HOLY CRAP! shit is actually looking up for me! woo! SO where to start.

So I decided to turn my depression into a creative outlet. I got a Silhouette Cameo which is an epic paper cutting tool and have been using it ever since I opened the box. I am making paper craft cards for the holidays and it is making me so happy.


my two cards I have made so far...I also started an etsy store though it is not up and running yet. Especially since I need better pictures than the ones above. Also if I ever get my sewing machine up and running I might start selling my cat hats again.
old picture of my cat hat:


ON TOP OF THAT...I just got a job! it is only customer service stuff but I am getting paid more than my last job and will help me afford things I need for crafts and such. I still want to do video game stuff but I will work on that in my free time.

SO all in all I am very happy right now. The only thing that sucks is fitting into my old work clothes. I have gained a lot of weight because of the surgery so I am still struggling with that, but I won't let it get the best of me.
So yeah I hope everyone is doing well...sorry if I am not on much but I've got a lot going on! Most recent picture:


me with my sexy Dead Space shirt ^^
have a good one people!
~Nuka <3

so yeah, long time no post. I realize I forgot to mention that I took down my videos and am no longer a hopeful...I'm just kind of over the SG thing. I still love all the people here but I have a lot going on in my life right now so I decided to forget that part.
I am still recovering from my surgery. It feels like it is taking forever. It is becoming very annoying and frustrating just sitting around.

Things that have happened:
-Became a doctor who fan


-Also an Avatar the Last Airbender/Adventure time fan


-Figured out I have no idea what I am doing with my life


-Realized how much I love my bf and how much I don't want to ever live without him


-Made some new friends and become a bridesmaid for a wonderful girl!


-OBSESSED WITH BORDERLANDS 2


-learned how to make amazing pumpkin cupcakes because everything pumpkin is amazing!


I can't think of much else but I'm sure there are more...some pictures:







hope everyone is doing well!
~Nuka <3

so these past couple of weeks have been trying...I am doing much better after all this surgery stuff. I have been trying to get my stamina back up by walking at least an hour everyday. I seem to have gained some weight because I was doing absolutely nothing for a long while. It is just frustrating because I can't do anything really intense yet so I feel like I am going crazy waiting.
I'm also upset because I won't be going back to school due to money issues and I don't have anything to get a job in video games yet so I need a job now to pay back my loans but it won't be in what I want. I feel like I am stuck in an eternal loop of suck. I just wish I could find something I was really good at so someone would hire me out right and I could be happy for a while.
anyway...

drawing after my surgery.
feeling kind of depressed and need to find a way to make money...suggestions are appreciated.
~Nuka

Update:
I am home now and mobile for the most part. I am hobbling around like an old person but not hurting to much. Just wanted to give everyone an update.
~Nuka <3

So I have surgery at 7:30 am tomorrow. I won't be able to get on a computer anytime soon so thank you everyone for your well wishes ahead of time.
~Nuka <3

bleh...feeling shitty because if this fibroid so mostly bed ridden with my heating pad and Naproxen...and on really bad days Vicodin but I am trying not to use it to much..
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sexy I know

pictures of me stuck in bed

when I feel up to it I go out when I can

and try on bras

and playing dress up with my socks I usually never wear

I try to eat right

but try and have fun with things I like and things I want:

Also I have lots of time to think...and I think I just really suck at keeping up with people. I want lots of friends to talk to but I am just socially awkward on and off the internet....oh well...I guess that is just me...
I will leave you with this:

~Nuka <3

"IT'S MY BIRTHDAY, I CAN CRY IF I WANT TO" hahaha though no crying today hopefully...I am turning 27 today...for some reason it makes me feel old...I know I am still at the beginning years of my life but yeah...no more upset craziness today. I am relaxing and going to see Prometheus today then having a nice dinner with my family. My boyfriend is making me a cake since we are both broke but that is fine with me.
I will also post pictures of awesome birthday gifts I got from people here...<3 you all are amazing and thank you for all your well wishes from my last post. It really did make me feel better.
Anyway! PARTY TIME!
~Nuka <3

So this past month has been a cluster fuck of crazy. I have now dubbed it the month (and now month and a half+ongoing) from hell. After my car accident everything started falling apart. All my plans to stay in Savannah were dashed with no car. I tried really hard to stay but my landlord had already rented the place out I was staying at and I couldn't find a job with no car (my area is not the best so walking everywhere was not an option) I kept breaking things in school to the point where I truly wanted to get a tattoo on my finger that says "I break things"

Though I had awesome people around me to help fix it. I finally started making friends and started a D&D game before the month of hell and now I had to leave it all behind. Somewhere inside it just killed me to leave.
Now I am living at my parents place (back near philly) which is horrible. My parents are obviously unhappy and my mom seems to like to get on my case about everything I do wrong. No matter what I do I seem to fail at life...so yeah...yay bitchfest!
Anyway there is a lot more but I just don't have the heart to go through it right now. On top of all that my birthday is next week...the 20th! woo fucking hoo! my mom didn't really seem to care and I have given up hope of having a good birthday since the last couple of years have been awful.
I have been trying really hard to keep it together but I know I just have to press on.
Now is the time I have to get a summer job to get enough money to move out and work on my portfolio so I can actually get a job in video games...woo...so yeah...
love you all and miss you...sorry I haven't been responding to messages...I will once I feel better.
~Nuka <3
P.S. whoever posted one of my nude pictures on tumblr is a dick. I know it is inevitable when you post naked pics of yourself anywhere but it was the worst possible fucking timing...thanks...

Hey all!

SO this past week as been a hard one for me. These are just hard times it seems...so yeah this is whats going on in a nutshell:
-my lease on my apartment ends the same exact day as the end of school. (the 31st of this month)
-I am debating if I want to stay in GA or move back to PA with my parents I really don't want to move home but I could save money while I look for a job...but on the down side my parents will drive me crazy and I will get mega stressed there. If I stay in GA I would have to pay to stay (meaning I really need a job RIGHT NOW to stay) but I have a group of awesome friends and more connections here to find a job plus lots of opportunities to join independent groups of people making games from SCAD.
-I need to get a website up and running and rework my resume so I can try to apply for actual video game jobs.
-also a photoshoot might be in order since I got something special in the mail from one of my loveys on here

And now the big one:
I got into a car accident the 2nd. I am fine. I don't want to talk about the accident for insurance reason but it wasn't my fault. Anyway...I went to the hospital and got everything checked out. Nothing is broken and I am just really sore. I had to wear a sling for my left arm for a day or two and I got some pain killers but I am doing much better today. Still shaken up when I am in a car though hopefully that will go away.


In other news! A friend of mine decided to get an account on here to test it out. I love the community here and the people I have met are so awesome that I like to recommend it whenever I can so go and give my friend a warm welcome like I know everyone can his name is BrokenSounds he is a sweetheart so be extra nice!

in other other news I have become obsessed (and re-obsessed) with a few things...I watched Soul Eater and am now a HUGE fan! I have even started reading fan fics *dies* hahaha maka x soul yay! though my heart lies with Stein...I have a thing for slightly insane characters

Also I have been re-watching the X-men cartoon on Netflix and reopened my obsession with Rogue and Gambit. NOM NOM NOM omg GAMBIT! *dies*


and me being cute:


well now I have to go and actually do work...time to catch up!
I hope everyone is doing well
~Nuka