Well, the medication adjustment really isn't helping me so far. Doctor said to give it more time. I don't feel like it really is helping at all. I am still freaking out at work and ready to quit on a daily basis. I have my second therapy appointment tomorrow morning. I was told to keep a journal of my anxiety and depression and how I came down from my episodes... Haven't done it because I have no idea what I am supposed to write down.

Took the kids to the park on Sunday night to let them run off some energy and I feel they had a good time. You could definitely tell a difference from the time we got there to the time we left. They were exhausted. Took some pictures and I tried going to manual focus but I guess because I have glasses I have to rely on auto focus. All the pictures I took in manual where focused on the wrong thing. So I went to auto and got lots of better pictures.




Unfortunately my daughter was having so much fun that I couldn't get a picture of here with her mouth shut.

Had a great storm last night but unfortunately it didn't last long. I stood out in the storm and was blown around and got pretty soaked. It was awesome! They it stopped and I was kind sad about that. I took some pictures after the storm and they look kinda neat...

Well I had better get back to my laundry... It's not going to wash itself.

Well even with my new Meds I am still fighting demons constantly. Anxiety is down but the Depression is way up and not showing signs of slowing down.

As promised... Picture with my new glasses!

Well it has been awhile since I have been on here. Things have definitely been interesting.
Work is getting hectic. Boss thinks that I should be able to work alone ALL day with my anxiety. Not a good idea. Went to the Doctors yesterday and got my meds adjusted and so hopefully it will get better. He has told me I need to get out and exercise more. So I was told to take long walks (No less than 4 miles) 4 times a week and then do actual exercise 3 times a week. Guess I get out the good old Wii Fit again. Hard to stick to it when I get so bored doing it alone.

I broke my glasses when I was at work a few days ago and had to resort to an older pair. I went an got my eye exam and a new prescription yesterday and my new pair will be in on the 22nd if not sooner. I will try and post some pictures when I get the new ones in.

WOW I haven't been on here in a long time. Been pretty busy with work.
Went on a camp out with Andi and had a great time.



Didnt take many pictures due to light and booze. lol
Hope everyone is doing well!

Just an update on the progress of my room.
(I don't know why it's sideways. I recorded it twice and alway turns sideways )

Well I have been playing with my up's and down's! I kicked it all to the curb and decided to take my Daughter and my Niece & Nephew to take some pictures. Here are my favorite ones:

Been looking around online for some photography work books to get myself back on top but I haven't been having much luck. I found some on Amazon to pay for but I don't have the money for them. I figure if I could find some workbooks I might figure out what I need to do. I am lost and don't know where to find the help to get my umph back.

If anyone knows where I can go to find some I would love to try and get this train back on track.

In the need of communication... Just looking for people to Text or Email with.
Drop me a line if anyone is interested!

Well my heart has been broken so many time this weekend. Things I thought were real aren't. People I care deeply for have stabbed me in the back. So much shit hitting me at once and I don't know how to deal with it. I feel a depression coming on but I refuse to let it. I go to work tomorrow for a long day. 10 - 8. it sucks but it will help keep my mind off things.

Here's to things getting better!