I know I said I was going to bed yayforme so dont yell at me. But Im waiting to get tucked in

I just wanted to drop a line and thank those of you who made a point to check up on me and try to cheer me up. You rock!

Anywho, I'll be okay. I'll figure this shit out. I wont let a stupid wench get the best of me. Im thinkin bout signing with another company so I can still love my job and show her I dont need her to succeed. I dunno for sure...I gotta a lot of brain muddlin to do it seems.

Damn 2 steps forward 8 steps back its seems sometimes. Ah well, at least I have people who rock and care about me and nurse me back to happiness Now I just need to nurse this hangover, thats the last time I drink till 8am and them only get a lil over an hour of sleep. Im too old for that shit hehe.

Song of the Day: Fuck Machine by Propagandhi
---did I do this one already? ah well if
i did it just proves its a good song!!!

it was totally a jealousy thing...it just makes me so sad cuz i put all my faith in this woman and just like any other woman i have let into my life she stabbed me in the back in the absolute worse way she could

oh god i feel so empty i just want to cry and drink and punch things. unfortunately i drank all my vodka and what was left of my bicardi and my head hurts too much to go get more. sigh, im just so sad ya know?

i just need someone to get drunk with me and cuddle me all night but hubby isnt here and friends are still passed out from my drinking binge last night. poor things forgot how much i can drink when im upset. by the time i finished the vodka and moved onto the bicardi everyone else was either puking or passed out. i couldnt sleep. my stupid fucking brain wouldnt shut up. so i drank more...and more...until there was just two beers in the fridge and i even broke down and drank those...i hate beer...

finally fell asleep at approx 8:30am only to be awoken by the horrible shrilling phone at 10am. hah. stupid people wanting to talk to me about clothes. i dont care about fucking clothes jesus. now im too tired to sleep and my head is fuckin killin me. havent had a hangover in years, feels like i havent had food in years hehe.

wow im angry everyone, im sorry, this all might not make sense but it really just started off as a comment for yayforme and then was just too long so i made it into a journal entry...

i need a release...

Horiffic how one spiteful person can crush your dream...oh god i dunno what to do

Coffee is so incredibly good mmmm. Well its noon thirty here and the only thing I have accomplished is breaking two nails and making a pot of coffee. And ya know what? Its all good. Well not breakin the nails I guess, that hurt. But Im diggin being lazy. Im just sitting here makin a bunch of punk comps for my cousin who's just gettin into the scene. I love introducing people to new music. Its honestly one of my all time favorite things to do. I get all wiggly and excited about it.

Sigh, I really need to go the store...but theres snow out there and I dont like driving the lil car in the snow. Hmmm. Hey I put a few more pics in the Random folder and Im about to put a few more in the Just Me folder. I love pictures, I wish I could get the pictures from my camera on here. They look a lot butter than my webcam and cell cam. But my film is a floppy disk and my new computer doesnt have a floppy disk drive, isnt that weird?

Im totally diggin Strung Out's newer album Exile in Oblivion right now. I love it when an album forces you to turn the volume all the way so you can just drowned in the sound. Mmmm its totally gonna be a music day, all music all day. Hmmm maybe I'll get a lil messed up too, that sounds like fun, hell ya!

Oh God it's so funny!!!! Type FAILURE into www.google.com and click on the Im Feeling Lucky button...see what website comes up...OMG I think Im gonna die, the laughter hurts...too much....way too funny!!!!!!!!

Let me paint a picture of pure beauty...

I step outside looking at my feet
It's white all around me
I look up to see a matching sky
The naked trees are a beautiful contrast
There is not an unnatural sound to be heard
No cars
No voices
No animals of any sort
The only sound I hear is the snow hitting the earth
Its beautiful
Breath plumes around my face
I am stuck in the perfectness of the moment
A bittersweet breeze blows a cloud of snow around me
I step forward into the canvas delighted to have the first mark
Laughter escapes and I feel like a child again
And for just one moment the world is mine...

I gotta hangover Im thinkin but I really didnt drink much yesterday. Just a few glasses of champagne...maybe more than a few. Now I gotta hid in my hoodie cuz the light hurts my eyes and I dont wanna brush my hair....good story huh? Hehe I was just lookin at my pic and I think I look like a Jedi wanna be...or a boy LOL! Im bored so Im gonna put on some BigWig and wiggle around

Happy Thanksgiving everybody!!!! I hope you all have a wonderful day and please eat a lil bit extra food because I cant eat it. God I miss being able to eat anything. I hate being allergic to dairy. Ah well what can ya do?


ps
I really like mashed potatoes with shit tons of gravy so somebody make sure to eat that for me...thank you!

ppss
I just posted pictures I took out in Hawaii iffen you want to look they are under Vacation Memories..

Look at that tongue...it is so fricken blue it is absolutely insane! This is what made me happy today LOL Im serious. Im disappointed that I didnt get more happy comments people come on!

I really have nuthin of interest to say sooooo Im out...

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Song of the Day: Sour Grapes by Descendents

Everyone go out and do something that you know will make you happy and tell me about it...GO...RIGHT NOW!!! Come one, it'll be fun....I want a crapload of comments about the fun stuff you did by tomorrow night!

Hehe can you tell Im in a weird state of mind?