Obviously not one for writing but felt the urge to question my grasp on reality once again. I can only assume that this was brought on by four days in the west Texas desert city of Odessa. 8 hours per day in a conference room doing some very exhaustive mathmatical equations did not help either... Not complaining mind you, it comes with a very healthy pay increase and a company truck and for that I will gladly suffer the torment. If they would pay me what I think I am worth I could retire after only one day.

The voices in my head tell me that I am not insane, it is only my imagination and I believe them... They are my friends and would not lie to me.

LIFE IS GREAT ENJOY IT before someone comes along and screws it up again, (note to self).

Brain dead, I am. My sleep pattern is out of balance, therefore so is the rest of my body. I sit here pondering existence, (trying to ponder), having many philosophical sketches pass before my eyes at mind numbing speed, unable to grasp one for further ponderance. So is the way of sleep deprivation.
Pardon the incoherent ramblings of my neighbor in the other hemisphere, (the other side of the brain is like the dark side of the moon), I am back for another round of random thought... Watched Schindlers List, (again), this morning at 4am. Began analyzing the progress and decline of the human state. The human species has made amazing strides in the analysis and understanding of themselves and the world around them, but unfortunately have forgotten how to apply this progress to daily life. Instead of improving upon "what was", the species has totally changed the picture, forgetting wisdoms learned in the past. Schindler's List is a very thought provoking picture. It is a shame that other people do not think like me,,,, if they did, then someone could explain me to me!!!
Point... Is a tree really a tree
or... is that just what it seems to be
Perhapse... it is a sponge soaking up life's necter
providing for me... a secure place to see
possibly... if I can ponder the essence of me
WOW, Now that is random, I really should go to bed...Happy Day

What dreary weather, It's 15F colder than the average for this time of year,,, So much for global warming. Winter weather brings me to a depressed state of mind; this would not be so bad if it were snowing but it is very gray and colorless. Weather such as this seems to drain the life out of things. I suppose I need a new book to sink myself into so I do not spend so much time thinking about the current state of affairs. On a lighter note, my son killed his first deer this past weekend. This may upset some patrons of this venue, but I will not apologize for being carniverous or for teaching my son how to avail himself of natures gifts. Let me ease your disgust some by informing you of my philosophical ideology on the use of nature's gifts. I follow the Native American beliefs; never harvest than you need so that there will always be plenty, always be thankful for what nature gives you. I am not a trophy hunter, I hunt for food only. Hopefully he can get another deer or wild hog this weekend which would give us enough meat to last until spring. OK enough explanations already! That is even more depressing than the weather.. I must get some sleep so I can survive work tonight

Happy day, I finally managed to update my profile, like that is really important!!! Wow I have been gone sooo long, I don't have much time since I finally became employed again. Work really sucks, I was having so much fun being unemployed; someone should pay me to be unemployed. As you can tell by my ramblings, my mental state is questionable today.