosing instant gratification over happiness...
when my life is filled with Crime.
The friends that I have lost;
the friends that I have gained;
If I had it all 2 do over...
would I be the same???
-Jason"Pigrease"Pegues 04
I can hardly count the ways;
that I miss you in my life.
Just how much would it take;
to make everything allright?
Far too long it has taken;
to reminisce upon you.
I never lost love...
just drifted my own way.
Did I sacrifice too much?
what exactly did I gain?
Was it worth all the suffering?
am I willing to change?
A future only I can influence;
by taking 0ne step at a time.
Choosing instant gratification over happiness...
when my life is filled with Crime.
The friends that I have lost;
the friends that I have gained;
If I had it all 2 do over...
would I be the same???
-Jason"Pigrease"Pegues 04
Nothing-ness
Please don't be bitter 2 me
what have I thought'''
Our actions are becoming...
like a programmed robot
Nothing-ness
the impact caught you all off guard
Me for You.
=you're not alone.
Now I have nothing but Time;
to be alone again.
Sorry about your luck;
be Happy ...
You are the destroyer of Worlds!
you inspire me
motivate me
hate me
but, You want me.
Just to make me yours...
You did sacrifice my heart...
Again I shaal wallow;
in the Muddy Waters of L0ve.
Step-by-Step
almost back to # 0ne;
Steadily gaining ground.
never anticipated;
The pain I have Endured.
again I watch it pass;
As I steadily begin to creep...
Deeper inside of you!
Inpiiration...
located behind;
At an awkward pace;
or is it just an awkward place?
Nothing-ness...
I've taken you up on your offer;
I can...
Rock solid is what I am!
Nothing-ness!
--Jason"Pigrease"Pegues 15Nov.04--nullNothing-ness
Please don't be bitter 2 me
what have I thought'''
Our actions are becoming...
like a programmed robot
Nothing-ness
the impact caught you all off guard
Me for You.
=you're not alone.
Now I have nothing but Time;
to be alone again.
Sorry about your luck;
be Happy ...
You are the destroyer of Worlds!
you inspire me
motivate me
hate me
but, You want me.
Just to make me yours...
You did sacrifice my heart...
Again I shaal wallow;
in the Muddy Waters of L0ve.
Step-by-Step
almost back to # 0ne;
Steadily gaining ground.
never anticipated;
The pain I have Endured.
again I watch it pass;
As I steadily begin to creep...
Deeper inside of you!
Inpiiration...
located behind;
At an awkward pace;
or is it just an awkward place?
Nothing-ness...
I've taken you up on your offer;
I can...
Rock solid is what I am!
Nothing-ness!
--Jason"Pigrease"Pegues 15Nov.04--nullNothing-ness
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