Well my lady friend and I had a talk...everything is okay for the moment. We will not be "together" but honestly that is what we both want. I require a lot of time for work and honestly cannot devote as much to a relationship as it would require. So we are fwb.
In the mean time I am preparing to visit Phoenix, AZ to see family and friends. Apparently a 19 yr old from down there wants to meet me and have her way with me...this has me on a fence. On one side it would really be nice to hook up because she is very pretty. The other side is moral dilemma...yes 19 is legal...but I don't know how I feel about sex with someone that much younger than I am. I suppose in the end I will find out when I am there. Generally I find that many people when placed in a put up or shut up situation tuck tail and run away.
This trip will be nice no matter what though, I get to see my Mother and Sister as well as my best friend Jacob. It should be a good time...only 4 days, but a lot can happen in 4 days.
In the mean time I am preparing to visit Phoenix, AZ to see family and friends. Apparently a 19 yr old from down there wants to meet me and have her way with me...this has me on a fence. On one side it would really be nice to hook up because she is very pretty. The other side is moral dilemma...yes 19 is legal...but I don't know how I feel about sex with someone that much younger than I am. I suppose in the end I will find out when I am there. Generally I find that many people when placed in a put up or shut up situation tuck tail and run away.
This trip will be nice no matter what though, I get to see my Mother and Sister as well as my best friend Jacob. It should be a good time...only 4 days, but a lot can happen in 4 days.
Whoo...okay done lifting for the last two hours and now my stomach hurts a bit. Worked out so hard I almost threw up...no fun but well worth it.
The lady friend is off to Albany, OR for a bit and I am alone for the weekend. Guess I will hit up Lucky Devil and talk to one of the ladies that might possibly model for my catalog and take in the sights and sounds. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
The lady friend is off to Albany, OR for a bit and I am alone for the weekend. Guess I will hit up Lucky Devil and talk to one of the ladies that might possibly model for my catalog and take in the sights and sounds. Hope everyone is having a great weekend.
Oh damn...another cold. 3rd one in 4 weeks...I get better for a few days and...BAM! Cold. Ugh...
In other news things with Hot Topic are still well even with some set backs on our side with machines...ahh the exciting life of manufacturing. It beats all of my previous jobs by far though. After 8 years of this you may think I like it...you would be correct.
Getting ready to shoot our catalog soon. I am excited about that. It can be difficult to find models...I almost wish I could just use pics of girls from SG wearing Kaos silicone...but that is a big no no. So I will do it muh damned self...I know it sounds difficult setting all this up and staring at pretty women while taking photos for hours...my life blows
Yeah...not so much.
Hoping to get this cold shaken off...I want to work out damn it. I started back in September of 2012 and have been pretty into it. I lost 40 pounds already and plan to continue lifting and seeing how it changes me. I enjoy the weight loss but I am all about getting muscular definition. I look forward to the day when I look in the mirror and see just muscle instead of chunk. But for now I know the chunk will go away...good riddance I say
In other news things with Hot Topic are still well even with some set backs on our side with machines...ahh the exciting life of manufacturing. It beats all of my previous jobs by far though. After 8 years of this you may think I like it...you would be correct.
Getting ready to shoot our catalog soon. I am excited about that. It can be difficult to find models...I almost wish I could just use pics of girls from SG wearing Kaos silicone...but that is a big no no. So I will do it muh damned self...I know it sounds difficult setting all this up and staring at pretty women while taking photos for hours...my life blows
Yeah...not so much.Hoping to get this cold shaken off...I want to work out damn it. I started back in September of 2012 and have been pretty into it. I lost 40 pounds already and plan to continue lifting and seeing how it changes me. I enjoy the weight loss but I am all about getting muscular definition. I look forward to the day when I look in the mirror and see just muscle instead of chunk. But for now I know the chunk will go away...good riddance I say
I never posted an image of the finished piece so here...
apparently I should make more of these...maybe I could be an artist when I grow up?
Love
One of my first loves...was art. I still find myself in her arms when everything else seems so empty and alien. So I wrapped up inside of her today...and I am closer to being done with a piece. Then I can start on the next piece. Because I already have so many ideas for what is next.
I am living in Portland, OR now...have been for a year. It's been lonely but I work so much the only time I notice is when I am off work. Anyway someone reactivated my account...how kind. So thanks to whomever you were
So apparently by the end of September/ beginning of October I will be transplanting myself to Portland, OR. I am really looking forward to the move. The whole company of Kaos Softwear should be moved to Portland by then as well. We have even had thoughts of opening a retail store in Portland as part of our warehouse front. However that is only speculation at this time. I am looking forward to leaving the desert behind me and enjoying rain and bicycle riding. Not only that but just getting to know a new city and it's residents. I may just be on my way to finding a place to call home.
(edit: we moved way ahead of schedule and left in August 09)
(edit: we moved way ahead of schedule and left in August 09)
I feel my age somehow...I have somehow lost something in myself. I don't feel as passionate about women right now. Part of me thinks that might be a good thing. Maybe now I can concentrate on building a better life for myself. It's just odd to me that affection is so alien to me now that when I do touch a girl...it feels weird. I do not feel connected to anyone I guess. Maybe I need romance again...maybe that will get the sparks going in my head. I have no idea. Maybe it is just me being 36.
