And you're so cynical, Narcisstic Cannibal
Got to bring myself back from the dead...

PHOTOBOMB!


Custom fangs...



Pics by Joe Traina:







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Hard Rock Girls/ CDP photoshoot!



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CYBERDOG SAYS RAVE!





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Pics by Adam Grey

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Me and Patrick Wolf at Reading Festival!



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Glitter!!!




hehehe






xxxxxo

So i just want to start out by saying THANK YOU all soooooo much for all the sweet comments and love you have shown for my new set Phantasmagoria !!!!! Everyone has just shown so much support and left the most awesome comments I am just so happy!!!!
Thank you all!!!!

If you have yet to see the set you can find it here ---->> Phantasmagoria it was shot by the lovely Alissa (whom i also must thank again and again and again for helping me create such an awesome set!)







yayyyyy!!!

There are soooo many other gorgeous sets just sitting in MR right now so make sure you guys show all of them some love as well!!

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

soooo in other news: I just had to share my love for toki doki. and unicorns. and when you put the two together *squee* i just explode... so when i found this adorable little necklace on Etsy.... i just couldnt resist!



!!!! hehehe I'm such a dork sometimes

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couple pics from a new photoshoot wearing one of my original designs!! The vinyl unicorn dress and vinyl anime style giant bow belt are both pieces of a collection I will be showing probably sometime after the first of next year





Shot by Rachel Kittie Howard <3 <3 <3

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so I know it has been a looooong time since I have posted any of my poetry so I think it's high time I share a little something..... ^_^


blue glitter


a phantasmagorical allegory
rope bound by ink
cut across the divide
line crossed
crosshairs wind blown
and scared
tempted apple boy
bitten and red my lips hot
and bloodthirsty
whiskey and blue glitter.
fear fear in your heartpiece
it’s relative to the rest
consorting with the devil
is a whimsical game
ballet shoes criss cross
the skin hills
like dancing on ice
skating through hell
you remain intact, mostly
breathless
banged and blown through
speakers for eyes
no need for words
i feel them pierce my retinas
searing in the message
that the apocalypse has begun
and the night is yours
for the taking.

nowhere left to hide
i feel you inside me now
twisting and snaking around
my thin girl bones
acid wash each crevice
napalm to the lungs
i’m on exhibit for you
taking in everything
inhale through your mouth
licking your air
dry
clean cannibalism through another
its in the stars now
and the way they float
breaking apart
fingering asteroids
lifting up unto you
knowing this reality
is stretched thin
and i have sharp scissors
hiding between my thighs.

so lets take a vote
make it unanimous
these gates have been laced
with explosives
set off one by one
gingerly by hand
and the final fire
is within your grasp
seething with rage
something hidden i cant find
but will nurture
letting your violence
decimate me
unlocking the things
you’ve tried so hard
to keep away from others
my willingness to concede
to things unspeakable
evils untold
i know not your driving force
but when it chokes me
i feel precious
and fragile
a white rabbit
in the headlights
frozen by your grasp
car swerving round the bend
waiting for impact.

i will let you plow through me
decorate your windshield
with my fragility
sigh with relief
because you’re in control
and nothing is left to chance.

use me.
take me.
break me.
do with me as you please
carnivorous animal

dinner is served.



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So the most amazing cd of the year came out just a few days ago and I simply must share it with you! If you have never heard of Patrick Wolf then you must must must go listen to his music!! It is uncategorizable, unbelievable, simply the most beautiful music ever created (well at least to me it is lol) and his new album Lupercalia is now out!!!!! Every album he has ever done is pure magic and this one is no different....

These two songs especially are so heartbreakingly gorgeous I can't even describe.....






he really is nothing short of amazing.

AND

I am so overjoyed at the fact that not only will be heading to London for a couple weeks in August but I am going to be going to Reading Festival!!



Now the BEST part of all this is that on my birthday August 26th I will be seeing Patrick Wolf!!!!!!!!!! My heart is so full to bursting at how happy I am about this!!!! I saw him in Germany a little while back and in Atlanta and my god was he so incredible I can't even explain!!!!

I know this is total P Wolf overload but I just could not contain my excitement lol!

so just because here is one more song of his off an older album but still to this day stands as my favorite song ever created by anyone....




sigh. he is incredible.

ok I'm done now.

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and just for putting you through my long Patrick rant I have a present for you all......

i suppose that's all for now!!! much love *kiss*

hello sg land! I am back now...for good...i forgot how much i missed this site ^_^ I've finally figured out how to balance a bazillion things at once so now i will be able to post more frequently like i used to hehe

so first and foremost... I have a new set coming up!!! It was shot with the illustrious Alissa Brunelli down in Miami! It's called Phantasmagoria and will be up in MR on June 24th!!! I'm super stoked!!!

anyone want a couple teasers? hehe







i had such a blast shooting this set! yay!

I've been shooting a lot lately so I thought maybe I would post a few of my most recent shoots... my favorite that i've done is by a good friend of mine Casey Moore... we wanted to do a Suckerpunch ish steampunk shoot that would take place after the alien apocalypse hehe





most of the accessories i made myself

my friend Draven shot this awesome pic of me for his photography class... i found the posture collar when i was up in NY recently




super happy fun times!

so much has happened lately i hardly know what to write about lol

ooo i was fortunate enough to go to ULTRA this year and that was awesome! saw the darling Kalikina looking gorgeous as always <3

and i dressed up in my crazy rave-asaurus rex outfit i made





RAWR! hehehe

ummmm what else.... oooo! i did a zombie pin-up shoot a little while ago with the lovely Kittie Howard...that was mad fun except having all the raw meat so close to dripping on my face that now i dont eat much meat anymore lol the things we do for art....









aaaaaand lastly a couple pics from the last suspension show I did at Taboo at The Castle... It was a bit more performance-y than usual... I should have video soon so I wont spoil the main surprise as to what i did at the end but lets just say it involved a ridiculous contraption, a lot of blood and jello, and a coat hanger ;D

but heres a couple pics i managed to find from the beginning of it all...













now THAT was hella fun ^_^

anyways... i'm going to leave you with a badass song that i've had stuck in my head for awhile now and i just want to say how excited i am to be back!!! mmmmwahhhhh!!

Melleefresh- Damelo (Darth and Vader Remix)

xxxoooo!

Wow the last couple months have been a serious whirlwind of craziness!! I toured the midwest with the Genitorturers as one of their dancers/performers/wardrobe stylist...that was so rad! Did my first suspension show at The Castle for their Taboo Masquerade and Fetish Ball.... Had a blast! Also been dancing my ass off.... go-go dancing for Datsik was totally awesome and also danced for a Dr. Suess themed UV party last week.... So many crazy nights, fantastic people, life is pretty great right now hehe

So picture time!

Suspension show at Taboo:



















Wheee good times!!!

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Some pics from the Genitorturers tour:























Every night was so crazy! My portion of the show generally consisted of: zombie nurse blood spitting to the song Razor Cuts, strip tease while playing with alien baby intestines to Strip Doll, Piercing bible pages to myself and ripping them out onstage so Gen could shove the pages in my mouth during Lecher Bitch, and then dressing as a vegas showgirl and holding a REPENT sign while pretending to pee all over unsuspencting men. Lol!! Good fucking times yo!



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a phantasmagorical allegory
rope bound by ink
cut across the divide
line crossed
crosshairs wind blown
and scared
tempted apple boy
bitten and red my lips hot
and bloodthirsty

whiskey and glitter.

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Oh! and while I was in Pittsburgh i found the most BADASS necklace ever!

Satanic Mickey Mouse!






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Datsik was amazing i orginally made the zombie nurse outfit and dreads for that show:



that was a night of grimey grimey dubstep for sure heheh

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And the Dr. Suess UV party was rather mind blowing actually, fun as hell!









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Hmmm let's see what else...finals are over YAY!!! now i have time to catch up on photoshoots and start making the costumes for the next Genitorturers tour starting in February

oh yeah and touring with the Genitorturers as an opener for most of the shows was Mary Magdalan who is just plain fucking awesome so here's a random pic of me in her shirt showin the dirty trash love!!!





WE DON'T GIVE A FUCK! WE'RE FUCKING DIRTY TRASH!!!!!

XXX

For all you Ohio darlins: I'm going to be performing with the GENITORTURERS tonight in Columbus, OH at Alrosa Villa so anyone who wants to come see a crazy ridiculously awesome show should totally do so tonight!!

XOXX <3!!

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(People commonly call out, as they stand
soaking in their own sucking chest wound,
for another loud tremor or two
to open up what’s left and
play a smooth game of Tetris
with bone spurs and synergy spirits.

I can taste your loathing pretty girl.
Can you taste mine?)


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*all photography by Joe Traina*

versatile vanity.

(eat me, drink me)

... . .

I do love going to The Castle. <3







oh yeah... i dyed my hair white hehe

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pssst...guess what?

this video makes me go mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm!



<3

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most likely doing another suspension this week....
I'm thinking 10 points.... 4 on back.... 3 on each arm.....

yum yum fun times!

This Is How We Do.

The Marquis

earthbound
she has fallen to her knees
taking in her mouth
the sepulchre
of warring answers/eastern culture/falsities
she bathes the silken resentment
stripping away dust particles
flakes of other loyal subjects
the season at its turn.
noticeably she laps the cream
a cat purring into the milk bowl
her eyes jewel up in reverence.
a serpentine slide
and firm porcelain grip
she spells out tales
of times remembered/regretted/ascended
moist letters spill out
upon the unmoved
but deeply affected.
sharp pulses of flesh
imprint upon blushing cushions
two pillowy doors
to the temple of “I’ve been here before.”
she languishes over the velvet mushroom
closes her eyes to the world
and swallows every drop of enlightenment
her young mouth can hold.

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