Member: Pheme

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JANUARY 31, 2010 @ 05:53 AM


He's a shit but here's the thing...
For four years he was the first thing I though about in the morning & the last thing I thought about before I fell asleep and he still is.
I wish I could just turn it off & make it stop but I can't.
Some hours pass by just fine and some drag so slowly.

I really hurt and I feel so stupid and so humiliated.
I wish he didn't have that power of me but he does right now.
I need time.
I need strength.

I need to step believing in my heart that I need him.

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Ticktockman

Ticktockman

Durham, NC
April 2006

JAN 31, 2010 07:14 AM

Yeah, that sort of feeling is awful, and time and separation are the only cures. Rationality does nothing -- damn frustrating it is.

-TTm

aldremech

aldremech

Tucson, AZ
July 2006

JAN 31, 2010 07:55 AM

I am so sorry you are hurting. I am sorry that he lied and betrayed everything you thought you had. I am so sorry that his selfishness is making you suffer. I wish I could hit him really really hard.

Texaspsych

Texaspsych

San Antonio, TX
July 2005

JAN 31, 2010 08:05 AM

I am sorry honey. That never feels good. This whole heart thing sure does suck at times. It is one of those things that doesn't allow you to really just wake up one morning and say ok I am done. It would be nice if it was. I just want to say, take care of yourself during this time. Don't get so wrapped up that you for get about you honey.

LaceyK

LaceyK

Tarrytown, NY
October 2005

JAN 31, 2010 09:40 AM

Time is the worse part
One thing o used to do was literally picture him stomping on my heart to get it to stop feeling for him.

It is hard when who we loved isnt who we thought
It is like your brain can't believe they are the same person

Rhanarose

Rhanarose

Troy, MI
February 2005

JAN 31, 2010 10:12 AM

I know exactly how you feel - and I know how hard it is to let go................
frown

lilli

lilli

I'm lost
January 2006

JAN 31, 2010 04:10 PM

*hearthug*

hentzau

hentzau

Chicago, IL
February 2005

JAN 31, 2010 07:07 PM

Having been on the receiving end of your advice, knowing how direct and honest it was, if you turned the mirror on yourself and tried to advise yourself in this case, what do you think you would say?

Excuse the horrible run-on sentence there. And I'm really sorry you have to be going through this. You really do deserve better, darlin.

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