So I talked to a detective today because my best friend died 5 days ago yet they still have not released his body so we could bury him. I was told that there was foul play in his death. They think he was poisoned or robbed by someone he knew. This is not cool! I should find out tomorrow what's up. 
I just got home from where I found my best friend dead of a heart attack. Wasn't prepared for finding him laying face down on the floor of his kitchen. He was just at my house. He didn't show up for work today and didn't return any of my texts so I got off work and went to check on him. He was a very responsible person so I knew something was wrong. It was. He was cooking breakfast, had a heart attack and fell out right there in the kitchen. I haven't shed a tear yet. I think I am in shock. Feeling very empty right now. He lived alone and didn't have anyone to call for help. I live alone. Doesn't make me feel very good at all. Ross Molino was a great man and will be missed deeply. RIP my friend, you deserve do much more. 
Thank you SG!!!! I don't expect anyone to really read this but I have to say thank you. Thank you for starting this site, which I have been a member of off and on since 2005. Every single day I come across another flawless display of beauty with pierced and tatted up skin. These gorgeous women are the only thing that gets me thru some of my days. I am amazed every time i open up the SG page and find another gorgeous faced, perfect bodied, incredible skinned, sexy ass woman. All I can say is Thank You, Thank You, Thank You and I hope one day that I will be cool enough to attract a woman half as beautiful and as sexy as the ones I see every day on SG. May all Suicide Girls get their every wish! xoxo 
So I have been in south Florida for almost a year now and I cant find a half way decent woman anywhere! I just want to hang out, get some good food, smoke some pot and go to the beach but it seems every woman i meet wants a frickin billionaire! I dont get it. Are there any real women, or even people for that matter, down here in Florida? How is it that everything down here is perfect except for the massive amount of fucked up, piece of shit people who all want what you can do for them instead of getting to know who you really are?
I don't ever post blogs but I have came to a realization and I want to know if I have lost my mind or not. Jm 39, don't have children, got divorced a few years ago and been dating but nothing serious since. I recently left my good job where I was part business owner working 60 hrs a week to move to Miami Florida and live on the beach for awhile. I have been here now for 5 months and although I got a job making as much $ as I was back home and Im only working 30 hrs a week plus the fact that I live on the beach...I have still had a very difficult time. Then today I thought...what am so upset about? I'm making great $, I live on the beach, I don't have a girlfriend or kids. Just me and my 2 snakes. What I am I supposed to be doing? Getting a house so j can have bills? Go back to school so I can have bills? I own my place, I own my truck. So I think I have come to the conclusion that I'm good with what I'm doing. I don't need to have a 60 hr a week job with a house and a wife and kids and 2 dogs and 2 cats. I go out when I want, I buy what I want, I go where I want and I moved down here for the beach and I get the beach everyday. So have I completely lost my mind? My responsibilities have been almost completely eliminated by quiting my job back home and moving here yet I have felt guilty that I am making just as much $ yet working half the hours with almost no responsibilities. Am I supposed to try and get a better job so I can get another house so I can have a bunch of bills and worries or is it ok to live on the beach in my little paid for condo, party when I want, eat when I want, go to the beach when I want and not have any real stress at 39 years old?
so i have decided to move into my condo in Hollywood, fl. in august and get out of Tennessee for a while. I hope i can meet some cool people down there.
i am sorry to even be writing this but if anyone can give me any advise about what i am dealing with i think it would be the people on here. i am a perpetually happy person until 6 months ago. for the first time in my life, right now, i am shaking and i am having some very confusing, anger filled emotions and i feel like i dont know how i am going to get thru the night. i have been stabbed in the back by my best friend/lover. i am 37 yrs old and i have been in 4 very long relationships but i have never felt about anyone like i did my last girl. the heart that i had left has been completely torn from my chest and my soul feels like it was set on fire and i dont want to be here and deal with this anymore. i dont want tomorrow to get here because i have to wake up and think about this again. i am so fucking hurt. i have never felt like this before and i cannot take it. i am everyone of my friends "rock". i am always there to take the shirt off of my back for anyone and the 1 person who told me they loved me and cared for me has completely desserted me and done things that i can no longer think about. i cant puke anymore and if i started to cry i dont think i would ever stop. i have never felt so low and unloved in my entire life. i know people are going to say that thinkgs will get better and take it day by day but i honestly dont think i can. omg please help. what am i supposed to do from here? anyone...please.
so i have been single for 6 months now. i have lost 40lbs, got a personal trainer, been working out, quit my kush job so i could go back to school and do something that i truly want to do, and even though all of these things are going so well for me, and everyone tells me that i shouldnt worry about having a woman in my life, i am still unhappy having nobody to go out with and having nobody to kiss when i get home. i want someone to WANT to see me and cant wait for me to get off of work so they can see me. I dont have this and the longer it goes on the easier it is NOT getting. not having sex of course sux but it isnt even about that anymore. its about passion, its about human touch and raw emotion. its about getting butterflies when u r close. i have none of this at this point and it is starting to consume me. what does one do when a feeling comes over you that is so strong u have to react to it yet you have no idea what ur reaction should be?
