So the other day I started having magical revelations while I was taking my morning walk, and I started thinking about how so many of my favorite writers are both British and magicians, so I bought a lot of books on chaos magic. I appreciate the concept of it because it seems to embody a spirit of do-it-yourself religion, but there is a deeper and more ineffable essence to it all that I can't put perfectly into words at the moment.

There is a sense of always questioning, always expanding your understanding further and further, and seeing the world not just for what it is. Buddhism, my foundation for spirituality, emphasizes clear seeing and understanding things as they are, but chaos magic is almost coming at it from a different angle where you find more and more creative ways to view things. You add a depth to reality by the innovative ways in which you come to view it. Blagh, I can't really explain. It bothers me sometimes, because my philosophy professor used to say that you can't claim to really know something that you can't explain. That's bullshit though. How can you explain what an orange tastes like to someone? All words fail ultimately, and only the experience can communicate reality to people.

There is also more of an emphasis on self-empowerment, self-liberation, and using your knowledge of the world to play it like your instrument. Control and manipulation are inevitably a part of any magical practice. Some shun this notion, but it is what it is. All science and sorcery spring from the ideals of observing cause and effect and then manipulating the causes to produce your desired effects. My study of chaos magic brings me to several basic notions that I find to be the ground of my practice.

First, the human consciousness and how we see things has a very real influence on the nature of reality. The phrase "it's all in how you look at it" comes to mind, which is why shifting your worldview to accommodate whatever you're engaged in is emphasized. For example, I believe there is infinite depth to the human consciousness and also infinite breadth. The rabbit hole goes down a long way. We draw all our magic from our consciousness and the manipulation of other peoples' consciousnesses. This sort of makes the prospect of ghosts MORE frightening for me. I don't believe they exist as some external force of spookiness, but rather as something that comes from within us, which makes it all the more difficult to escape them!!

I'm nuts, and I understand perfectly what I'm talking about, but you probably don't, so I apologize. If you're curious, message me and we'll talk more about it.