I dont know why my shit hasn't expired....they said the card was canceled....and it was....I did just get an e-mail saying if i didnt want a lapse in my service to pay.

Ive met enough rad people on this site anyways.

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you ever feel like an octagon in a world of circles? Or even pentagons? Im a little rough around the edges but not too rough.

Its funny being an Agriculture major. Ive been here since spring of '06 and I only hang out with one person from my department. Which is funny because I know a lot I mean a fucking lot of people in this town. I dont want to "fit in" with them anyways. Ill wear my Bad Religion shirt till the holes get too big and have a fist full of flowers in my back pocket and soil in my nails and pores.


this song is sexy, esp since gwen stephani when she was hot sings this

(per request from Beau, Paix's Myspace)

I dont think Im going to renew my acct so this is my last post. It was rad meeting you people and those of you that have my number should obviously keep in contact..

heres my first post from a year ago!

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the dark of it......


euphoria, ive always wonderd what thats like. Instead i exist, kinda. I work, eat, drink and sleep. I just have to do what i have to do. No ones gonna live my life right? Thats why i go to school full time with 4 labs, i have two jobs that work me 45 hours a week, an online radio show (fridays 7-10 KcscRadio ), and an internship with a county wide environmental non-profitt). Not to mention how much i love going out. God I drink a lot of beer. Whatev...

So about me...god...i bleed in rhythm, i love music only a little more than i love getting involved. I am one of the most compassionate persons you will ever meet. Everything deserves to be heard. I love being proved wrong. That just means I learn something new.

I love plants. Its hard for you to see me and not see a plant in my pocket and a smile on my face. Im a dirty little boy like that. Im actually an agriculture major at my local college and enjoy every minute of it. I love to dance (mostly because i always have to be moving) especially to ska. I love hot showers even if it has to be on a hot day. I dont bitch. The closest thing is my rants I go on if you ask me to talk about anything in a meaningful conversation.

Right now I have three piercings. Two labret and a frenum (I would like to use the frenum more). I have five tattoos which will soon turn to 3 once I get them connected. They all mean a lot to me. My hair is always something creative. If you ever meet me in person you'll realise how much of an individual I am. Im not another number, or some lame a punk or scenester.

Im pretty much a hopeless in a sense that i cant be without companionship. Im the type of person that if you give me a 9 I'll give you a 10 back. I always need someone to pick up when i call. EllieEn is pretty much my best friend. We're in a weird state right know. Shes afraid of me, not in a bad way. Just what i can offer her. Definately something shes not ready for, maybe Im not ready for it either. What ever our situation is right now we can only handle a long distance relationship even though she only lives 7 blocks away.

The closest the to euphoria is my hands in her hair.

I love my life (it can always be better though)

I love to be naked, I need a photographer....


my new theme song....
Big D and The Kids Table - Shining On



I just realized I left my favorite hat at the club last night
Which sickened me right off 'cause I
Had that cap since real-real small
Then find out just right now
That my main squeeze went through my phone
Oooo
So I guess I'm single now
Imagine that

So I sneak right on The T
The conductor sees me
He's kicking me right off with a frown
I grab my bag and I walk on
Comm. Ave., I hit up Blanchard's
They sell cheap wine, I got six bucks
Bag rip, wine smash
Drink it up avoid the glass

But I can't stop from just smiling
When that damn sun is shining on
Hell, It's just
Shining down all over me
No, I can't help but just smile
While that damn sun is shining on
Dang it's just shining down
Down over me

So now I call up my friend
'Cause his girl must be bored, 'cause
She's been spreading rumors about me
That I robbed her party, but I never had
I pull out my little disc man
I bought from a crackhead down in Reno
But my Melt-Ba-na-na CD
Is all scratched up

I think it's stupid all the people who are moaning
Yeah moaning on
While the sun is shining down
On our city streets
Even all the things people say
Naw, ain't affecting me
Not when that damn sun
Is shining down over me

Shining down on me
Born to just never care [x3]
About the stupid things
People moan everyday

So later on I meet Johnny Trouble
At a bar called Shay's, a spit from Charlie's
We sit outside talking 'bout girls
How they're loons but we like them anyway
No money for pints at the bar
We bring a backpack full of Pabst
Oooo
Under the table we fill our glass

So me and Johnny just sit outside
Warmed by that summer night
While those city stars are shining
Down on our streets
And I can't help from just smiling
While those damn stars are shining down
Yeah those stars are shining
Over our city streets

No, I won't be caught moaning
Not when light is still shining down
And me and Johnny
Warmed by that damn summer heat
And I can't stop from just smiling
When those damn stars are shining on
Yeah, those stars are shining
Over our city streets

Can you imagine that?

bigger is not always better...she said she felt like this last night.



or heres a shorter version...



Im also getting tired of those "just friends" talks what turn into me getting uber detached and someone getting butthurt. Ive definitely learned not to expect anything from anyone. Ever....

green is the new red...



remember this band?

everyone thinks they know something about everything. Its all hot air blowing straight out of their asses. It seems like people stop questioning when they become comfortable.

Environmentalists hide this better than anyone else.

The death of environmentalism.

Im getting turned off to them...

Im not a political party or some waypoint on a scale that reads left to right.




You were there
down by the water on that ambush night
when all the 'CRASS' punks
refused to fight
Instead too many tithed into the shooting star
trading their lives in for the glamour of tar
When I found out all my heroes are just parasites
where are the good people
compromised by the road we have to follow

Get Out Get Out Get Out
and get away
there's no one left who can make you stay
the city's making money barricading the view
polluting our homes
and suffocating you

I found out all my heroes are just parasites
where are the good people
compromised by the war we call survival

If you don't do it
who fucking will?

I found out all my heroes are just parasites
where are the good people
compromised by the road we have to follow

I found out all my heroes are just parasites
we are the good people
compromised by the war we call survival

survival
hey hey hey
survival
hey hey hey
survival
hey hey hey

fuck
you

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im gonna drink a martini and hug a tree tonight

/end transmission

i think I just want to lay nake in bed today and watch zombie movies

Ive been going out too much and meeting too many cool people. My life is soooooooo rough.


oh and yes thats 2 posters of abbiss on my wall, shes a cutie


ps will some one pleeeeease come up here and shoot a brother? I want to get naked in public and take pitchas to prove it

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music...

I love my life. OK busy as fuck, but nonetheless still amazing.. i have a lot to talk about but Im kinda drunk and tired. Tootooloo

ps I love ya'll

peep the Golden Rule enviros and traditionalists seem to loose sight of what theyre really taught