Not sure who reactivated my account but thanks to whomever it was. i will enjoy =)

i was wonder if anyone thinks its ok to hold a grudge or hate somebody for as long as that person is alive?

HELLO. HI. ..............IS THERE ANYONE OUT THERE THAT HAS A CHILD ,BUT IS NOT ALLOWED TO SEE THEM ? IF SO I WOULD LIKE TO HAVE A CHAT WIHT YOU..


GOOD DAY TO YOU ALL

OK, HOW IS IT THAT BEING SINGLE SUCKS,,, I ALWAYS HEAR ABOUT HOW FUN IT IS TO BE SINGLE,,,,WELL WRONG.,, IVE BEEN SINGLE SINCE MAY WHEN THAT FUCKING BITCH LEFT ME, AND WHAT ,, I HAVENT GONE ON ONE DATE, I HAVENT HAD SEX , I HAVENT EVEN MADE ANY FRIENDS
WTF..



BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH BLAH


LIFE SUCKS

hi, guys , im back after taking a break, im still trying to deal with stuff from the break up but im getting better,,, im still not so sure anyone reads this but maybe they do so if you ever wanna drop a line free.

later

SO MY FIANCE LEFT ME. I FEEL HORRIBLE, IM ALONE AND IM NEVER GOING TO BE HAPPY AGAIN

I FEEL SO HOPELESS, IM CRYING AS IM WRITING THIS, BETWEEN THIS WHOLE TAKING TIME APART THING AND WORK IM WORN SO THIN, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO,

OMG, I SUCH A FUCKING MESS, LAST NIGHT ME AND JENN GOT INTO IT AND NOW SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE NEEDS TIME APART. MY WORLD CAME TUMBLING DOWN. MY HEART BROKE, I HAD TO SLEEP ALONE LAST NIGHT AND WAKE UP JUST THE SAME, I DONT KNOW HOW I CAN DO THIS. I HAVE NO ENERGY, AND I CRIED ALL LAST NIGHT. I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THE HELL IM SUPPOSED TO DO, THE WAY I SEE IT SINCE I DONT HAVE JENN OR ASSIA TO COME HOME TO, IM JUST GONNA GO TO WORK COME HOME AND SLEEP AND REPEAT. IM SO DEVISTATED , SOME PLEASE HELP ME, I FEEL SO ALONE

HELLO. YES IM STILL ALIVE. YES IM STILL SAD, AND INSECURE AND SCARED AND EVERYTHING ELSE THAT COMES WITH.


LATER

SORRY I HAVENT WROTE IN A WHILE, IVE BEEN GOING THROUGH SOME SHIT.LAST FRIDAY MY LADY TOOK A TRIP TO CLEAR HER HEAD BEFORE WE GOT MARRIED. WELL GO AND PICK HER UP AT THE AIRPORT AND THE NEXT DAY SHE STARTS TO GET THIS PAIN IN HER STOMACHE LIKE SHE ALWAYS GETS WHEN SHE'S WORRIED ABOUT SOMETHING,( SHE ALWAYS WORRYS ABOUT SOMETHING) ANY WAY THIS IS AT FOUR IN THE MORNING ON MONDAY,WELL I ASK AND SHE SAYS THAT NOTHING IS BOTHERING HER BUT IM NOT STUPID SO I START TO GET A LITTLE INSECURE AND THEN I ASK IF SHE CHEATED ON ME WHILE SHE WAS AWAY AND SHE GOT REAL QUIET, AND SO I START FREAKING OUT, THEN I ASKER HER AGAIN AND SHE STAYS QUIET AGAIN , SO I DEMANDED THAT SHE ANSWER AND SHE REPLYS WELL IM NOT SAYING ANYTHING DOESNT THAT GIVE YOU YOUR ANSWER. AND THATS WHEN MY FUCKING HEART RIPPED IN TWO AND PART OF MY SOUL WAS TAKEN. AND I MEAN THIS , I FEEL SO SAD AND UNWHOLE AND I AM SO NUMB INSIDE I DONT KNOW WHAT FEEL, I THINK IM A GOOD JUDGE OF CHARACTER AND EVERYTHING THAT SHE TOLD ME AND THE REMORSE I SEE IN HER TELLS ME THAT IT WAS TRULLY A MISTAKE, BUT I AM SO HURT BY THIS. WE HAVE BEEN TOGETHER FOUR YEARS AND I STILL LOVE HER VERY MUCH AND I WANT TO WORK IT OUT AND SHE DOES TOO, BUT HOW DO YOU WORK SOMETHING OUT LIKE THAT, I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START, THIS FUCKING SUCKS TO THE POWER OF ONE TRILLION.I AM SO SAD, SOMEONE PLEASE GIVE ME SOME ADVICE , MY MIND IS MY WORST EMEMY AND IM LOCKED IN ITS PRISON AND ALL I DO AT WORK IS SIT THERE AND THINK ABOUT EVERY THING AND IT EATS ME AWAY.PLEAS HELP , I SO WANT TO MOVE ON WITH HER AND START THE BEGINING OF OUR FUTURE ,WHICH MEANS I NEED TO GET PASSED THIS AND I DONT KNOW HOW TO START.



I DONT KNOW HOW TO START TRUSTING HER AGAIN SO PLEASE HELP AND PLEASE BE KIND, I AM FRAGILE.






AND P.S FROM HEARING HER STORY OF HOW IT HAPPEND, IT WAS PARTLY HER FAULT BECAUSE SHE ALOWED IT AND THE OTHER HALF SHE WAS SO DUPED BY THIS FUCKING CON MAN. AND SHE SEEMS SINCERE WHEN SHE TOLD ME WHAT HAPPEND. AND FROM WHAT SHE TOLD ME HE PRETTY MUCH FUCKED HER WHILE SHE LAID THERE AND CRIED AND AS SOON AS HE WAS DONE SHE KICKED HIM OUT OF THE ROOM. AND WHEN I ASK SHE TELLS ME ANYTHING AND EVERY THING ABOUT WHAT HAPPEND WITH OUT HESITATION SO DOESNT THAT PARTLY SAY THAT SHE IS REMORSEFUL ABOUT IT AND SHE ALSO IS WILLING TO DO ANY THING AND EVERY THING TO FIX OUR PROBLEM AND MOVE ON.






IM SORRY FOR RANTING AGAIN



SO PLEASE HELP OUT AND BE KIND, PRETTY PLEASE