Well, as per usual, I take a risk and it does not pay off at all. I've lost count of how many women have rejected me for being "ugly." I have about given up on meeting someone. What's the point of putting yourself out there to always be rejected? I am just fed up. Am I really that hideous? Obviously this is coming out of a place of anger at the moment. But, I can't be rational right now.

Just fucking sick of the disappointments in this area of my life. I just want to destroy everything that's around me at the moment. Of course, then I would be out a phone and laptop and other things...so that would be stupid. I kinda want to cut myself. I haven't had those thoughts in a good long while. But, with everything being a disaster in my life lately, it's cropping back up.

The past year alone in my life has been a difficult time. I feel like life never gets better...just a series of continuous disappointments. Le sigh...