I'm so sorry. I can't presume to know anything about your situation, but I do hope that everything falls together in a way that is best for you.

I really feel you, my good friend. There are so many ways to lose someone you love and/or care about. It's happened to me a number of times in my life. Sometimes it's permanent, in my case due to the passing of my best friend eight years ago, and of my wife almost three years ago.

Sometimes a loss can be reversed. I thought I lost someone who meant so much to me forever, about a month ago. Gradually, we began communicating again, although we are not at the same plateau that we were at the time she ended our relationship originally. As long as the lines of communication are open between us, only time will tell if things will get back to some semblance of what they were before.

Hopefully, a similar scenario will come to pass for you in time. I obviously don't know where the two of you left things. The only thing i can do is express my sincerest hope that things can be worked out between you two. I hope so, if that is what you want. In the meantime, try to be strong.

Best wishes.